My Alleged Husband

Chapter 526: Chapter 505 Don’t say it anymore_1

Zhang Zhentian saw that Xia Jing was hesitating, and he knew there was still hope for this matter. As long as he continued to talk, she would surely soften and return to his side. She simply couldn’t give up this opportunity so easily. For him, this opportunity was a once-in-a-lifetime chance. If he missed it this time, he truly didn’t know when he would be able to see the woman he loved the most in his heart again. To him, the greatest joy in his life was living with the person he loved. If he lost her, what meaning would his life have? What use were all these things to him?

Xia Jing looked at Zhang Zhentian, who was gazing at her with expectation. She knew that her heart was about to be entangled in pain over this matter again. She didn’t know what outcome would be the best for both of them. Every decision she made would ultimately affect everyone’s fate and would change things that didn’t need to happen.

Every decision he made would determine the happiness in everyone’s lives. Why should such a heavy burden be placed on his shoulders? He really couldn’t accept it, couldn’t accept that these issues always seemed to be connected to him. Was he doomed to face such things in his life? Was his entire life destined to be governed by this fate? No, she wanted to resist, she wanted to turn this fate into her own effort, absolutely refusing to follow the steps laid out by fate.

”Xia Jing, have you thought it over? Have you decided to come back to me? If there’s even a little bit of feeling left in your heart for us, then I hope you won’t let go so easily. Don’t leave me in such pain and conflict. I just want to take good care of you by your side. It was my fault before; I made so many irreparable mistakes. But I hope you can give me another chance. Don’t let the relationship between us as husband and wife break apart like this!”

Actually, I know there’s still a place for me in your heart. You’ve always been unsure how to express your love for me, unsure how to face all of this. But all of this should become the past, shouldn’t it? We have gone through so many trials and pains together. Should we let a small mistake completely break the bond of over a decade of marriage? It’s not something you can forget if you just say you will. Can’t you please think it over once more? Don’t do something that we’ll both regret for the rest of our lives, okay?

Maybe you don’t know, but during these days without you, my heart has been in agony. I really don’t ask for much. Having you by my side is the greatest happiness to me. Perhaps you think I am lying to deceive you into returning to me, but I hope you can try to trust me. Trust me, this person who has been lying to you from the beginning. My heart isn’t made of stone. I see your effort, and my heart truly softens. I am not a heartless and unscrupulous man. On the contrary, I am more compassionate and righteous than many men. I just don’t know how to deal with our feelings. Maybe these feelings aren’t important to you, but they are very important to me. We have such a wonderful son together, and our family could have lived together happily. But because of my mistake, we ended up in this situation, causing our loved ones to suffer for our affairs again and again. With what right can we blame others? All of this is my fault alone!

If you can forgive me, please come back to me. If you have never hated me, then treat me as the person you love the most. If there’s still a place for me in your heart, then please regard me as your husband and give me another chance. Give our family another chance, and give each other another chance. Let us truly make everyone happy again, okay?”

Xia Jing was truly conflicted. The choice she faced this time was enormous, and she didn’t know what the best outcome would be. But all these decisions were weighing down on her, suffocating her. She just wanted to live a quiet life. She wanted her husband to understand that mistakes must be borne with responsibility, and that it’s not possible to escape from it, no matter what excuses are made. Not every mistake can be evaded by finding excuses. People need to learn to grow because it’s only through growth that one truly understands you.

”You really don’t need to be like this to me,” she said, ”because I’m also not clear if I want to be with you. We’ve had too many conflicts, told too many lies to each other. What I want is not this kind of life. I just want to live quietly for the rest of my life, without being mixed up in anything else. Being with you, I became ruthless and unscrupulous, doing too many bad things just to be with you. I even disregarded my family, abandoning everything. But in the end, I realized that no matter how I treated you, it was all in vain because that’s not what you want in your heart. I don’t know what you’re struggling with, but I hope you can understand that our feelings for each other can’t be forgotten just by saying so, that the mistakes we’ve made can’t just disappear. We’ve really missed out on a lot over the years. I’ve been through a lot and have come to understand my attitude. I think if a husband and wife truly love each other, they will come back together no matter what. If there’s no trust or affection between them, what’s the use of forcing them together? They will eventually face separation!”

”I’ve said so much, hoping you can understand my sincere intentions. Maybe we really aren’t suitable for each other. Let’s give each other a way out so that we can both have a way to live. Let’s not push each other to a dead end. That wouldn’t be good for anyone, understand?”

”Stop talking... just stop...”