My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1837: Chapter 1631: 3 Years

Always thinking that after three years you could return to my side, but never did I imagine one three-year period after another would pass, through countless springs and autumns, and yet where exactly are you?

Xia Jing sees his son and his grandson attacking his husband together, and deep inside, he actually doesn’t feel good about it.

”How can you do this? No matter what, she is your elder. Is it appropriate for you father and son to speak like this to your elder? I don’t care what your motives are, or what reasons you have, but you cannot speak such heartless words to my husband. When I see my husband like this, deep inside I truly feel bad. She has accompanied me for so many years, no matter what, so what are the things you are doing worth?

I know that everything you do is for our good, but when you choose to treat us like this time after time, my heart is already in despair. I have no way to accept such a life, I have no way to accept being doubted by my family again and again.

You should admit your mistakes, everyone understands that facing the doubt from one’s family is just a deep sense of helplessness. No matter what you do, your family won’t believe you, because in their eyes, they only see your deceit towards her, do you know that? But as I watch you say those words to me, do those things, deep inside I am truly chilled, yet I choose to say nothing. I can’t let anything affect my thoughts, disrupt my thinking, interrupt my steps in life. I want to rely on my own efforts to walk step by step to the end. I want everyone to know that I am not just a woman who only cries in others’ arms; I too can rely on my own efforts to reach the pinnacle of my life. Even if his success comes very late, and even if that success comes slowly, I am still very happy, because that is an outcome I reached with my own hands. I don’t want to rely on anyone; that is true success!

I don’t understand what you have been confused about these days, can’t see what you discussed, what kind of agreement you reached, you agreed to let me stay in this house, to be honest, deep inside I feel only anxiety. I don’t understand what reason can justify such a compromise towards me. Step by step, it has not been easy for me to reach today, but I have never given up. I know that all the effort I have made must be borne by myself. Others will not take my efforts as their motivation. I can only watch time and time again as others become more successful than me, happier than me, and at that moment, my heart is more anxious, more collapsed than anyone else. Why can others reach their own life’s summit, and I cannot? Why can others stand happily and joyfully on their career peaks, while I can only hide alone and shed tears, on what grounds?

When I see many women only staying sad and crying in their husband’s arms, unwilling to cheer up, unwilling to look forward, and even more unwilling to make efforts to make their tomorrow better, I am actually very afraid, I don’t want to become such a person.

If one day I become such a person, currently, I will despise myself, and you will all despise me as well, right? No one in this family looks up to such a life, no one in this family looks up to such a woman. Everyone here only respects those who strive to achieve their goals, not someone who hides behind others crying and acting spoiled, letting others be their shield. Actually, you are clearer than anyone else, that kind of life is not what I want. The more proud I live, the more arrogant I am; I simply cannot allow such things to happen to me. If one day those things are about to happen to me, I will also prevent it from happening. If it really happens unavoidably, I can only choose to face it calmly. But if that day really comes, maybe I really will be crushed by this matter, I will become a broken person.”

Zhang Zhentian suddenly realizes that his wife’s emotions seem a bit off. How did she suddenly know so much, does she know all these things he has been keeping, or did someone arrange a spy beside him, or is it his son or grandson who told her about these matters.

”Don’t look at me, I didn’t tell my mom about this, dad, you should know that I have been here watching over my wife these days. We also discuss together, you are here too, you clearly didn’t see me leaving, so don’t put this on me. You should think about whether it was my mom who was with you when we were talking, and she heard everything we said.”

”Zhang Zhentian, do you know the happiest thing in my life was meeting a man like you who truly loved me for so long? You never despised my background, and time and time again you stood in front of me to protect me. Do you know how grateful I am to you? But that gratitude is not love, no matter what you do for me, I cannot let go of my prejudice against you. I have told myself step by step, as long as I am happy, as long as you can be happy, I can wrong myself, compromise and stay by your side for a lifetime without leaving. But I really can’t do it anymore, I’m really on the verge of collapsing, because no matter what I do, in your eyes I am nothing. All my countless efforts in the end seem to mean nothing, I end up just being that foolish girl who, for the sake of others, disregards everything about herself, and all I get in return is hurt!

Hearing the words you say, they almost drive me crazy, do you understand? Time and time again I stand in your shoes to consider things, why do you use such an attitude to doubt me? Why use such a way to talk about me behind my back? If you’re dissatisfied, you can confront me, tell me to my face, and I will change if I need to, but I don’t want you to talk about me behind my back, because that’s what a coward would do. Have you ever thought about the pain, sorrow, and the hurt deep inside me as you talk about me behind my back? We are all adults and must take responsibility for our actions and face the consequences!”

You always say you love me, but do you really love me? How can you bear to see me wait alone for so many years?