My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1073: Chapter 926: Missed You

Old Master Zhang truly doesn’t know what language to use to describe his son and daughter-in-law. Why is it that, in their eyes, family seems so insignificant and easy to dismiss? Is loving someone really just a trivial matter? Is it that hard to show even a little sincerity?

He feels that over the years he has given so much, too much, and believed that he would end up with such a conclusion in this lifetime. He hoped that every family member could try to understand him. How did she forgive him? Even a little love from her would make him happy, but why, in the end, did he realize that all this was just his imagination? He gets nothing. No matter how much effort he puts in, he means nothing to his family. His son doesn’t see him as a father, and every family member just wants to escape from him. Could he really be that terrifying? Reflecting on these years, he has given so much—every hardship everyone should understand.

”I don’t understand why, despite all the efforts I’ve made, it’s so insignificant in your eyes. I’ve repeatedly asked you, I’ve given so much, but what result did you ultimately give me? Who cares about the pain in my heart? How difficult it has been for me to reach this point time and again, who has considered my feelings, my efforts, and everything I’ve sacrificed? I really don’t know what words to say to you; I only know that these years have been painful for me. Every step is like walking on thin ice, but I’ve never regretted it. I only hope that my family can stay by my side; I only hope that everyone can give me the ending I desire the most, even if it’s just a little bit of insincere words for my sake, for love. I would be very, very happy!”

In this lifetime, I’ve done too many wrong things. I can’t even tell which was right, which was a mistake. As long as it’s what you want, I would give my all to you, but I still want to give you everything because I love you. For this family... I can give anything. You are my son; how could a father refuse you time and again? I can’t do it. Could you give me, your father, a little time to calm down a bit? To figure out how I truly should love you, and what way I should express all my feelings to you?”

Child, sometimes I wonder about everything I’ve done. What was the purpose? Don’t give everything for such so-called necessities and know so little. You should think about what kind of life you truly want. Why bother thinking about unhappy reasons for things that aren’t worth it? Everyone has their own path to walk; we should make our lives richer and more colorful, not use a sad life to doubt everything we face in this lifetime.”

”Dad, do you know I once thought about what my efforts were worth? All I wanted was for every family member to understand me a little. But in the end, who in the family understood my feelings? Who considered these issues from my perspective as I walked step by step to this point? I truly don’t know how to get genuine love from you. I’m so afraid I’ll never get the chance to see you again in this lifetime. I’m so afraid of staying out there like this forever, never being able to return home. I’m scared; I don’t want to experience this kind of life anymore. This life makes me feel confident; all I want is a stable life. But why is it so disgraceful? Is what I want that difficult to obtain?”

I really wish time could turn back, to the day when I chose to give up everything and stay by your side. I could never forget the tears each time I turned away, leaving. Do you know how heartbreaking it was for me?

Dad, have you thought about it? Although I, as a child, made a wrong choice by leaving this home, that’s not how I felt deep inside. I never intended to abandon anyone in the family. Back then, I was forced to make that choice. I reluctantly followed my steps, and in the end, everything became like this. I have no way to turn back; there’s no road for me to return, yet I regret it all. I truly regret all the decisions I’ve made; I regret all the painful efforts I’ve given. I only hope to return to this home, to be by your side. I’ve pleaded with you over and over again for forgiveness, but who among you has ever forgiven me, standing in my shoes?”

You say I did all this just for Xing Xing to change my son’s perception of me. But have you thought why I need to do this? Is it just because of the things my son said to me? What I want is just a simple life, hoping to live peacefully, without interference, threats, or influence from anyone—living the life I want without altering my path for anyone.

But now I find everything has changed; I feel life has no direction. I am a bewildered life, wandering through a confused forest. I no longer know how I should walk this path; what I want is just to live by your side, to dutifully respect you. You’ll never have to leave this home; you’re never going to be affected by anything. Have I done anything wrong? Why can’t I achieve this result? I’m scared, I’m regretful; I don’t want this kind of life to continue. All I want is a plain and simple life, but ultimately I get nothing.

Dad, just take it as me begging you. I’m pleading; let me stay peacefully by your side. Don’t chase me away again. I won’t throw tantrums, won’t get angry anywhere, just let me be by your side. It’s not difficult for you, is it? I’m begging you, please help me this time at the meeting. Don’t let anyone control me anymore. I’m begging; I’ve had enough. I am in so much pain, you know. This life isn’t what I want. I beg you, I truly beg you, let me return to your side...”