My Alleged Husband

Chapter 831: Chapter 777 Confessions

”Wait a moment, could you tell Grandpa, did someone ask you to come tonight to ask these questions about Grandma and Grandpa? If it was your father, then go back and tell him if he doesn’t trust every word we say, then don’t come and ask us for any reasons again. If it was your great-grandfather who chose to have you ask us, please convey the same message that some things cannot be clarified in just a few words, and I hope they won’t stubbornly chase after this matter, grasping it repeatedly without ever letting go, as it benefits no one.

Child, from your attitude, I can tell that no matter what your grandma and I do, you simply see us as not part of your family, because our actions have truly disappointed you. But do you know how much effort we have put in over the years to return to this family? Maybe others can’t see it, but can’t you see it either? Don’t you know what I really want? We have given so much time and again, for what purpose? We’ve been ignoring any costs time and again; is it really all just to be hurt by you all over again?

I know we did something wrong to you all in the past, but now I have turned over a new leaf, and I’ve paid a heavy price for everything I’ve done. Why do you still cling to the past?

Just like you said, you all want to live a peaceful and calm life, don’t I want the same? I’m human too, I have emotions, desires. I too have the wish to contribute to my family. Haven’t you ever considered how I feel?

If you were repeatedly hurt like this, if you were repeatedly spoken to by others like this, if you were repeatedly faced with skepticism, and if those people were your own family who fundamentally didn’t believe any words you said, then how would you feel inside? Does it really feel good inside your heart?

Puting ourselves in each other’s shoes, isn’t it great for all of us to share our feelings? I know the words you said to us today expressed your heart, but what about us? Do you really think our hearts don’t suffer? Is there truly no touch of sentiment in our hearts?

You think we, as parents, are too selfish; we, as grandparents, don’t consider your feelings. Then what about you? Have the things you’ve done, the words you’ve said taken our dignity into account? Have you repeatedly undermined our self-respect; in your eyes, does our self-esteem really mean so little? I too want a peaceful life, I just want everyone to live happily, I want to bring joy to everyone, I do not wish that all I leave you with are painful memories. Why do you have to ruin even this small wish?

Child, no matter what, the blood that flows in you is the same, it’s from me. The blood in your father is mine; he’s my flesh and blood son, and you? You are his flesh and blood son, isn’t my blood flowing in you too? Why would you harbor such thoughts? Why do you believe such thoughts are absolutely correct? Have you never considered whether your own ideas may actually be mistaken? Time and again, the one being struck isn’t you but me. I’m a member of this family. By doing this, do you truly treat us like family? Perhaps it has never been the case!”

Xia Jing knew her husband was truly heartbroken this time. He had never, with tears in his eyes, said these words, yet today these were all the truths in his heart, which he had silently kept for so many years, never spoken, because he knew speaking out deep from within wouldn’t change anything. But now that he’s chosen to speak out, it shows he’s still willing to gamble with his family, make a bet with the heavens. He wants to see exactly what it takes for his family members to treat him as one of them, and not to keep defending against him, because if that’s how it is, then returning to this family would be meaningless.

”Zhentian, what’s gotten into you today? I know you’re feeling upset, but you didn’t have to say these things to your own child. Don’t you realize that saying these things will make your child also have thoughts? He’s also an individual; he’s suffered a lot all these years, and today he couldn’t help but release it all at once to us. It wasn’t easy for him to reveal his heart to us, how can you say such things?”

”Grandma, actually what Grandpa said isn’t wrong because everything he does is truly for the good of the family. Perhaps my behavior today was a bit too impulsive. I didn’t consider how much you could bear, and I only focused on what I wanted for a life, forgetting what kind of blows you could withstand. All these years, because everyone in my family told me how you once abandoned our family, my heart had become resistant to you. But I didn’t think that my rejection of you would ultimately lead to this situation. If my words have caused any misunderstanding or if what I did today has led to a misunderstanding, then I sincerely apologize here. I didn’t mean it!

But I’m still truly grateful to you, without you I wouldn’t have the opportunity to speak my heart. These words have been hidden in my heart for so many years, growing day by day, deep inside. I never dared to confide in anyone, much less my parents.

Because when I bring you up to them, they hesitate deep inside. I know they’re also in pain, so I can’t mention my Grandma and Grandpa in their presence, nor dare to talk about you or ask you questions. But today, I’ve asked all the questions deep in my heart face to face, and my heart feels truly happy and light.

I never imagined that one day I would be able to live so openly, to ask all the questions deep in my heart. That feeling is really comfortable!”