My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1379: Chapter 1201: Not Allowed

Don’t try to prove that what you are doing is right.

There is no simple matter, nor is there a pain in the heart that can be forgotten.

Old Master Zhang was utterly upset by his precious son. He never expected his son would actually speak to him, his father, in such a tone. He always thought his son inwardly respected him as a father, but now it seems all of this was just his own illusion.

Perhaps in his son’s eyes, he as a father is nothing at all. His son never cared about what kind of life his father really wanted. What he always wanted was his own interests. Such a child should understand, only when one thinks deeply, the key to this issue. When will he ever think about where his actions place his father and the amount of damage and heavy pain he brings to everyone in the family.

Now he really doesn’t want to see his son. His son has become so unrecognizable, beyond redemption. Why should he let his son hurt him again and again? Far away, avoiding seeing him would be the best outcome. The words he speaks now are like those of someone entirely different from who he once was. He’s no longer the child he raised. Even if he raised him himself, the depths of his son’s heart have changed. He has become another person, and this person is not his child.

Xia Jing knows that his father is truly angry this time. How can a son display such an attitude towards his father? If it was him, he would surely be angry too. Moreover, all the past actions have certainly caused a lot of harm to him. Now, looking back at all the mistakes he once made, there’s really no way to alleviate that kind of pain. It’s not something that can be brushed off with a few words, not as if it never happened. It’s a fear engraved deeply in the heart, a blow they try to evade every day.

”Zhentian, I think dad must be definitely angry now. Why don’t you hurry up and sincerely apologize to him? I believe he won’t make things difficult for you. He’s such a reasonable person. It’s not easy for us to come this far. You should think deeply, whether your actions today truly hurt the sincere heart he, as a father, gives you. He does not owe you anything; rather, he’s given us so much, given us the greatest concessions. So why do we, as children, still choose to hurt him like this?”

He is our father. What have we ever really given him? We’ve repeatedly hurt him, abandoned him, leaving everyone in the family heartbroken because of our actions. This is an unquestionable fact we can never amend in our lifetime. The only thing we can do now is to genuinely make amends, let everyone know, that we truly want to return to this home and it is not merely an act of appeasement.”

Zhang Zhentian, how could he not understand what every word from Xia Jing meant? But she really doesn’t want to bow her head anymore. She once lowered all her dignity to kneel and apologize to her father just to return to this family.

If she once again does that as before, then where would her dignity be?

But if she doesn’t go this time, her father would certainly ignore her, so then, what should happen?

She is really conflicted now. Clearly, she was the one who did wrong this time, yet she still doesn’t know how to explain to her father how hurtful her words were. After calming down, she realizes the words were truly psychologically damaging to a father. How could she have never thought about it before? Hurting him again and again. If someday her father truly chooses to leave her, then, as his son, how deep a sin would weigh upon her, so deep that her father would completely abandon her? If the day comes when her mistakes can no longer be turned back, then where should she find herself? When utterly desperate, the only help would come from her family, and that person is only her father.

”Xia Jing, I know what you’re saying is for my own good, but sometimes I really can’t keep letting go of all my dignity again and again. You understand, don’t you? As a man, I should have my rights. If I repeatedly disrespect my dignity, then what kind of person will I become in the end? No one knows, nor am I able to be certain. If the day comes where I really let go of everything, does living in this world truly still have any dignity for me?”

I believe you wouldn’t want your husband to be a coward either, someone who kneels down at the slightest provocation. Would such a person bring you happiness?

I just want to live peacefully, to live peacefully in this home. I don’t want these things to happen here, but why did all this eventually happen unavoidably anyway? Is it because I can’t control my temper, because of a careless joke, that last time everything turned into this?”

”Zhentian, this time, no matter what you think, you must apologize to dad about this matter. You should know, he hasn’t had it easy all these years. He has done so much for all of us, raised the children with great effort. We’ve only given him a simple thank you, yet repeatedly hurt him so many times. We should properly repay him. As his children, we’ve never really seen the difficulty, yet as parents, we’ve harmed our children, almost subjected them to others’ mockery. What right do we have to complain so much?”

Our only option now is to seek their forgiveness, hoping they willingly let us stay in the home, rather than because they can’t let go of their so-called dignity, allowing us to return home. If that’s the case, what meaning is there for us to stay in this home? We simply have no situation or reason to continue living like this in this home!”

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Zhang Yichen knows that his grandfather has suffered grievances today, and the one causing him grievances is his father. He is utterly furious as his grandfather deserves to be well protected, not bullied by anyone, even if that person is his father. How can his father, time and again, treat his family and his father in this way? What does he see his family members in his eyes, just to be harmed whenever he wants, desired or unwanted to be easily kicked away?

If that’s the case, it really puzzled him about the significance of returning to this family. Is coming back truly just to let grandpa be hurt once again?

Be brave to step out of your world, don’t make your path so difficult!