My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1929: Chapter 1724: Oblivion

When tears shimmer in my eyes, when my true feelings for you are frozen by your indifference, how should I describe this feeling? Who can be sure that I am completely unaffected?

This time, Zhang Yichen is truly infuriated by his own wife. He loves this woman so deeply, he’s willing to do anything for her. After tirelessly searching for her for so many years, she ultimately chose the path of betrayal. Does he mean less to her than this other man?

”Zhihan, don’t cry. You have to believe me. I really love you. No matter how much grievance I endure or how much torment I suffer for you, I do it willingly. All I need is for you to give me another chance, to spare me another look. Stop being angry with me, and that would be enough for me. Don’t cry anymore, because your tears only deepen my heartache. Originally, these torments wouldn’t bring me pain, but your tears make me helpless. I’ll just beg you, please don’t cry for me again, because your husband also won’t let you go. But I’m still thankful, because your tears prove that you do care about me deep down. You’re just unable to choose. But I believe that one day you’ll realize the person who loves you most in this world is still me, and that will never change to someone else. I hope that when you understand this, I will still be here in this world!”

”Chen Gang, stop it. We originally had no connection. Why say these things to sully my reputation? You clearly know that night was just a mistake. If it weren’t for being deceived by you, and hearing your lies, how could I have ended up in that situation with you? How could I have become so passive as I am now? You’ve never considered where the mistake truly lies. You always add fuel to the fire. Can’t you see that my husband is already furious beyond measure, yet you still provoke him repeatedly? Do you think I would plead for you with him? You’re wrong. I would never ruin my own marital happiness for an irrelevant person. I wouldn’t plead with my husband for someone who hurt me. Do you think that’s possible? Don’t you find it laughable if I were to plead?”

”You two don’t need to perform in front of me with your act of self-pity. No matter what you say, I don’t believe you now, because this incident hurts me too much, especially from the person lying next to me, who didn’t come home all night and was with another man. How dare you try to conceal it from me, your husband? What’s wrong with being honest? If it weren’t for the fact that you’re the woman I love the most, if you hadn’t waited for so long hoping to find me, if it weren’t for our son, if not for my grandpa being sick and unable to handle shocks, do you think I would let you go so easily?

Sometimes, don’t be too naive. You always think you’re so important to me, so you act recklessly, without considering the hurt you cause. Why should I keep giving you my heart time and time again only for you to trample on it repeatedly?

Once, I loved you so deeply, loved you to death and back. I didn’t hesitate to expend so much effort to find you around the whole world. After finally finding you, searching for so many years, you still betrayed me. I never expected this day to come upon me. I always thought my loved one, like my grandpa, would love me unconditionally, would sacrifice anything for me. But finally, I realized, is this really true? Do you actually sacrifice everything for me? Or do you have ulterior motives, only doing this out of no choice? Sometimes, I don’t even understand what my heart truly thinks. I just want to live a stable life with you, not even caring about past wrongs. But I can’t do it because you keep challenging my patience...”

Ran Zhihan shook her head while crying, like a rattle drum, but her loved one still chose not to believe her.

”Shaking your head at me is useless, and you don’t need to pin all the mistakes on Chen Gang. I have been monitoring him since the day he returned home, but I never thought that when he contacted you, you’d go without telling or discussing with me. I know I can’t restrict your freedom because you have your rights. But at least you could have considered my feelings!

Rest assured, I won’t let our son know about this affair. I can’t let him know what kind of person his mother is, spending a night with a stranger. If our son finds out, he won’t be able to accept this fact. I don’t want him to be sad, nor do I want him to feel shame among his peers.

I won’t tell others about this, nor allow it to spread. Anyone who knows will be wiped away one by one. I’ll make sure you live your remaining life peacefully, not letting anyone bring harm to you. But please understand, your life as you’ve known it ends here.

From now on, I will let you see him suffer in silence. I will make you feel like living is worse than death each day. I can no longer spoil you like before, making you fearless. Maybe you think I don’t love you like before, that’s because I’ve realized you’re not worthy of my love anymore.”

”Zhang Yichen, do you know that your words hurt the woman who loves you most? Even yet, when I drugged her back then and had the intention to get her drunk, after waking up, the person she thought of was you.

Can’t you tolerate her in your heart? I’m entirely responsible for this mistake. I hope you can let her go, don’t make it difficult for her any longer. I don’t want my beloved woman to be sad. Since she refuses to love me anyhow, since she has never had me in her heart, why should I force your happiness? Ultimately, because of an outsider like me, your happy relationship got damaged, and for that I’m sorry. If you have resentment, direct it at me, and stop hurting the woman who loves you with such words. Her love for you is deep to the bone. That kind of love can’t be spoken by an outsider like me. If you can truly regard her as your wife, then please move past this incident, and live well with her...”

Silently enduring this cold winter, hoping for the warm spring. I always thought I would reunite with you under the sunshine, letting this longing accompany me, waiting for your return.