My Alleged Husband

Chapter 839: Chapter 785: Sharing Life (Part 2)

Ran Zhihan heard his father share these life experiences, and deep down, he couldn’t quite believe it either. He had never imagined that his father was suffering so much while living abroad; he had always thought that his father was prospering. He had never considered returning to this home, but hearing him say these words, why did he, as a daughter-in-law, feel a bit reluctant deep inside?

Who wouldn’t be touched to hear their father recount his harrowing stories of the many years? Anyone with a bit of nostalgia for this home, as long as their heart isn’t made of stone, would feel that everything eventually seems perfect. They would never consider that these events were mistakes they made that caused harm. Everyone has a bit of narcissism, always feeling that the most beautiful things in the world should happen to them, and all the pain should stay far away.

”Dad, these years must have been very hard for you both living outside. Although you never told us how hard your life was out there, you always narrated how happy and fortunate your years were outside. In reality, you really need a sense of security because you don’t even know what kind of life you want for yourself. You have become numb, not knowing how far you can keep enduring this life.”

Over the years, I believe you’ve always wanted to return to this home, but you couldn’t let go of your so-called pride. Thus, time after time, you forced yourself not to return to this home that you’ve missed for so many years. You always feel it’s unfair for you to return here, wondering why others can achieve something after many years of struggle while you can’t. Ultimately, you can only return disgracefully to beg your own father and son to take you in. In fact, deep down inside, you truly want to return home and all that led to this outcome is merely everyone’s damnable pride playing its part!”

”Zhihan, I understand what you mean by saying these things, and I know you’re doing it for our good, but do you know? Some things are not so simple to just let go of. We have wandered outside for so many years, never ceasing to think of this home. Any living person would miss their family, their hometown, especially since I’ve been away from home for so many years, wandering outside while you all stayed at the safe harbor of our hometown. Meanwhile, I could only depend on my wife abroad, scared of losing my life at any moment!

You’ve never experienced this feeling, so you have no way of understanding what kind of emotional toll it takes. Time and again, I’ve battled with the demon in the depths of my heart, scared that one day I might wake up and not see the sunrise of the next day, scared that the whole world would ignore me, scared of being utterly alone here. Yet I’ve forgotten what I most wanted in my life and gradually lost everything I once desired to have!”

”Child, it’s different for you; everything you do is right. You have such a loving husband, my son. I believe he’s a good man who can give you everything you want. He has given his heartfelt sincerity to you, so you must earnestly reciprocate, never letting your actions make her feel sad. He’s not unkind or heartless, but if you ever hurt her, he might eventually find a way to leave you!”

Zhang Yichen never thought that even though his father hadn’t been by his side over the years, he understood his circumstances and psychological state so clearly. His father’s words were spot on. If it weren’t for his wife finding her way back, he might indeed have figured out a way to leave her, because what meaning was there in living with such a woman whose heart had never thought of living together? Then why stay by her side at all?

”Dad, please don’t speak anymore. Being able to sit together as a family and have a meal, your bitter stories, I truly didn’t think it would be so tough. I always assumed that your years abroad were very relaxed and comfortable, to the extent that you would not want to come home to see your own son even for a moment. It turns out you were just afraid, afraid that coming back you would have achieved nothing, subject to others’ ridicule. But you forgot that I am your son, and as a son, I would never mock my own father, unless this father really considers his family too insignificant!”

Indeed, over these years, how could my heart possibly remain untouched? You always felt that your life outside was hard, but I also struggled alongside. You should know how hard I’ve worked to get to where I am today; in everyone’s eyes, I am glorious, born with a silver spoon. But who knows what effort I’ve made to achieve today’s results, endured so much hardship, walking a path of tears and blood to where I am now. My efforts have been no less than anyone else’s, yet the rewards I’ve received are more than others. Maybe some people find it unfair, but looking back at all I’ve endured, who would dare deny what I’ve achieved?

All I did was to prove to you that your son wasn’t the worst. I wanted to prove how big a mistake you made by abandoning me. I wanted you to realize that leaving me for a lifetime was full of regret, and however it is, you can’t regain the family you should have had, because you abandoned me, abandoned your son, abandoned this family that could have brought you happiness for a lifetime. You treated us like your subordinates, but you forgot we are your family; we could have provided you a sanctuary of love, a life free from worries!”