My Alleged Husband

Chapter 755: 725 Chapter: Utterly Speechless_1

”Xia Jing, I could tolerate anything you did, I could overlook it, I could forgive you, but what you did today, I truly have no way to forgive. I don’t understand, we were about to set off, why didn’t you speak a few words of good luck, why did you choose to say things that hurt me, why would you use such words to attack me?”

Everything you did from the beginning until now, I could empathize with. I thought it was human nature, I thought you were a person of deep feeling and loyalty. But I am no saint. Just because I know something doesn’t mean I’m ignorant of everything else, or have chosen to remain silent. I’ve been observing your actions towards me. Some things you did really touched me. But why do your actions force me into an unrighteous and unprincipled position over and over again?”

How much I wished we could live happily together. How much I longed for the two of us to join hands and walk towards the most beautiful time in the world to enter the final stage of our lives. But why did you choose to strike me like this, time and again, dragging me into the abyss of pain, struggling desperately in that painful chasm, yet no matter what, unable to escape it?”

Is this really what you wanted?”

No matter what, I can’t believe that the person in front of me, who I have always thought about, could become so terrifying. You’re the one I’ve yearned for, why would you do something to hurt me like this?”

Seeing me in agony, struggling in pain, does it make you happy, does it bring you joy? We’re family, no matter what hurts me, it’s the same as hurting you. Do you really have the heart to see your own family get hurt over and over again?”

Rendered speechless by Zhang Zhentian’s questions, Xia Jing had but one thing to say, no matter how much she had been hurt, she never wanted her family to suffer because family is the most important to a person.

Even if deep down she had never thought of becoming his family, in her heart, everything had become her home, deeply rooted in her memory.

If she now chose to let all this turn to ash for no apparent reason, no one would bear it, nor would anyone wish for such a thing to happen here.

”Zhentian, you should understand very well, that no one wants their family to be harmed, no matter what pain they have endured. As long as my family is safe, to me those are still days of happiness and joy. Your question today really puts me on the spot. You know what is truly in my heart, yet you still resolutely chose to ask. In your heart, you’re making a bet with heaven, you’re betting on my kindness, betting because you don’t believe I could be so heartless towards you!”

Maybe you think all this is unforgivable, but do you know what kind of ordeal I have been through these years?

In everyone’s eyes, I, the leader of the Mercenary Group, live a carefree and free life. But who knows how much pain and difficulty I have endured deep inside these years?”

Who has experienced the hardship and pain I’ve gone through over these years? Who can understand the pain of facing your own kin, seeing your brothers stand before you, watching them give their all to finish a mission, watching them do anything to show loyalty to you? Do you know what kind of pain that is?”

I knew that some paths, once chosen, cannot be changed, but I still stubbornly chose such a path. Because I believe the path is made by walking it. No matter how arduous the road is, as long as I march on bravely, that path will definitely be the right one for me. Even if the road ahead is thorny or smooth, since it’s my choice, I will crawl to the end if necessary!”

Zhang Zhentian felt very upset. Didn’t Xia Jing relinquish her position as the leader of the Mercenary Group to Xiao Wei? What now?

”Just now, when I heard you speak, there was something I didn’t understand. Didn’t you already step down from the Mercenary Group’s leadership role? Didn’t you already hand over that responsibility to your brother? Why do I feel there’s still a problem when I hear you talk like this?

I hope you can tell me the truth. I hope that this time, on this matter, you haven’t lied to me. If you have even lied about this, then I really don’t know what I’m staying with you for?”

You also know very well the ups and downs we’ve gone through these years together. Every step we took was very difficult, but we never gave up because we believed that as long as we bravely moved forward, heaven would not disappoint us. But now, I’m not sure anymore. I’ve followed you so confidently for so long, given so much. Heaven, gave you all the rewards, but what about me? It has taken one thing after another from me, and my loss has become your gain. Why treat me this way? Is heaven really against me? Where am I inferior to you? How have I wronged heaven, that it tortures me time and time again, looking at my sorrow as if heaven can still smile brightly in the sunshine, why?”

”Why would you think like that? Haven’t we been very happy together these years? You received a lot of joy, a lot of happiness, while I created your happiness with my own unhappiness. Isn’t that a gain? Why must you nitpick over the things I’ve gained? The things you feel you’ve lost because of my gains, aren’t they also the things I’ve lost for you to gain?”

Actually, many things are not unknown to you. If only you put yourself in someone else’s shoes, you’d realize some things are really not as you imagined. If you think from another’s perspective, you will see what you truly want deep inside, what good those things are for you, and whether you should keep obsessing over them!”