My Alleged Husband

Chapter 784: Chapter 754: The Call of Love_1

Xia Jing knew that whatever she said now, there might be no way to redeem the shadow of hurt she had caused in her son’s heart. She knew that her actions were seen as nothing more than a tool for hurting others in his eyes, yet she had forgotten that she was also a mother, a wife. How could her heart not ache when she saw her husband suffering? And witnessing her family in such sorrow time and again, how could she truly remain indifferent?

No matter what, her son still didn’t understand her. All this was the consequence of her absence, time and time again, from his side. If she had stayed with him from the beginning, would the outcome not be as passive as it was now, would it not have reached this point?

”Child, rest assured, now that I have chosen to make amends, I will definitely not evade the consequences of my actions. I’m well aware of the outcome that my actions face deep in my heart, and I don’t want my family to keep getting hurt because of me—I am not made of wood.”

”I too feel heartache. I just hope that during every desperate moment of pain, my family can stand by me, instead of repeatedly doubting me. At the very least, they should afford me the respect and understanding I deserve. If you keep doubting me, can we even call ourselves a family?”

Perhaps you still don’t quite understand what family is, but do you know? I am terrified of the day when I might lose my family.

Even if I have made mistakes, I still hope for the care and support of my family and friends, rather than facing doubts every time something goes wrong—blamed as the culprit. Do you know how painful it is to feel untrusted?

If this time I truly manage to fulfill everyone’s wish and your father wakes up, I hope we won’t face situations like today’s ever again. I just want more understanding and care between us, not repeated confrontations that would be painful for everyone, isn’t it so?”

Zhang Yichen understood these principles all too well, yet there were some things he was reluctant to admit. Because admitting them meant acknowledging his mistakes, and as a proud person, how could he possibly take the blame for everything, admitting he was wrong? Hadn’t he repeatedly put his pride aside and made all things different, all for the hope that one day he could prove to everyone that all he did was right?

If he gave up now, wouldn’t it mean that everything he had done was wasted? Why should he give it all up, and what reason would he have to stay?

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As time slowly passed, Zhang Yichen felt he no longer needed to stay in this hospital room. Your time now was entirely devoted to your mother and father. If his father could really wake up as he wished, that would be the best. Even if his father couldn’t wake up in the end, he would have to accept the outcome.

Seeing her son leave, Xia Jing felt it was time to tell her husband everything. How lonely must she have been laying there alone, and what was she, his wife, doing not staying by his side?

Xia Jing took steps, leaning on the bed, to her husband’s bedside. She gently sat on the chair beside him and softly called into his ear.

”Zhentian, what was it all for? For the sake of a woman like me, do you know? You sacrificed your wonderful youth in my hands, repeatedly giving so much for me, while I chose time and again to hurt you. I never realized my mistakes. Tell me, do I deserve to die?

You always felt that you didn’t hold a place in my heart, but do you know? How could you possibly not have a place in my heart? I value your presence so much, yet your constant doubts finally broke my heart. I have grown cold; I’m no longer willing to live with you because you never trusted me.

You should know well, how painful it is to live without trust between two people. If it’s truly impossible for two people to live together, then why did we choose to get to know each other, to be together in the first place?

Now, in the eyes of all present, every fault is mine, and I must admit that if it weren’t for our argument in the car, this accident wouldn’t have happened. But is it really solely my fault that caused this car accident? Why doesn’t anyone consider the root of the issue, instead of always blaming me – am I destined to be a scapegoat?

I have given so much, again and again, longing to stay by your side, to live a sincere life with you. Yet in the end, all I have found is distrust and doubt from you. A marriage without trust can’t be happy, and you know this better than anyone. Just as I don’t trust you, would your heart be at ease? Likewise, you’ve never considered my perspective.

If you truly have me, your wife, in your heart, then please wake up and clarify everything in front of everyone. I want you to boldly tell them that it’s not as they believe, that I didn’t cause this, that I didn’t treat you as they say I did. I’m tired of the blame and lies constantly being pinned on me, forcing me to bear the unbearable. You might be comfortable now, lying here, but what about me, the conscious one, who has to face everyone’s judgment and criticism?

Can you really bear to see the woman you love subjected to such unfair treatment? If you care about me even a little, then please wake up quickly. Don’t let such things happen to me anymore, don’t let everyone keep judging me, or causing me harm with their words. If you can’t bear it, then why insist on lying here asleep?”