My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1322: Chapter 1151: Forced by Helplessness

Zhang Yichen always remembered every word Old Master Zhang had said to him, but he never forgot why all this turned out this way.

He still remembered when grandpa once said...

”Child, I know, even though you are comforting grandpa with your words, your heart is still in pain, how could you not be?

That is your biological father, the harm he caused you far exceeds any harm done to grandpa.

Actually, I believe you have the same questions in your heart as I do: Why did my parents leave me? Why were they so cruel to abandon me time after time? Am I really so insignificant in their hearts?

Do they really not care about me at all?

Your parents are not heartless people; they had no choice but to do this!

All your questions, grandpa once had too. But gradually, those vague doubts disappeared from my heart because I discovered that if those things did not allow the people involved to come back to me, I could question myself every day, but no amount of reflection would bring them back, because no one would believe me. Since no one would believe, why bother proving yourself unnecessarily?

Everyone’s inner thoughts are different. Some people can happily live their own lives, content and carefree throughout their life, but some people live on the edge of pain their whole life, unable to find joy, because they have nothing joyful inside their hearts, their hearts are dark. When you slowly understand many things, you’ll realize that all of it can be irrelevant, no one would really live or die for losing someone—they can still live freely and happily after losing someone, and those who can never let go are people who either abandon others or are abandoned themselves!

The most important thing in one’s lifetime is to learn how to grow. Once you learn to grow, what do you have to be afraid of? Even if in the end, no one wants to come back to your side, you still have everything you worked hard to achieve. Why care for those who don’t care about you?

Not only does it leave you mentally exhausted, but it also makes those who are with you even more exhausted. Don’t hurt those who care about you for the sake of those who are not worth it!”

”Grandpa, you’re right, I’ve had all these thoughts, and I know what to do, but I can never let go of all this stuff—on one side is my biological mother, and the other my biological father. How can I forget the hurt they caused me in this lifetime?

I care so much about them, but what about them?

They hurt me so deeply, in their eyes, what am I as their son? An object they can casually abandon?

Even if I am an object, after all the effort it took to bring me into this world, shouldn’t they have some feelings for me? When they abandoned me, they didn’t even blink, how painful my heart was, who could truly understand? Everyone thought I was selfish for rejecting my own biological father and mother, not letting them come home, but who knew the pain in my heart?

Maybe some people think none of this is that important, but to me, all of it is very important. I cannot accept my parents, born to me and abandoned me for their own freedom, this son they labored so to bring into the world. I don’t know why they had me, I don’t know if they had me to leave a descendant for the Zhang Family either, and I can’t understand why they did what they did. Is freedom really so important to them?

To even abandon their own flesh and blood—if so, why did they bring me into this world? At the same time, I am quite grateful to them. If they hadn’t given birth to me and then abandoned me, how would I have achieved what I have today? Even though every day of my childhood was filled with hardship, I was always in training, but my life was always happy because I possessed the purest feeling in the world—the purest familial love from my grandpa. You gave me so much help, grandpa, it was you who enabled my achievements today. None of this is related to my parents, and I will not feel gratitude towards them due to these things, because they’re not worthy. Since they decided to abandon me, don’t ever think they’ll return to my side in this lifetime.

I have no such parents. I once gave them a chance to reform, to return home, happily sharing the joys of life with us, but they themselves gave up that opportunity. Their hearts surprisingly have no place for us, so why should we forcibly keep them by our side, doesn’t it also make them suffer?

They are willing to continue wandering the earth, let them be. They are already accustomed to a life of wandering and not suited for staying at home. Since that is the case, why should I make things difficult for them, robbing everyone of peace? Grandpa, I know there are times when my decisions are a bit excessive, but I hope you can also understand the feelings in my heart. I can no longer forgive them, they’ve hurt me too much this time, I can’t forget it in this lifetime, but I always endure the hatred in my heart to forgive them, yet they continuously hurt me again and again. I’m human too, I have emotions, I can’t bear such heartbreak over and over!

Now, my heart is already a fragmented heart, I can no longer establish any trust with them, nor have any emotions left for them. My heart has been utterly wounded by them, where is there any feeling left in such a broken heart?”

Old Master Zhang knew every word his grandson said was the truth. He knew his grandson’s heart had been thoroughly hurt by his own son, but wasn’t it the same for himself? His heart had been utterly wounded by his biological son as well, already battered, yet there was nothing he could do but bear all the consequences, because he was still his biological son, how could he so easily give up on him?

In fact, Old Master Zhang also understood, once a heart was shattered beyond repair, it could never be fully healed again in a lifetime—there would be no way to return to the past. They had never thought one day things would become like this, so why should he worry himself sick for them?

They wanted that kind of life, let them live it!

”Grandpa, even if no one else cares, I care, the pain in my heart is too unbearable, I’ve never so deeply hated anyone with such bitter detestation—they crossed that line!”