My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1328: Chapter 1157: Survival of the Fittest

”Mom and Dad, I’m sure you both know that in this society, it’s survival of the fittest, no one can sacrifice everything for you, all efforts should have returns.”

Xia Jing seemed to have made up his mind to leave, he was explaining things to everyone here, he felt he should make everything clear so that his family would not be hurt, so that everyone in the family could live happily, some things have to be faced sooner or later.

”My dearest son, I’m sorry, because the appearance of your mother has once again brought pressure to your life, I am truly sorry. For those years, how much I longed that I could return to this home, that I could be by my son’s side, nothing made me happier than living with my son. But in the end, I found my every action and thought were all too selfish, I never considered if you needed such a life. Over the years, I haven’t given you motherly love, not even a day’s company. You, it’s my failure as a mother, I hurt you again and again, no matter if you resent me or hate me, I have no regrets.

But I hope you can take good care of your grandpa, and your father. All the quarrels they have had were because of me, it was my existence that turned them into this state. I hope you all could consider, consider whether your father and grandpa were at fault or not. No matter what they did, it was all for this family, they did everything for the family’s good, for loving you. I, on the other hand, ignored the family’s interests, cast aside the family’s interests, treated everyone in the family as tools for my use, I didn’t consider your feelings, whether you hate me or not doesn’t matter to me, what matters is whether you can be happy and safe, whether you can always live joyfully. For me, nothing is more important than that, as long as you’re happy, I’ll leave and never come back willingly.

You know, how many bad things your mother has done over the years, step by step to this day, it was all a destined end, already set in stone. No matter what, I will never be worthy of forgiveness from others, every single thing I did was truly unforgivable, but I don’t regret it, because every single thing I did was following my heart. What I regret most in my life is leaving you in the first place, leaving you is a wound in my life that can never be healed. For many years, how I missed my child, missed coming home, missed every relative at home, but having taken that step there was no turning back, do you know how desperate I felt? I was scared, I was scared that the people at home would have opinions about me, scared that everyone at home wouldn’t want me to stay with you, scared that my actions would repeatedly hurt you, yet I still ended up doing things that hurt you.”

”I don’t understand why you have to come and tell me these things, these things should be done by you. If you feel you owe me, then you should stay by my side to make up for all the love you owe me over the years. In the depths of my heart, I also yearn to receive the love of my parents at least once, but I never got that. Do you know how hard and difficult my life has been? I never thought about what kind of ending I would get, I just wish you could be happy and joyful.

Saying that I don’t hate you is impossible, I’ve blamed you because I know your actions have hurt me. I can’t look at everything as if I don’t care, I also hope for some brilliance in my life, but what have I achieved after everything I’ve done? I’ve tried over and over again to climb to the top of life, stepping over everyone, and when everyone bowed to me, I did feel proud deep down, but I was also in pain because my parents never saw that moment. It’s all because of you that I got here today, and yet you are far away, never to see what that day looks like!

When I acquired other companies, hearing other CEOs plead with me to show mercy, to give them a way out, do you know how cold-blooded I was? I destroyed them all without care, chased them out of the company, leaving them to fend for themselves. I felt I was imitating you, because that’s how you treated me, you shaped my mindset, you hurt me, and because of the harm you caused me, I hurt thousands of employees. Do you know how desperate those people were at that moment? They might have dependents, only relying on that salary to keep their family running, and I ruthlessly drove them away.

Now, don’t you think I’m really terrible? Why am I doing this? Haven’t you thought about why your son became like this? You want your son to be happy, but is your son happy now? Your son is not happy, on the contrary, I’m living in pain and suffering, and it’s all because I brought it upon myself, I have no choice but to bear it in agony.

I can understand that sense of revenge, how exhilarating it is, the pride, the happiness when I inflict pain on others and they all plead with me, you know how happy that makes me? I’m so happy I would laugh out loud, I can’t hide my internal excitement when I see them begging me, I feel like I’m the most successful person in this life, I can live as a king of the world. But in the end, I realized that even if I conquered the whole world, I could never regain my lost childhood, never retrieve the love from my parents that I missed during my childhood.

Everyone thinks they’re pitiful, but they had a happier childhood than I did, at least their parents were around, while I was just a lonely person, I don’t know what it’s like to grow up with my parents’ company, I only know to live with vengeance, devouring is my only way out, only by swallowing up other companies step by step, I could make my own company powerful. This world is about natural selection, survival of the fittest, the weak being eliminated, they have no capability, and can only be driven out by me step by step!”

Only by continuously improving yourself will others not trample on you, only by giving your all will you not regret your youth...