My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1947: Chapter 1741: Can’t Escape

Sometimes I find that no matter how I avoid you, I can’t escape. I don’t know if you’re the obsession I can’t shake off, or if we’re meant to be this way.

”You haven’t answered me yet. Has there never been a moment when you’ve felt anything for me? Have you really never thought that maybe one day we could be together? Have these thoughts never occurred to you from the beginning until now?”

”Chen Gang, I have to admit that I once had these thoughts. At that time, I also hoped that one day I could be with you, but as soon as that idea arose, I snuffed it out myself because deep down I knew that a woman as humble as me could never have the best love. But later, I didn’t expect to meet him, nor did I expect that after being apart for so long, we would reunite. He had been searching for me all those years, and when he finally found me, I knew the spring of my love was coming, and it had nothing to do with you. I don’t want my lifelong happiness to be ruined because of you.

Stop the futile struggle, let go, give me a path to my own happiness. I know the outcome I’m about to face will be difficult, but I have no regrets!”

”So you’re saying that spending that night with me was without regrets? Does that mean you still have feelings for me but don’t know how to express them? Are you held back by your pride, unsure of how to proceed, right?”

”You’re too naive, too innocent. Do you really think I love you? Do you really think we’re that suitable for each other? You’ve never considered what I want. You’re so selfish, even if I were with you, I wouldn’t be happy. I might as well take a gamble on my own life!

Being with you that day was my biggest mistake. I shouldn’t have believed your lies and drank with you. I shouldn’t have ignored advice and come out to see you. If I had more self-control, none of this would have happened, and I wouldn’t be so worried about the future. From now on, don’t contact me again—we need to cut all ties completely. It’s the best outcome for us both, don’t make things harder...”

”Zhihan, have you not understood my feelings after all I’ve said? I love you deeply, to the core, but how about you? Why are you treating me like this? Can’t you give me one chance? Even after your divorce, you wouldn’t give me a chance. Do you really despise me that much inside? I want what you want, you only want a simple, unremarkable life, and all I want is to be with you. Is that also a mistake? If it’s a mistake, I’m willing to accept the punishment from heaven. I can live without a son, I can remain unmarried all my life, but I can’t lose you!

Promise me, will you? Whenever I have time, will you come out to see me? If you won’t promise me, then I’ll never pester you again. If you agree to this small request, I’ll agree to whatever outcome you ask for!”

Ran Zhihan looked at Chen Gang pitifully. She was too naive, too innocent, but she thought about it and ultimately refused. However, she didn’t expect that this mistake would create the biggest error of her life. Once she agreed to Chen Gang, the subsequent events would become uncontrollable.

”I think there’s really no need for us to meet again in the future. It’s not a good thing for you, and for me, it’ll only worsen my marriage. I don’t know what your intentions are, but I just want you to understand that since I’ve decided to marry my husband, I won’t do anything to hurt him. Let’s pretend we never spoke about this, and when I go back, I won’t know how to face him or explain why I was out all night. Maybe he already knows every move I’ve made, but I have to keep it from him, you know? Every time I lie to the person on the pillow next to me, my heart is so uneasy. I’m afraid I’ll accidentally tell the truth in my dreams. I’m scared he might abandon me easily, choose not to believe me, question me. All I want is his wholehearted trust and to live with him wholeheartedly. Your appearance might drastically change what could have been a stable ending, but I don’t blame you. Your presence has nothing to do with me. Never speak of loving me again, and don’t seek me out, or we’ll never meet again for the rest of our lives!”

Ran Zhihan didn’t wait for Chen Gang to speak. As she was about to turn around and leave, Chen Gang suddenly rushed over from behind, embracing her tightly, murmuring continuously.

”Zhihan, don’t leave me alone like this, I just really want to hold you, just want you to sleep in my arms every night. Is that really so impossible to fulfill?”

Ran Zhihan immediately turned around and slapped Chen Gang, not expecting that the man in front of her would make such an unreasonable request. She’s a married woman, how could she demand such things. Does he see her as such an impure woman?

”Enough, I hope you don’t say these words again, making things ugly for both of us. If it continues, I can’t guarantee I won’t develop murderous intentions!

There’s a limit to a person’s patience, and mine is you not repeatedly crossing my boundaries. I just want to go back and face my husband properly, give him a reasonable explanation. If he can forgive me, I will wholeheartedly devote myself to living with him. If you dare to interfere in my matters again, then don’t blame me for making you disappear from this world entirely!

Whether you love me or whatever your intentions are, we’re really not suitable. Stop struggling in vain, give me a way out, it’s like begging you. Don’t let my hard-earned marriage be ruined just like that, okay?”

Ran Zhihan realized that whatever she does is wrong. All he wants is a stable life, why is it so difficult? Everything she wants, why is everyone unwilling to give it to him? Why must he endure all these hardships?

All the words you once said are engraved in my heart, I see clearly the mundane nature of beauty and friendship, yet I haven’t seen your true heart and mine. I don’t know if you’re still waiting for me!