My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1301: Chapter 1130: Who Did You Give Your Love To

I once couldn’t understand, I didn’t know to whom the person I loved the most gave her love, I didn’t know if it was the collapse of love or if I had made the wrong choice.

Actually, Old Master Zhang never really thought about his son, and eventually gave up on his own family.

He now doesn’t know whether what he’s done is right or wrong, he was the one who gave his son his current beliefs, and he was the one who educated his son into an adult, but now that his son has made such a decision, who can you blame? Isn’t it just your own fault for going in the wrong direction when educating your son back then? He didn’t understand how he should talk to his son to change the current situation. He has become unable to figure out how to communicate with his son again and again. He gave everything, just hoping his son could be happy, but the result was just constant misunderstanding from his son, who never understood how difficult it was to be a father.

”I have to admit, you are my son, and now that you have such insights, as a father, I certainly feel relieved, but no matter what, you are the child I taught with my own hands. When you say things like that now, doesn’t it make me, as your father, feel tormented deep inside? I wanted you to be responsible for yourself, but your responsibility is to leave the family behind, oh heaven, do you think that’s responsibility? Teacher Li drove everyone in the family to the brink, and you always felt every decision you made was right, but it hurts your family. You have already forgotten that your family is still in this world, you have put them out of your mind, nothing seems more important than your family in your heart, right?

When you repeatedly expressed a desire to leave this family and explore the world, we already knew that even if you stayed here, your heart isn’t here, because deep down, there is always an outside soul. Your soul does not belong to this family.

I really want to know, now that you have made such a decision, when your son comes back, how do you expect him to accept a father who abandons him again? You know better than anyone how much he longs for you, as a father, to stay by his side, yet you repeatedly make such decisions. Where does that leave him? Doesn’t he feel torment deep down as well?

You are my son; I’ve said this at least ten times. I still hope you can seriously consider whether what you’re doing is right or wrong, and whether your actions can make your family happy. If everything you’ve done only brings harm and pain to the family, then I tell you, you’ve succeeded in your goal because every family member is disheartened by your actions. There’s no need to be as cautious as before; you can boldly do what you want, as no one will stop you anymore because in your heart, there are only them and not us as family members.

You love your wife, and I can understand that feeling, but loving your wife doesn’t mean you have to take her away far and wide, nor does it mean you have to comply with her in everything or always consider her feelings. If you show her more care and spend more time with her, the outcome will be different, yet you have forgotten that this is the best way to accompany your family.

A decision made without much thought will not be supported by anyone. You might think your current decisions are right, but one day you will find out that what you’re doing is wrong because it hurt everyone who loves you the most.

Sometimes I really want to advise you to think things through before you act, consider your family’s feelings deep down, but I don’t know where to start. All of this is because I, as your father, failed to properly guide you, which led to such a significant misunderstanding, making you believe everything you do is correct. But is that really the case? Is everything you do truly right? You’ve forgotten the essence of being a person, you’ve forgotten the teachings from every family member, and you only remember your wife, being willing to give up everything for her. Yet even she hopes you can stay with the family, and I hope you all can stay and live together as well because your actions have been so disappointing!

I once thought that I’d rather not have you as a son. I thought of erasing you completely from my memory, and I forcefully chose the Master of Ceremonies again and again, but in the end, I found out it was all just deceiving myself. That’s self-deception. You’re rooted deeply in my mind, and no matter what, I can’t forget my son, the child I painstakingly raised cannot simply be forgotten.

I really hope, sometimes, when you make decisions, you could consider the family’s difficulties, think about the consequences of your actions on the family. I don’t know how to explain it to you, but do you know? Your actions repeatedly made me wonder how the family feels. You’ve neglected your son and ignored me as your father, being so self-reliant and independent. You think you should do things carefree, but you’ve forgotten your family, who’ve been severely hurt by this. You never care about who’s been hurt unless it isn’t your wife or yourself, as if we’re not your family?”

”I haven’t, I’ve never thought that way. Deep down, you are always my family, and that’s an unchangeable fact. You know how much I hope everyone here can live happily together. Is everything I’ve done wrong?

Dad is always on top of me, but have you ever thought that while I endure all the blames and pains alone, isn’t my heart also tormented? He is my biological father, yet he doesn’t understand me and puts all the blame on me, the son. My heart is equally troubled, but I can only choose to endure in silence...”

I have no way to retreat, after giving everything, I never thought about whether it’s right or wrong. I just know that my pain is indescribable...