My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1382: Chapter 1204: Waiting

Waiting can drive a person to collapse, or make them live a life of unbearable pain.

Ran Zhihan turned and left as soon as he finished speaking. He needed to hurry back home; he didn’t want to stay here and let this scandal play out any further. He knew this was a war between two men, but why did it have to involve him, an innocent party?

Zhang Yichen watched his wife turn around and walk away. How could he not feel anxious? He quickened his pace and followed her. When they both returned home, Zhang Yichen saw that Ran Zhihan had already packed all her belongings. The wardrobe was completely empty, not a single piece of his wife’s clothing remained. He realized his wife’s wings were becoming stronger, growing increasingly unwilling to speak truthfully with him, and this began to irritate him.

”Ran Zhihan, what do you mean by this? Are you planning to move out with the way you’re acting? Do you think moving out now makes any sense? Can’t you stay here peacefully with me? In your eyes, do I mean anything to you as your husband?”

”What do you mean, do you mean anything in my eyes as my husband? Then, in your eyes, do you see me as your wife? You clearly know this issue has nothing to do with me, yet you still wrongly accuse me, putting all the blame on me. What do you really want me to do toward you? In your world, do you even see me as your wife? I’m not asking for much; I just want to live a stable life with you. Why is it so difficult?

I don’t want you to tell me again that it’s because you care about me, that you made such an impulsive decision because you care too much. In your heart, I’m nothing but someone you can call upon and dismiss whenever you please. Just like Chen Gang, you see me as a tool for exploitation. I don’t understand. I just want to live a stable life. Why is it so difficult? What do you really see me as in your eyes? An object or something that can be traded at will? Why do you both have to hurt just me? My inner world isn’t strong, and I can’t endure your repeated harm. You and Chen Gang are no different now, both blinded by self-interest, willing to hurt the ones you love most. Yet I’ve been hurt by the man I love the most, doubted again and again. Do you really still trust me?”

”Is it that I didn’t give you trust? When I give you trust, you always think I’m gullible, that no matter what wrong you do, I won’t care. But now you understand, it’s not like that at all. Missed opportunities are missed, you’re no longer the person you were, and I’ve already changed too. We no longer have so much in common, so please understand my intentions. I want nothing more than you do, but we’ve both deeply hurt each other.

However, no matter what, in my inner world, you have always existed. I’ve always seen you as the person I love the most. I never imagined we would fight one day, or that we’d reach such an irreconcilable state. Do you know? Our home has already turned upside down, unable to withstand any conflict between us. I beg you to calm down and think things through. Consider what consequences your actions might bring. Do you truly believe that after leaving me, you’ll remain free from worries like you are now?”

Ran Zhihan listened to Zhang Yichen’s words and laughed.

”So this is how you truly think. You believe I’m with you because of money and never considered that I chose you because of love. Do you really look down on me so much in your heart? Am I just a vain woman in everyone’s eyes? I can live without money, and I can live without anyone by my side, but I cannot live without my dignity. One day, you will regret trampling on my dignity so much. You clearly know that everything today was just Chen Gang’s delaying tactic, yet you believed his words and doubted me over and over. Your heart already lacks my presence, so why put on such an act in front of me?

I really want to ask, what am I in your heart? Why can’t you give me a shred of trust? I know trust in a marriage is built little by little; no one can give all their trust to someone from the start. I can understand you doubting me again and again, but I just want to have your trust. In the end, no matter what I do, you don’t believe me. You always think every word I say is a lie. In your eyes, if someone makes a mistake, does it mean they can never be a good person again? Does anyone in this world never make mistakes, only you can make mistakes and continue doing so, exploiting others’ love for you, while others must bear the greatest pain for a lifetime because of a moment of carelessness?

Zhang Yichen, I once loved you deeply, to the point of living for love. But to gain your trust, I tried hard to please everyone in the house genuinely. I felt all my efforts were worth it at that moment. At least I could feel a change in your attitude toward me, that you were slowly beginning to trust me. But in the end, I found it was all you deceiving me. You never believed me, yet you pretended to, again and again. If it was to hurt me more, did hurting me really make you so happy? Did hurting me not cause you any pain? Why? Why do I, someone who loved you so deeply, receive this treatment from you? Is giving me a little trust so difficult?”

”That’s right, because you made mistakes, I choose not to trust you; because you made mistakes before, I choose to never trust you again.

Maybe you think I’m too harsh on you, but do you understand how much pain you caused me when you hurt me? You don’t know the anguish and torment in my heart, so what right do you have to point fingers at me? Whether you are my wife or not, it doesn’t matter. You don’t care about me, so why should I care so much about you, feeling forced to keep you by my side, letting you enjoy wealth and luxury?”

Of course wealth is important, but it shouldn’t blind oneself with fortune!