My Alleged Husband

Chapter 564: Chapter 543: The Inevitable Ending_1

”Dad, I know deep down you really hoped I could live a life of love with him forever, but I truly can’t continue anymore. The hurt he’s caused me isn’t just once or twice. If the outcome was predetermined, then I don’t even understand why I originally insisted on being with him. To be with him, I was even willing to give up my own life, yet what I ultimately got in return was his constant doubts and mistrust. Without even the most basic trust between husband and wife, how can you tell me we could live happily ever after?”

Perhaps everyone wonders what I saw in him in the first place, but as for this matter, I am guiltless. I can say with a clear conscience that I am innocent before heaven and earth. When I got together with him, it truly came from the heart, wanting to spend a lifetime with him, not because of his money, not because he was from a wealthy family, and definitely not because he had such a powerful father.

I moved cautiously, always thinking as long as I could be with him, I could give up anything. What’s the result? He hurt me so deeply, yet in the end, I don’t even understand how I was abandoned. Is there any woman as foolish as me? Knowing full well her husband doesn’t love her, knowing full well one’s bedfellow is always doubting and mistrusting, yet still wholeheartedly wanting to be with him, never once thinking of doubting him. Maybe that’s just me, but precisely because of this, everything has become so unbearable, inflicting excruciating pain on my heart, and I can only silently endure the pain because this hurt was my choice; I can’t blame anyone else. If I must blame, I can only blame myself for being too foolish!”

We’ve all been reckless for someone we loved, even willing to give up our lives for that person. I believe you, in your heart, can also understand my pain. Your love for mom is no less than my love for my husband, in fact, it’s much more. You can’t accept it in your heart, let alone me.

I believe at the moment I decided to be with him, everyone doubted me and felt I was blinded by money, choosing to live with such a man. But I never cared about others’ gossip. I always thought being happy was enough, regardless of what people said behind my back. But in reality, I abandoned everything, only to be repaid with his lack of trust. I spared no effort for his sake, but in the end, he treated me like an enemy, coldly kicking me to the curb. Does he really not know what he means to me? Is it truly impossible for me to be with him in his heart?

Once, I thought the distance between us was too great, and I couldn’t shorten it, so I tried desperately. I thought, as long as I could close that distance, I could spend a lifetime, forever with him, and my heart would be so happy and excited. I couldn’t sleep at night for the excitement. But the harsh truth slapped me hard, making me realize that love alone is not enough. If he doesn’t love me, then all the love I have for him is futile, isn’t it?”

Xia Jingyi said while tears streamed down her face. Her heart was truly laden with too much injustice after so many years of love, which ultimately shattered in an instant.

She sacrificed everything for this man, even willing to lose her life if needed, only to face being discarded in the end.

Despite being willing to give up everything for him, he only ever saw her as a tool, never truly seeing her as another person. How could her heart not harbor resentment? How could she not have any grievances? No one can understand the depth of her pain, the bitterness in her heart that she finds indescribable. Yet no one can empathize with her sincere efforts. Everyone always thinks everything she does is wrong. Who would have thought that the once invincible leader of the Mercenary Group would end up being discarded by someone?

”Child, in this world, nobody can grow without experiencing pain. Pain is always part of the journey of gradual growth. To grow, you must endure these pains, right? Only by continually facing these torments can you grow up happily. Maybe not everyone understands this principle, but I believe you do because your experiences are deeper than others, and what you’ve gone through is engraved in your heart.

Perhaps we made unforgivable mistakes. Because of these mistakes, we don’t know what to do, but I hope you understand, one day we will meet again, because this decision now will lead to regret later. Don’t relinquish your lifetime of happiness over this moment of anger. I know how much pain you feel, but I also know this decision was inevitable. Since things have come this far, all you can do is face it bravely. I understand your helplessness, but there’s always a way out of helplessness. You can’t just settle for someone to finish the second half of your life. A loveless marriage won’t bring happiness, just as a marriage without trust can’t last...”

”I understand all these principles, but precisely because I do, I have to make this decision. I don’t want to give up everything for a man ever again. To give everything up for a man... I really don’t know how I should happily live my own life the way I want, rather than live humbly for a man and end up being discarded by others. I don’t want that life. I refuse to be labeled weak and incapable. I’ve done enough for her, my heart is chilled. Since it is a predestined end, why should I desperately hold on? Ah, it’s the utmost pain for each of us. He may not care, but I can’t erase the pain he’s inflicted on me.

The loving times have come to an end; all that once was now means nothing. He has given up on me, so why should I stubbornly cling on? Even if he begs me to return now, I will not look back...”