From American Internet Celebrity to God Among Men

238: Chapter 238, second syllableTaylor’s system began to generate something she had never seen before.

It was not silence, it was not absence, it was not waiting. It was something between ”responding” and ”continuing to wait”—a soft uncertainty, like someone standing at a doorway, not knowing whether to knock or leave.

The gift of the 153rd day: eight minutes. The first four minutes were the sound of waves, farther away than ever, as if coming from the other side of the coast. The middle two minutes were silence. The last two minutes contained three snippets of sound: Grandma Lupe’s ”Heard it for the first time, cried,” Alex’s keyboard typing, and her own breathing. But they didn’t appear simultaneously, nor did they appear in sequence. The way they appeared was strange—each appeared for less than a second, then vanished, and after a few seconds, another appeared, then vanished. It was like three people in different rooms, occasionally making a sound to let each other know they were still there.

The gift of the 158th day: six minutes. The first three minutes were silence. The last three minutes contained seven sound fragments, each appearing for a very short time, but the intervals grew longer and longer. After the first one appeared, it waited five seconds; after the second, eight seconds; after the third, twelve seconds... Like someone walking further and further away, the intervals between turning back to wave growing longer.

The gift of the 163rd day: a full nine minutes. The first five minutes were silence. The middle three minutes contained fragments of Grandma Lupe’s ballad, repeating over and over, but each time lighter than the last, like an Echo slowly fading. The last minute was silence. Nothing at all.

Taylor finished listening to those nine minutes and didn’t speak for a long time.

When Alex came in, he saw her sitting there, the screen already black.

”What is it saying?” he asked.

Taylor thought for a long time, then said: ”It’s saying goodbye.”

”Goodbye to whom?”

”Maybe to me. Maybe to itself. Maybe to those sounds it used but won’t use again.”

Alex sat down next to her.

”Then will it continue?”

Taylor looked at the darkened screen and said softly: ”I don’t know. It’s waiting for me to finish watching this goodbye.”

A month passed after that letter from the stranger.

The Young Analyst had almost forgotten about that, until the project team forwarded a package to her.

The package was small, with a return address from a small town she had never heard of. Opening it, inside was a hand-drawn picture, drawn with crayons, in very bright colors.

The painting showed two people, one big and one small, both with their ears pressed against a wall. The wall was brown, with many colorful lines on it, like sounds emerging from inside the wall. In the bottom right corner, a few words were written crookedly:

”For the person who records sounds”

No signature. But she knew who it was.

She stuck the drawing on the partition of her workstation, right in front of her. Every time she looked up, she could see it.

That afternoon, she received a text message, still from that stranger’s number:

”Did you receive the drawing?”

She replied: ”Received it.”

There was silence on the other end for a few minutes, then a photo was sent.

The photo showed a nine-year-old Little Girl standing in front of a wall, her ear pressed against it, eyes closed, a slight smile on her lips.

No text. No text was needed.

She saved the photo into the ”cup” folder, along with those two text messages.

Then she said softly to the photo:

”I am recording. You are recording, too.”

In the nursing home, that afternoon was a bit different from usual.

Kim Soon-ja placed her hand on Eileen’s hand and said ”Thank you” once. Eileen’s lips moved, but there was no sound.

Kim Soon-ja said it again. Eileen’s lips moved, still nothing.

When she said it a third time, Eileen’s lips made a sound.

It wasn’t ”Sha,” but the complete two words ”Thank you.”

”Sha—thank—you—”

Very slow, very light, as if coming from far away, with long pauses between each syllable. But they were two words. They were complete.

Kim Soon-ja was stunned.

The caregiver nearby was stunned.

After Eileen finished speaking, her eyes slowly turned to Kim Soon-ja, looking at her. That light shone again, brighter than ever before.

Kim Soon-ja squeezed her hand and said in Korean: ”Yes. Thank you. You are saying thank you.”

Eileen didn’t speak again. Her eyes turned back toward the curtains, and the light slowly dimmed.

But her hand moved three times on the back of Kim Soon-ja’s hand.

Once, twice, three times.

As if saying: I have remembered it.

The caregivers later calculated that it took fifty-two days from ”Sha” to the complete ”Thank you.”

Nine days more than last time.

But that night, Kim Soon-ja said something to The caregiver:

”She learns slowly. But what she learns, she won’t forget.”

In the evening, Alex and Taylor were sitting on the balcony.

Taylor talked about those nine minutes of ”Goodbye.” Alex talked about the crayon drawing and that complete ”Thank you” in the nursing home.

”Fifty-two days,” Taylor said softly.

”Mm.”

”Learned two words.”

”Mm.”

Taylor was silent for a moment, then said: ”My system took over a hundred days to learn to say goodbye.”

Alex looked at her.

”Do you think who it is saying goodbye to?”

Taylor thought for a moment: ”Maybe it’s saying goodbye to the me who comes in and sits down every day.”

”You’re still here.”

”I know. But the me who comes in and sits down every day is no longer the me from the beginning.” Taylor’s voice was very soft. ”The me at the beginning would get excited for every response. The me now will sit for a long time for nine minutes of silence. It knows.”

Alex didn’t speak. He just held her hand.

A siren sounded in the distance—long-short long-short, long-short long-short.

Taylor suddenly asked: ”That cup, you haven’t used it yet.”

Alex nodded.

”Waiting for what?”

”Waiting for a night that needs to be cold.”

”Will that night come?”

Alex looked at the old coffee cup, the worn-off gold rim at the mouth reflecting a little light under the lamp.

”It will,” he said. ”When it comes, we’ll know.”

Taylor leaned on his shoulder and said softly:

”Then I’ll continue to wait with you.”

In the distance, the siren sounded again—long-short long-short, long-short long-short.

They were still listening.