My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1332: Chapter 1161: Heart-Stirring Moments

In the most thrilling moment of my life, that day was when my parents revealed all the truth. In that instant, at that moment, how excited I must have been. Deep in their hearts, they finally were willing to honestly confront all the mistakes they had once made.

Even if, in their hearts, it might have been for self-consolation, his willingness to eventually tell the truth proved that he sincerely wanted to repent.

”Child, back then everything was forced upon us. I also didn’t wish for such a life in my world, but I had no way to change it all.”

”Saying so much is pointless. I will never forget...

They each returned to their rooms. Zhang Zhentian was already waiting in his study for his wife to return. The moment he saw her enter, he sensed she wasn’t in a good mood. He wondered what her father had actually said to her and what kind of conversation she had with his son.

He couldn’t say anything right now, only wait for his wife to voluntarily speak with him.

At that very moment, Xia Jing was deeply conflicted. He knew if he didn’t reveal the truth soon, his husband might live a whole life in obscurity, filled with grievances. However, if he did tell the truth, he might face divorce—was that truly what he wanted? He simply desired for his family to remain by his side forever. But his actions threatened to lose it all. Should he really tell his husband everything?

”It’s getting late. Let’s go to bed early. I won’t ask you about your conversations today because I trust you. I believe every word you say is true. I won’t delve into things you don’t want to talk about, nor will I question you. I’m giving you the utmost trust because I know you won’t deceive me, and you are sincere towards me. Being together like this is enough for me. I want nothing more in this lifetime. Having you by my side is the greatest comfort!”

Hearing Zhang Zhentian speak such words, Xia Jing felt deeply moved, but also understood that some things really needed to be said. Why let these matters become increasingly complicated until they are out of control? Perhaps confessing sooner might have some benefits. Even if, in the end, he could only choose such an outcome, he would have no regrets. At least he wouldn’t disappoint the person he loved the most.

”Zhentian, I have something I need to tell you, but you must promise not to get angry when you hear it, no matter how you react or what decision you make after hearing it, I will accept gladly!”

”Go ahead. Whatever you have to say to me, I will understand.”

”I want to tell you that, in truth, my heart doesn’t love you. Even though we’ve been married for so many years, you’ve never truly been in my heart. Ever since before we were together, I always thought of my first love. For him, I sacrificed a lot, and he gave me all his love, but in the end, we reached a dead-end, leaving me with no choice but to be with you. In truth, I treated you as a backup. However, I hope you let me finish speaking!”

The moment Zhang Zhentian heard his wife confess that she treated him as a backup, he was stunned and more serious. He never expected that she had never truly given her heart to him all these years. She had been living in a lie, and he found that a bit intolerable. He began feeling angry, but he wanted his wife to finish telling the truth before considering how he should respond.

”All these years, I never placed you deep in my heart. Everything you’ve done for me has genuinely moved me. For me, you gave up your entire family, disregarded your family’s century-old foundation. I’ve seen it all, and I’m truly grateful. There are some things I can’t explain to you. All the mistakes I made, I need to bear their consequences myself. Back then, a wrong step led me to completely break up with my first love, and even now my heart is still in pain. You should know how terrified I’ve been, waking from nightmares caused by those breakups. Even though I’ve been with you for so many years, outwardly appearing radiant and cheerful, no one knows when I have truly smiled from my heart. All these years, I have never genuinely been happy. With you, I’ve always been forcing a smile, because I know that people have to learn to disguise themselves. If you can’t learn to disguise yourself, you will become a pariah in front of everyone for life. I don’t know how to explain to you that I once loved him so deeply that I couldn’t pull myself out after he left. That’s when I realized how much I loved him, yet there was no way to bring him back!

Maybe you think I’ve been unfair to you all these years. You sacrificed everything for me, didn’t even want your own family, yet my heart was not with you but with someone else, thinking of someone else. All these years, I’ve been living in the depths of pain, unable to eat or sleep well day and night. I don’t know how to forget my past mistakes and the pain they brought to the man I loved most. Time and again, I reflect on myself, about how to restore everything to the way it was—in the beginning, what I should do to make it as if it never happened. I don’t know what decisions to make because I lost the man who loved me most due to a misstep. You know how much he loved me, right? He gave me all his love, gave everything, and in the end, I returned his love with a cold stone heart.

Only after his departure did I realize my heart could feel pain—not because of anything else, but because I lost him. It was his actions that made me fall deeply in love with him. I fell so deeply that I couldn’t extricate myself. No matter where or when, and whatever decision you make, I will gladly accept it. I only want to cherish the memories of our shared life. Even if you choose to divorce me, I will not give up on him. Whatever decision you make, I will always remember him in the depths of my heart because his love for me is irreplaceable. He was there for me in my most difficult times, extended a helping hand when I was in the most desperate agony. He gave me a love that no one else could. This time, I intend to give my all, to love him at any cost, by any means, no matter if, in return, he gives me nothing but a cold, stony response. I accept with gladness. I no longer care about any outcome, only whether I have let myself go completely in loving him, whether I have given him my whole heart. I’m sorry for hurting you!”

Zhang Zhentian was stunned, unable to grasp the situation.

”When initially you all chose to come clean about everything, I was truly happy. I never thought there would be a day when my parents too would confess the truth. In that moment, I was genuinely thrilled. But later, I realized it was just a stalling tactic. In your eyes, you never spoke sincerely, always just using people. In your eyes, is using people really that important? You could be so driven by greed, so oblivious of family ties, but I can’t. I can’t use any means necessary to harm all those dear to me just to achieve my goals. I can’t be as heartless and indifferent as you all are.

Whenever I see my loved ones getting hurt, my only thought is to step up and fiercely protect them, so they can always stay by my side for life. But it all feels like a dream, utterly unattainable...”

”Parents, since you have returned to this family, I hope you won’t make me the loneliest person in the world anymore. I don’t even know how much love I have, how many times I sacrificed, and ultimately what kind of outcomes I achieved. I just hope you remain by our family’s side, and never leave!”