My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1203: Chapter 1033: No One Understands How Humble He Once Was

”Perhaps in your eyes, you think love is something that can easily hurt family, something that can easily be discarded. I’ve often wondered what kind of reason, what kind of charm could make my father wholeheartedly devoted to you.”

Sometimes I truly don’t understand what is so good about my mother. Knowing my father loves her so deeply, knowing that the person she loves isn’t him, yet she’s still willing to give everything for him. What is all this for? I don’t love my wife as much as he loves.

My father doesn’t know what’s in his son’s heart; he only knows that the only thing he can do now is to love thoroughly and in practice to move his wife, to let her know that he’s actually the man who loves her the most in this world, to understand that everything can change, that accepting the status quo isn’t the only proper way.

”I really don’t understand. What on earth is so good about my mother? Why is she worth your wholehearted love over these years? How has she treated you? Do you really not know?”

You’ve been deceiving yourself, yet you’ve allowed yourself to be deceived so successfully time and time again. You’ve lived a self-deceptive life for decades. Do you think it’s worth living?

You’ve been willing to sacrifice everything for her, even the entire family, and abandoned the century-long reputation painstakingly built by grandpa, even forsaking the centennial legacy of your biological father.

In your eyes, aside from her, what else is worth holding on to? What have you made of your own family by doing this?

Is it really so insignificant in your eyes now?

Can you harm them so easily now? How does harming your relatives benefit you? In the end, you only push your family further away. Those who loved you felt disappointed by your actions time after time, and they will eventually choose to abandon you. Everyone who loves you is heartbroken by your actions. Why should they choose to continue devoting themselves to you?

You’ve never considered what consequences your actions might bring. You just know what kind of life you want. But don’t you know that the person you love doesn’t love you back?”

”Child, you don’t understand. Some things aren’t as simple as you imagine. I’ve shared a bed with him for decades; I know his character far more than you. You can’t make such a judgment based only on what you’ve heard about her.

I once thought, even if one day he really was unwilling to stay by my side and left for someone else, I could still joyfully wish her well.

”Sometimes, when I see my father foolishly waiting for you, only to face such an outcome, I feel indignant for him.”

When the day comes that she wants to return to me, I will still open my arms to welcome her because she is the one I love most. I can give up all my principles for her because I love her, so I can forsake all my dignity. That’s what it truly means to love someone!

A person can abandon all principles, all dignity, give up everything they hold dear. If they don’t love this person, then why sacrifice so much for them?”

Zhang Yichen feels that his father’s love is too humble. He could even give up his life for his mother. But why does his mother see all this as a mistake? Why doesn’t she want to love his father a little more?

He has grown up without asking for any support from them in these years, without causing them any worries. But why, in his mother’s eyes, is she still never satisfied?

Is the human heart really so unpredictable? He abandoned me at the start for his so-called freedom, and now he’s giving up the entire family for his so-called love. He repeatedly abandons me — has he ever truly considered me his son?

Zhang Yichen’s heart grows more troubled the more he thinks about it. He simply can’t imagine what his mother truly thinks of him, what he can achieve in his life, when all he wants is to stay with his parents beside him. But each outcome leaves him feeling overwhelmingly passive.

”Do you know that while you love her so much, she doesn’t love you? I’ve never seen anyone love someone the way you do. Your love is too humble, and in her eyes, she can’t feel whether you really love her or what.”

In his eyes, there is only her love. Back then, for her so-called freedom, she chose to abandon me. Now she wants to abandon our entire family for her love. In his eyes, all these things of ours are expendable, except for that person he can’t forget.”

In his heart, everything is only her accompaniment. She may not care about any of us, because in her eyes, we’re simply not her family!

I truly don’t understand. He’s acted so resolutely; why do you still choose to love him so deeply? What kind of reason makes you so reckless for her, and what kind of thing makes you abandon us again and again for her?

We’re also people. We also have souls. We get hurt repeatedly, and our hearts ache repeatedly from the pain you’ve caused. What is it all for? Just because you’re my parents?

So you can unrestrainedly hurt my sincere heart for you?

It should be enough after so many times. Why do you keep testing my patience? Is it really good for you to do this? Do you really want to push me to the brink?”

Zhang Zhentian knows how humble his love is. Perhaps it’s exactly because of its humility that his wife is indifferent to it, blind to his efforts, deaf to his words, causing everything to become as awkward as it is now. If not for this, if he had a shred of masculinity, then perhaps none of this would have happened, and the way his wife perceives him might have been different. So, is it truly all because he’s too weak and incapable?

”Whether I’m humble or not, the heart with which I love her will never be humble. My love for her is strong and steadfast; it will not change because of anything. I believe that one day, because of my love, she will feel that I am not so humble anymore...”

”From the day my father fell in love with you, he loved humbly. He loved without any pride. In his eyes, he believed that as long as he truly loved you, he could achieve the outcome he most desired, but is that really the case? In the end, what he received was harm from you?”