My Alleged Husband

Chapter 576: Chapter 555 The End Here_1

”Chen Gang, it shouldn’t be like this between us. I know you have been waiting for me all these years, but we are truly not suited for each other. Back when we were classmates, I had the heart to refuse you, and that proves I will never be with you in this lifetime. At that time, you should have cut off all thoughts and not waited for me foolishly alone. And now, after so many years of waiting by yourself, you return and ask me to divorce my husband. Do you think that’s possible?”

”Regardless of whether my marriage is happy or not, a happy marriage is something one must fight for, something one must maintain with all their heart. And if my marriage is not happy, it only goes to show my own incompetence, my inability to make my husband love me wholeheartedly. But what about you?

You haven’t even married yet. You could go find a complete woman who will love you with all her heart and spend the rest of your life with you. Why waste it on a married woman like me? It’s not worth it!”

”Zhihan, to me, nothing is a matter of worth. All I know is that I can’t let go of you. For all these years, you have always been the most important person in my heart, I think of you all the time, I don’t know how to forget you. I’ve tried to forget you, but I can’t. I’ve tried to be with others to dull my feelings for you, but it’s never worked!

I know you can’t let go of your pride; you can’t leave your husband because you believe he’s the one who loves you most. But do you know? I love you no less than she does. All these years of yearning for you, you don’t know how much I’ve longed to be with you. You don’t understand the feeling in my heart. Do you understand how much I long for the day you agree to be with me, even if it’s just for one day, even if we’re only husband and wife for one day, I would be content.”

”I originally thought that once I finished my studies and returned home, I could see you again. When I saw you again, I wouldn’t have to let go of your hand like before; I could truly be with you. But I never expected that when I returned home after all my hard work, you had already married someone else and had children.

”Have you ever considered how much pain my heart is in with such a change? All I ever wanted was a peaceful life, a life I ultimately couldn’t have. Why can you live here so happily? You’ve got everything you’ve ever wanted, but what about me? I’m still foolishly waiting, waiting for the day you will be with me. Is this fair to me?

Although I’m well aware that there’s no such thing as fairness in this world, doesn’t your heart want to know my true feelings? Has your heart really never been moved by me for a single moment? All I wanted was a woman who could be moved by me, to be with me. We’ve known each other since we were kids, and surely we understand each other better than anyone else. Aren’t you willing to give me a chance to be your lifelong partner, to spend the rest of your life with me?”

Chen Gang became more and more emotional as he spoke. This was the most painful day of his life. He could see his beloved woman right in front of him, yet he was powerless. She had already become someone else’s wife, and he could only watch silently, watching her live happily with someone else. He was powerless. How he wished time could go back a few years. Back then, he would have abandoned all his studies and rushed back to the country. Perhaps if he had returned then, things wouldn’t have turned out as badly as they are now. How could everything be so difficult?

”Chen Gang, you’re wrong. Although we grew up studying together, and our understanding of each other is no less than anyone else’s, do you know? I knew my current husband even before I started school. I decided back then that I would only marry him in this lifetime. He promised to come back and marry me, so I’ve been waiting for him all these years. After all the hardships in finding him, how could I easily give up the love of my life? I can’t throw away my life for someone insignificant. Even if my marriage has become strained, I don’t care. What matters to me is being with him. But how am I supposed to face him after what happened with you today?

You’re right; my love was just a figment of your imagination. You never cared about what I wanted. You always thought that claiming your love for me meant that it was true, but do you know? Your actions aren’t love, they hurt me. If you truly loved me, you wouldn’t do this to me, causing me to lose face in front of my husband. You want me to divorce him, but why? Perhaps today I will go home and have a big fight with him, but I don’t care. Maybe he will throw me out of the house today, maybe he will take me to get a divorce, but I don’t care. What I want is to stay by his side, to truly be his wife. I don’t want to give up the love I’ve struggled so hard for over the years.

Please let me go. Spare me, and by doing so, you’ll also be sparing yourself, won’t you? Why persist like this? This approach is going to hurt everyone involved, not just hurting me, but yourself as well. My marriage may well be shattered because of what happened today, but I can’t do anything about it. Although I’m not the main reason for the trouble, I can’t face my husband, who loves me deeply and would give me the best of the entire world. How could I hurt him like this? Why should he keep loving me? Even if I divorce him, I won’t be with you because you don’t deserve it.

I understand that a humble woman like me is in no position to say such things, but I hope you understand that since no one can forcibly change any decision I make, there’s only one outcome: we can’t even be friends. Since you’ve already done this, let’s not contact each other any longer. This is where it ends.”