My Alleged Husband

Chapter 844: Chapter 790: Compensation

”Yichen, I’m sorry, Dad didn’t realize you still had aspirations. Over the years, as a father, I let you down, I owe you so much. Even my own son had to give up his dreams because of my own affairs, and I didn’t even know about it. Maybe I’m really not suitable to be your father, I simply don’t qualify. There are so many people in the world stronger than me, and many more suited to be your father. I really don’t know how I was so lucky to have you as my son!

Right now, I don’t want to do or say anything; I just want to thank heaven for giving you to me. You are the greatest blessing and pride of my life. No matter how bad your actions might seem, I always feel proud of you as a son. Moreover, your actions have already exceeded everything. How could I possibly not know about what you’ve done? It’s just that I’ve never tried to understand you. I always thought you were a strong child who didn’t need his parents’ care, that you could always manage to endure by yourself time and again. But I often forgot that you too needed my attention, my help, my affection.”

Xia Jing also felt that she had wronged her own son. Her son had endured so much pain alone over the years, while she as a mother had been carefree outside, forgetting her home and her son waiting painfully for her to return, time and again. How much despair must have been in her son’s heart as his hopes were shattered over and over again, leaving him only with deep painful memories and the pain of waiting, endlessly waiting without ever seeing his mother return to witness his growth, not willing to acknowledge him.

”Child, it’s your mother who wronged you. If I hadn’t resolutely followed your father away, if I hadn’t fantasized about the outside world, thinking I could make a mark and then proudly recognize you, but I forgot that at that time you needed your parents’ company, especially your mother’s love and devotion. But I avoided all responsibilities that a mother should bear. You must hate me, don’t you? Why is it that nothing I do ever turns out right, why does everything I do bring everyone sadness?

Do you really hate me, your mother? If I hadn’t treated you this way, how could you possibly have ended up here, bearing so much pain alone, and how could your childhood have turned so dark, how could your dreams and goals have been shattered?

Whether you hate me as a mother or not, my guilt towards you in my heart will not diminish by a single bit. I am determined to use all my remaining time to make it up to you, to compensate for the maternal role I failed at for so many years. I want to restore to you all the love I should have given you over the years. I want the whole world to know that my son is innocent; his actions are right. The wrong was on me, the mother who heartlessly made him become this way. No matter how merciless or callous he becomes, he is in the right. All the mistakes should be borne by me as a mother!”

”Dad and Mom, deep down I don’t hate you for making me give up; it was a decision I made a long time ago. I don’t blame anyone. To protect this family, it was only right for me to give up things I cared about. I couldn’t allow my selfish desires to let the century-old business built by Grandpa be destroyed, and watch helplessly as the people I want to protect get hurt, unable to do anything!

The outcome now is exactly what I wanted. Now, I have the capability to protect, the capability to revive everything. I can ensure my grandfather isn’t hurt, I can make sure my wife and I enjoy a happy life, I can make my son’s life carefree, smooth his path, and help him avoid many detours. This is the greatest treasure of my life.”

Zhang Zhentian also felt a deep remorse. This is his own son after all; as a father, why hadn’t he fulfilled his responsibilities over the years? Why had his actions always resulted in so much harm to his child, even deeply hurting his own father? What use was his raising a son after all?

Yichen, your mother is right; no matter what, we should compensate you. All the hurt over the years was brought by us. There were no mistakes because our family has already sacrificed so much. The remaining time should be spent by me, as a father, to compensate you, to protect you, to protect our family!

I regret now, all the decisions I made. I shouldn’t have been selfish thinking about leaving this home, or about flying solo and trying to make a new world outside. Staying honestly at home is the right choice; home is where I belong forever!”

”Actually, hearing you think this way, I am already very content. You’ve finally realized home is your forever haven. What can you have without family? Without family, you lose the whole world. No matter how important the world seems, kinship cannot be bought with money, it cannot be traded for anything. If you truly lose your loved ones, lose this warm family, then what use is everything else? Can you really believe that losing everything can be compensated for?”

But no matter what, I am truly grateful to you. When you say these words, I truly believe you are sincerely returning home. I believe as parents, you sincerely want to do good for me as your son, to contribute to this home. This has become the greatest reward of my life!”