My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1348: Chapter 1174: Who Doesn’t Have Dignity? (Part 2)

I have lived these years, each step has been difficult, and every day I’ve relied on my own efforts to get to where I am now. No matter what I’ve gone through, I’ve never shed a single tear of pain because I know crying is not the thing I should do. Crying doesn’t bring any results!

If I had chosen to face the challenges before marriage rather than silently crying in the corner, would these dangers really have left me? Would I have avoided these difficulties? Not at all. Each time, the result is always so arduous. No one knows how much pain is in my heart; I always appear strong in front of others.

Because I don’t want anyone to see the truth deep in my heart, I don’t want others to know what kind of person I am. I want to hide behind my disguise, to live beneath a false mask. Only that way, maybe, will give me a different life.”

”Mom, actually there’s nothing wrong with what you did. Throughout all these years, what you’ve endured, don’t we all know? You’re not heartless; in fact, it’s me who’s heartless. When my mother finally wanted to come home to be by my side, I heartlessly urged grandpa to turn you away. I was blinded by my hatred, which ultimately led to me losing the chance to be with you over and over. In the end, I even forgot what exactly caused me to lose what I love the most!

Mom, now if you can come back to my side, nothing else matters to me!

When dad wakes up, I’ll bring both of you home to live, and I won’t let you leave us for the rest of our lives. I’ll take good care of you. I believe in my own abilities; I can support you. I’m not a weak, incompetent person.”

Xia Jing knows that her son is not a weak, incompetent person. On the contrary, she knows her son is truly capable, more than many, and believes that her son today standing at the pinnacle of the world proves his own capability. He’s walked step by step to today. As a mother, she has never fulfilled even the slightest responsibility and thinking of this, she feels guilty.

”Yichen, it’s mom who let you down. You’ve worked so hard by yourself all these years, but I’ve never stood by your side to offer any help or encouragement. Mom really doesn’t know how to make up for what I owe you deep in my heart.

Originally, you chose to hate mom; at least you felt a bit balanced inside. But now, you don’t even choose to hate me anymore, and my heart feels increasingly uncomfortable. I feel utterly ashamed. Other mothers are willing to stay by their children’s side, unwilling to leave even if it kills them. But I abandoned you when you were just a month old. How could there be a mother like me in this world? You must have really hated me then, right?

You climbed desperately, risking everything, just to prove to your parents that abandoning you was a huge mistake?

Facts prove that you’ve truly succeeded now. We all feel guilty and heartbroken for abandoning you, our daughter. We really shouldn’t have abandoned you. Only after abandoning you did we realize how important this kinship truly is. If I’d always chosen to stay by your side, we wouldn’t be in such a situation now.

Maybe your father wouldn’t be lying here now; maybe I wouldn’t have repeatedly argued fiercely with him!

In my heart, you’re truly a wonderful son. Everything you’ve given me has opened my eyes. You’ve proven through your actions that as long as you put in the effort, there’s no fear of no reward. Fate is always fair. Whatever effort you put in, it will give back to you. If you’re always unwilling to give, then how can you expect fate to give you the perfect return?”

”Mom, let’s not talk about this anymore. I believe our family can return to the happiest times we had before. All these years, I haven’t enjoyed a single moment of having both mom and dad by my side. Please allow me to savor it once more. I’m truly looking forward to what kind of taste those days would be. As a child, I’d watch other kids walk hand in hand with their parents on the street, and I felt so jealous. I never imagined my parents could ever walk hand in hand with me because I knew it wasn’t possible. Even if my parents eventually come back home and hold my hand, I might already have reached the pinnacle of the world myself.

I always force myself to train over and over because I can’t let anyone look down on me. If they look down on me, it would disappoint grandpa. Grandpa is a proud person; his dignity is more important than mine. I can’t let my incompetence lead others to criticize grandpa for being slow. I can’t let grandpa’s dignity be damaged in any way.

No one else understands this feeling, but I believe my father can understand. I believe he’s just like me. If he knew, he definitely wouldn’t let grandpa’s dignity be damaged. He’d rather have his own pride harmed than let those he cares about feel unhappy because of him.”

Our dreams are lost too. Young me liked being alone by the seaside, but now I’m left with nothing.