My Alleged Husband

Chapter 591: Chapter 570 Wasted Effort (Part 2)_1

Ran Zhihan suddenly felt that he simply didn’t know how to describe Chen Gang’s actions. He didn’t understand why this day had turned into the focal point of a fight between two men. He had never thought that one day he would harm all the people who loved her.

Everyone’s heart is made of flesh; no one can be continuously neglected and still wait forever. But he hadn’t expected that, time and time again, when he spoke such ruthless and indifferent words to Chen Gang, it was Chen Gang who, instead of letting go, continued to wait. She, on the other hand, actually had always been looking forward to possessing the woman she loved and had never given up.

”Actually, there’s really no need for you to behave this way; what’s past is past, and we can never go back to the beginning. You made me very happy initially, and I was glad to have a friend like you because you were so sunny and cheerful. At that moment, I thought you were a kind-hearted boy who would never put me in a difficult situation. So from that day on, I believed in you wholeheartedly. But today, I realize my trust in you wasn’t complete because you lacked trust in me. All you had for me was manipulation driven by your possessiveness. It controlled your reason, leaving you at a loss, not knowing what you should do. Do you know how much I wish you could return to how you used to be? How much I hope that one day you’ll understand that we don’t necessarily have to be husband and wife or lovers. We can be the best of friends! That’s not impossible!”

Chen Gang started to laugh, ”Yes, Zhihan, you can certainly do that because you now lie in another man’s arms, laughing. Meanwhile, I’m hiding in a corner crying all alone. You didn’t consider my feelings. You never thought what I needed most was just a comforting word, just a warm embrace. But you heartlessly crushed all my hopes. Do you know that I’ve always been longing for the day when, if you would reconsider and be willing to come back to me, I’d give up everything in the world to make you stay by my side willingly? But now I realize that all this isn’t simply what I dream up. Your heart isn’t with me, no matter what I do. You won’t let me be with you. Your eyes see only the man before you, not me. You once said you regarded me as your best friend. Now I don’t care for that anymore. What I want is to be the one and only couple in the world with you, not just ordinary good friends.”

”If that’s what you think, then Chen Gang, I’ll give you a clear answer right now. Don’t waste your effort. No matter what you do, I won’t leave the man I love most. He gave me a wonderful youth; he made me feel love and helped me step by step to this day. He taught me that truly caring for someone brings rewards. I’ve waited for him for so many years, and he has waited just as long for me. How could I bear to hurt him and leave him alone? Even if I could bear it, I wouldn’t leave him because he has given too much for me. My love for him has long surpassed the love for my own life. I love him unconditionally, simply wishing to see him every day. To share in his happiness and joy is enough for me.

For someone like you, you won’t understand such a life, because you yourself don’t even know what kind of life you truly want. But do you know? The life I want is very ordinary, so common that it couldn’t be more so. All I want is, on the day I get married, for my Prince to hold my hand, to walk down the red carpet together, and my dream has come true. The man I love married me. I waited for him over a decade, and he waited just as long for me in return.”

I don’t feel I’ve wronged you. We were never together from the start, so how can there be any betrayal? Since we never betrayed each other and were never together, why do you insist on disturbing my peace? Give me a way out, as if I am begging you. Do not hurt me with what you call love. I cannot bear your repeated blows and hurts. All I want is so little, please grant this to me. Give me the chance to choose my own life, the chance to choose my lifelong happiness!”

”Zhihan, do you really think I’ve been forcing you all along? Ask yourself, you may not know my love for you over the years, but everyone around me knows that I’ve refused all women because I can’t bear to let you see the desperate look in my eyes when I’m with another woman. Because thinking of that look not only hurts your heart, it’s even more devastating to mine. I can’t stand to see you shed a tear for anyone else, but in the end, I’ve discovered that no matter how much I care about you, it’s all been a mirage because deep down you don’t have a place for me. How can I bear to make you stay with me!

I had already planned to let go, to let you two live a happy life. If you hadn’t said those words to me today, I would have gracefully let go, turned around and left without looking back, without lingering or bothering you. But you went and said such callous things to me, and now I’ve changed my mind. What I can’t have, I definitely won’t let anyone else have. Even if it means I must scheme and stop at nothing, I’ll ensure your life becomes as shattered as mine is. If I’m living in such pain, why should you be blissful?”

”So your happiness is built upon my suffering? Do you truly feel joy inside when you see me in pain? Is this what you call love for me? When did your love become so fake, so worthless? Do you realize how much you’re making me despise you?”

Whether you respect me or not is already meaningless to me. I’m no longer concerned about your thoughts or feelings. But please, don’t bother me anymore. There really is no chance for us. Do not hurt me with what you call love. I cannot bear your love; it’s too selfish, too authoritative. I really cannot accept such love. Such love makes my heart feel like it’s dying!”