My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1986: Chapter 1780: The Price

”Actually, when he left me initially, I never imagined I would pay such a heavy price. To me, he would never leave me, yet no one knew he would depart so resolutely.”

Now, in Zhang Ni’s heart, Zhang Yichen is just a selfish father. The result of his selfishness has been achieved, sacrificing family for his own goals, hurting those closest to him.

He thinks his father is terrifying, willing to consider only his own interests instead of his family’s. For his own benefit, he harms everyone around him.

Now, he no longer understands the purpose of his actions. Maybe what he’s done hurts those who love him most, but he seems not to care anymore. Even so, he’s still doing whatever he pleases, having abandoned his entire family. He ignores every word from everyone in the family. He’s no longer the father he used to be; he’s changed, becoming completely different, becoming ruthless and unfeeling. Is he really still my father? Why is he living like this now?

Zhang Ni has no way to understand why his father has changed like this. What could be the reason? Is it just the lack of parental love?

Even if it’s truly because of a lack of parental affection, he didn’t have to do what he did. Has he considered his parents’ feelings? Did he ever think about how painful it would be for his mom and dad to find out deep down? He only sees himself now; it’s like they’re two entirely different people.

Zhang Yichen knows how his image has changed in his son’s mind, but he can’t help it. Things have reached this point, and he can only let the mistake continue. He never imagined living such a pitiful life. He thought as long as he was happy, as long as his parents were safe and sound without arguments, he’d be content. But now the world is a mess, and how can he act like nothing ever happened to restore things to their original state?

”Son, I know deep inside, you see me, your father, as completely irresponsible. We’ve missed so much. You know how much I longed for my parents to be by my side. You’ve always had your mom and me with you, so you don’t understand the feeling of lacking parental companionship or how deeply it stirs you, how painful it is for a man. We can’t always cast aside everything we don’t want and make others bear it for us. No one wants to bear it again and again. I don’t ask for much; I just hope everyone can live peacefully and happily. Why is it so difficult?

You’re no longer as important in your heart as I used to be. You always think everything I’ve done is for my own selfish desires. Do you know? Over the years, I’ve seen firsthand my grandfather’s pain and how much he’s longed for his son to be by his side. I’m used to my parents never being around, but my grandfather can’t take it. He’s too old to withstand any turmoil. He just wants his last wish to come true. How could I so easily extinguish all my grandpa’s hopes out of hate?”

You should understand deep down how he truly feels about me.”

You’ve seen these years how hard he’s lived, how much he’s suffered, giving all his best to me.”

Just because of this little thing, should I let all his years of waiting turn to ruin?”

I once told you I’m a person who always repays kindness and what I can’t have; I’d rather destroy than let anyone else have it. But I can’t do that now.”

Because if I did, no one could know what would happen to my grandfather in the end. Sometimes, consider things from someone else’s perspective.”

The selfish and self-serving times of mine are gone. I can no longer, like before, act with a clear conscience and indifference. I no longer have any reason to treat everything carelessly like before. Now, I’m filled with fear of life. I’m afraid that one careless move might bring harm to my family. Every decision I make now is just to ensure that everyone in the family can live in happiness. Do you still think this house is the kind of home it should be? It’s not, your mom has become like this, and now, should I also expel your grandparents because of these issues? That would truly shatter the family beyond repair.

Even if Zhang Ni can ignore his mom’s and dad’s thoughts, he cannot disregard his great-grandfather’s feelings.

Deep down, she knows better than anyone how good Old Master Zhang has been to her father, how good he’s been to her. He’s given everything, wanting to give us the best. But now he’s hurt because of these things, so where does her conscience lie? How can she face all those who have helped her? Does what she’s done truly live up to the help they’ve given her, and the efforts and joy she’s put forth again and again? She never realized how hard her life would be, wanting only the happiness of every family member.

Ultimately, her father’s actions weren’t wrong. He became the way he is today for the family, so each family member could live happily. If she blames him for these things, would she really be right? Wouldn’t she then truly become the person lacking integrity, righteousness, loyalty, and filial piety? Regardless, she must let her family live safely and happily. Perhaps the most important thing in a family is having a way for everyone to live together, arm in arm, no matter how thorny the path ahead might be.”

”Perhaps I hurt him too deeply, making him desperately want to escape my side!”