My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1372: Chapter 1195: Never Once Avoided

People subconsciously avoid facing things they don’t want to. Deep down in my heart, I’m also unbalanced.

I’ve been heartbroken and caused myself pain; I don’t know what I should do.

”Grandma, do you really know what we’re thinking deep down inside?

If you hadn’t chosen to deny me back then, but acknowledged me openly, would I know what the outcome would be?

All the endings would be different, I’m not that kind of cold-hearted person; I also couldn’t do what others do, like kicking you out of the house, never letting you return.

But I always don’t understand what you were thinking, abandoning my father, leaving him to live alone and helpless. Without Great-grandpa, he would have starved to death long ago, so how would I even exist?

Grandpa and Grandma, actually, many times you should really change your perspective and think. Because you left resolutely back then, how many hearts of those who loved you were hurt? Have you thought about it? If they didn’t really love you, how would your departure hurt them?

All those people you hurt truly loved you, but did you take their feelings into account when you made those decisions? Each time they could only silently endure all the pain you brought them, yet powerless, because they didn’t know how to communicate with you!

Whenever someone chooses to communicate with you, you choose to avoid them. But what is the result of your avoidance?

Ultimately, you lost your own family, letting your family replace the pain you caused them again and again. You might live freely outside, but what about those family members?

At home, they think about you every day, wondering why you aren’t willing to stay by their side?

Why did you leave?

How are you living outside?

Is it as happy as being at home, where everything is at your beck and call?

Love, all these things that you didn’t consider might seem unimportant to you, but they are crucial in their eyes because you are their family. They want you to be happy, cheerful, and carefree. If you can only live in such pain every day, how can their hearts be happy as parents?

Pity the hearts of parents all around the world. Those parents give up everything for their children, losing all their freedom. But you abandoned your child for your freedom. I really don’t know how different you are from those parents. You are both parents, both have children, but why do you treat your family so differently.”

”Child, you always say we are avoiding responsibility. I admit we avoided the responsibility a parent should fulfill. We also discussed how we should fulfill filial duties to our parents. But what have you done now?

Saying these things about us?

Haven’t you avoided responsibility?

Did your people ever think of living happily together with us? You dare to say these words to us, do your parents know?

If they knew, would they agree with you standing here today saying such things to us?

You are questioning our sincere decision to come into this family. Since you chose not to believe us, why plead for us, letting us return, and now accept your criticism of us!”

”Grandpa and Grandma, you overthink things; do you really think I truly want you to come back?

I chose to speak for my father because I don’t want my parents to be embarrassed. I know deep down he still wants to forgive you. I know, I’m just going with the flow by doing this, do you really think I can’t see through it?

His pride has always been hard to let go. He needs others to pave the way for him to come down smoothly. For the sake of allowing the whole family to be happy, I must abandon my personal opinions and fulfill everyone. If I were so selfish, choosing not to speak for you for my reasons, would you be here arguing with me about right or wrong?

Previously, I didn’t understand what gratitude was. Now I know, gratitude is about sincerely thanking others for the benefits they bring you, thanking them for their wholehearted help. Are you truly grateful to me?

Why do I feel like you are bargaining with me?

Let me tell you, no matter if you can come back to this home, no matter what you eventually become, regardless of whether you choose to stay here for a lifetime.

I can confidently say that I can rely on my efforts to reach this point, then one day I will be able to surpass my father with my efforts. I will make myself a unique force in the world. I want all those who wronged me to pay dearly, but I haven’t done so because I still can’t bear it. I can’t bear to see my father sad because I retaliated against you. They ultimately brought me life because of you. If you didn’t bring him into life, I wouldn’t exist. Instead, I’m quite grateful to you for giving me such a complete father. He gave me life, allowed me to live to this day, and fulfilled all the responsibilities a father should.

I’m truly happy to have met such a father. Don’t you think my life is joyful and worthwhile?

Who has a father that can compare to mine? He can become a strong person, and so can I. He can rely on his effort step by step to become the emperor at the pinnacle of life, and I can too.

Perhaps, deep down inside, you feel you can accomplish things that many people may not be able to do. But you forget, every member of the Zhang Family was gathered by everyone, each has firm willpower, and can reach the end of life through their effort. I will become the winner in life, I won’t let myself fail, nor will I let you look down on me. I want all those who abandoned me to pay a painful price before I’ll stop. Why should I let you trample me? This is not avoiding responsibility, nor refusing to acknowledge you. I just need my actions to prove how foolish what you did was!

I truly regarded you as family, but you chose to leave me. I sincerely hope you will return to my side, but you choose to stand right before me yet deny me. You keep being so merciless to me time and time again, why should I have any sense of loyalty to you?”

I never thought of avoiding things, letting myself escape everything; these are clearly things I deserve, why should I pretend to be indifferent?