My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1325: Chapter 1154: A Heart That Never Gave Up

Perhaps in the past I always thought that as long as I gave, I would be rewarded, watching as everything changes, as time slowly passes, watching everything gradually become unrecognizable, helplessly witnessing the complete loss of what I care about most.

Until that moment, I have completely awakened over the past few days, realizing that all this is not as simple as I imagined, not as easy to change as I thought, even if I made efforts, it is still difficult to make any change happen.

Zhang Yichen knows that his son’s compromise is not easy, after all, his son has never compromised before, this time truly made his son anxious, maybe he is genuinely afraid of any accident happening to his mother.

If it were anyone else, they wouldn’t want their family to have any accident either, even if their family had a bad relationship with them, even if their family had no patience for them, always hurting them time and again, they still hope their family could be happy and obtain happiness, after all, the joy of a family is the real joy. If family members cannot be happy, what is the meaning of life? Everything I do, what is the point? At times, I can’t even figure out if every decision I make is right or wrong.

”Child, actually, I know that when you said those words today, you didn’t feel good inside, and I also know you blame me, blame me for not taking good care of your mom, but some accidents are not what I wanted to happen. Do you think I don’t want your mom to live peacefully? Do you think I don’t want her to be able to smile happily every day? Just seeing her bright smile, I actually feel very relieved deep down, and I feel proud because I can make my wife happy due to what I do.

But who would have thought that things would evolve into what they are now, this outcome has far exceeded our control, and I have no way to let this thing continue to happen. What I want is very little, as long as I can obtain what I want, as long as I can make my family happy, then even if I have to suffer a little more, I can still smile there. Every day, do you know how hard I have it? Who among you have truly felt what I feel?

Everything I have done, what is it all for? Who among you have thought about it? You always consider your ideas to be right, but you overlook everything, thinking everything you desire is perfect, what exactly do you think of me? What do you treat me as? I am not a money-making tool.

While I care about money a lot, I strive to earn money just to make my family’s life better and more leisurely. If you think my wanting to earn money has some ulterior motive, then you are gravely mistaken. I am not that kind of person. I only want to live a little more securely, with no remorse, so that every family member can live without hardship. I would take on all the suffering and toil myself, let me alone bear all the torment, so that my family can live in peace. None among you has truly understood my genuine intentions, how should my heart feel?

The child said many things require empathy and also hopes you can consider things from my perspective as a father. I too have my own difficulties, untold hardships. Do you really think I am willing to live like this? I am just forced with no way out!

Pushing me step by step to where I am today is not what anyone wanted to see. Ask yourselves truly, is this outcome what you wanted? How tired I am now, who among you can understand me now? I deal with company matters every day, I still have to consider your feelings, and I have to take care of my wife, consider the family, and I am already stretched to the limit, yet none of you have ever thought from my perspective, how tired, how pained I am!”

Zhang Ni knows these days his father has been living in pain and exhaustion, yet some things as a junior are really beyond him. He can’t bear to see his mother so tired, he just wants his mom to regain her former laughter, even if they can just talk normally, he feels it’s the warmest and happiest thing. Before, his mother always nagged him, and at that time, he didn’t know to consider his mom’s feelings. Now seeing his mom in this state, those days out there, how could he not have felt it at all, so regretful for his past actions, regretting every word he said to his mother, not considering her feelings, going against her, resulting in his current state of regret, it’s all a cycle of cause and effect.

”Dad, I know what your actions are for, I also know you’ve paid a lot and sacrificed a lot for this family, but I hope you can consider things from each perspective, do you think your actions today are really right? Do you feel that what you did today is truly good for everyone in the family? Now mom is lying here, she’s deranged and unrecognizable, and you still have the heart to handle all your company’s matters? You earn money to make every family member happy, relaxed, and free but what you’ve done has ultimately ignored the most loyal company to your family. Do you think a family can still be a family without the basic companionship?

I know these years you hoped that grandpa and grandma could return, you’ve hoped for many years, every time you talk to yourself, hoping they could come back, even if they only bring you pain, you still wish for their return. Even if they choose to abandon you again, you’d spare no cost because you need a family’s company, you need a bit of care from your parents. But why can’t you understand my mom’s feelings? Doesn’t she need her husband’s care too? Her parents went abroad because of your marriage, what more do you want from her? She can’t even see her parents now, and you have made her like this for the sake of your parents, aren’t you ashamed to face my grandparents?

Maybe today I say these words, you might think I’m being unfilial, but I have no other way, there are some things buried in my heart for a long, long time, I never intended to say them, let alone in such a setting, but today I really can’t hold it in anymore!”

”Dad, Mom, Grandpa, I’ve always hoped you can remember that everything done in the past was not just for you, we too were worried sick for you, but we never asked for any reward. Deep in our hearts, all we wanted was a simple sentiment, maybe in your eyes, it’s something rare and precious, but in ours, it’s something we often yearn for.

We have never changed our minds, nor have we ever given up on mending this family, we really hope a family can live happily and joyfully!”