My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1229: Chapter 1058: Loving Someone

”Child, do you know? I have made many mistakes in the past, but I have never forgotten what I should do. We were all confused, and I once thought I would never do something that I would regret.”

Zhang Zhentian didn’t know what his father truly thought deep down. He believed his father would feel happy about all things and assumed that his return home would be the happiest thing for his father in this life. However, he didn’t expect that his return would ultimately make them look down on him.

”Dad, I know. Perhaps deep inside, you think my return to this home is a sign of weakness, but I can openly tell you that, no matter what, I definitely don’t intend to feel disappointed. I just want to stay peacefully in this home. I just want everyone in the family to genuinely treat me as one of you. The harm I brought to you may never be remedied in this lifetime, and I have sincerely apologized to you countless times. No matter what, you still refuse to see me as family. I don’t understand what I truly mean to you or the significance of this.”

”I repeat again and again that I am your son. No matter what, I am willing to stay by your side and take care of you, regardless of how you view me. Just staying by your side proves that I still have a chance to show filial respect. The hurt I have caused you can only be compensated with the rest of my life. I want to give back all the love I owe you, all the care and attention, and stay by your side properly. Even if it means hard labor, I am willing!”

”You tell yourself, was it necessary? Since you knew this day would come, why did you choose to leave so decisively? Don’t you realize that during the time you left, everyone at home was worried sick? You didn’t treat the people in your family as ones you truly wanted to live with. You always thought of using your friends and always felt you could casually use your family. You believed your family could be easily hurt by you without any complaint, but you forgot that family members are humans too, not gods!”

Zhentian, you are not that young anymore. Certain things, as a father, I shouldn’t have to tell you repeatedly. Saying the same things again will only hurt your self-esteem. Do you know that some things really can’t be forgotten as easily as you think? You should reminisce about all the choices you made and consider if there was any decision you did not regret.

Deep inside, you are still holding resentment for us heartlessly shutting you out, and you have no way to let it go, yet you choose to remain silent. I don’t know how to address you, and I don’t know if it’s because your endurance is too strong or if you are too deeply concealed.”

”Dad, I have explained more than once. I have never been resentful about being forced to leave this home or because you shut me out. Since I have said I don’t hold grudges over this, it proves I truly can let it go. No matter what, you are my father. Everything I brought upon you was my error!”

Even if I return to his home this time and you still shut me out, I can understand. No matter how you treat me, I willingly accept it because you are my father. Just like you said, I am your son. This blood relationship cannot be severed. Maybe this lineage makes you feel heartbreak, makes you think we are unworthy to be your son, and unfit to live in this home with you, but we have truly, from the bottom of our hearts, realized our mistakes. I believe that in the coming time, you will surely see what kind of price we will pay for the wrong choices we made!”

”You don’t need to do this. Over the years, I haven’t given you much, and now you don’t need to repay me anything. There are still no relations between us. Even if you are my son, so what? When you decided to leave, it already severed all ties between us as father and son!”

The moment you heartlessly turned and walked away, that back silhouette, I will never forget it. You didn’t look back; you had no attachment to this home. You left so freely, abandoning everything here. I thought you would never set foot in this place again, but unexpectedly, you came back begging!

I have to admit, if this time it wasn’t because you had a car accident, if it wasn’t because I was a bit reluctant at heart watching you, if it wasn’t to let you heal peacefully, how could I agree to let you return to this home?”

The mistakes you made, I can never forgive in this lifetime. Why do you keep putting yourself through such humiliation, begging for our forgiveness again and again? Don’t you think you’re living too humbly?”

A real man should live with dignity. How can you kneel for small matters and shed tears over trivial unhappiness? A man doesn’t easily cry. Do you think you are still a man now?”

When you chose to return to this home, lowered your pride, knelt, and begged for our forgiveness, my evaluation of you completely disappeared. You are not worth high regard; you’re not even one-tenth of your son, who could reach the pinnacle of life through his efforts. But you can’t!”

He has never humbled himself to beg anyone, but you? Who have you begged? Do you truly have no understanding in your heart? If you beg someone, do you really think they will treat you as the most important person? In reality, they won’t.”

For your wife, you’re willing to give up everything, and I understand, because each of us is passionate. We have all experienced it, and such feelings are not easily abandoned. But this doesn’t mean that the mistakes you made can be dismissed with this reason. For your wife? Don’t you think this is too unfair? You push all the responsibility onto her.”

I understand you want to take responsibility, but ultimately you didn’t take that step because deep inside, you thought all the wrongdoings shouldn’t be borne by you alone; she should also share a bit of the burden. That would be fair...”

”The most important thing we should do is to keep the people we love most in our lives. When we choose to love someone, why use our love to hurt them?”