My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1093: Chapter 945: Regretting What Was Heard

”Actually, when I heard what you said, that you regretted it, during that time, I knew deep down you still regretted the things you’d done before. Reflecting on the bits and pieces of that period, my heart is also full of emotions now. I never imagined that day would descend upon me so unexpectedly. I was scared, and I also feared that one day we’d become so numb. Have you ever thought about how everyone in the family is afraid of living like that happening all over again?”

Zhang Yichen will never forget everything that happened that day, nor will he ever forget every word his family said to him, the decisions his parents made, and what they were thinking at that time, he understands it all.

”To be honest, I don’t want to interrogate your feelings now. I just want to know whether you truly regret it. Do you regret abandoning me, your biological son? Do you regret every decision you’ve made in the past? I don’t understand what you’re actually thinking deep down, repeatedly abandoning me, hurting me over and over. Then still wanting to come back and treat me like this—what do you actually regard me as in your hearts? Maybe you’ve never really considered me your son. But do you know? As your son, sometimes I truly feel sad for myself; I long so much for my parents to sincerely love me, but in the end, you gave me this outcome. What do you actually take me for? I truly can’t understand in my heart, so I want to ask you here. Could you tell me the most honest answer, no matter what it looks like? I won’t mind, for I’m used to being abandoned and hurt by you. Every word you say is no threat or harm to me; I’ve become numb. But I hope you can truly answer me without thinking about lying to me, deceiving me, for that will make my heart feel even more painful because every time my parents spoke, they chose to deceive me. How painful it was for me as a son, you never cared, but please, truly care about what I think this time, okay? Thank you, I’m begging you!”

”It seems your heart still clings to this issue, but do you know? Dad and Mom truly love you, because you’re our biological son. No matter what measures we’ve taken, deep down, you will forever be our most cherished son. Whether you choose to continue hating us or not, deep inside, we will always regard you as our precious son. In this lifetime, you are our only child. No matter how long we’re away, our hearts always miss you, our biological son, do you know? Over the years, Dad and Mom have lived so hard. We only hoped to spend some time outside and then come back to be by your side and accompany you. But ultimately, we realized all this was just wishful thinking; until we came back to find you and you told us about our actions, we then realized there was no way to return to the past in this lifetime. But do you know? Dad and Mom truly love you, love you deeply. Even if you no longer mind all the costs, maybe we really can’t live like we used to. But do you know how deeply Dad and Mom love you in this lifetime? You can’t understand, but we’ve thought, if one day Mom really chooses to leave you, how painful would your heart be? As long as your heart feels joy and happiness, I’m already content, very content. I’m not a greedy person, but I just hope my parents can love me, love me for a lifetime.”

”Do you know that when I spent my whole life believing in you, you chose to hurt me again and again, betray me? When I devoted my unwavering spirit to want you, how did you treat me? You abandoned me repeatedly, left me in humiliation, unable to return to my original state. Do you know how painful that outcome is in my heart? You never considered how intensely painful it is for me, as a biological son. You’ve spent your whole life thinking about how to deceive your children to live the free life you want, but never thought about what consequences in this lifetime would befall, whether the decisions you made would bring sadness and pain to your descendants!”