My Alleged Husband

Chapter 810: Chapter 768: Sober_2

But what about you? A grown man, you choose to lie here avoiding reality, leaving me, a woman, to bear all the brutal truths alone. Do you know that it really makes me unable to understand if you truly love me with all your heart?

These days, I let you be taken care of, and later, I feel that you are indifferent. You turn a deaf ear to my calls, you are blind to all the wounds on me, and I know now that you don’t want to see me at all. But do you realize? I really miss you being by my side now, I’ve always grown under your protection, always wanting you to safeguard me indefinitely, never did I imagine that the person who loved me most would also leave me one day. I just wanted to prove to the whole world time and again how much you love me. That’s why I kept doing things that hurt you, to make you prove it, to plead with me, because then I would feel that you truly love me, that you really can’t bear to leave me. But in the end, I realized that everything I did was just a joke, and all I’ve done is ultimately hurt the person who loves me the most.

My husband, if you truly have me in your heart, then please wake up soon. If you truly don’t want to come back, then how should I face everyone in this world afterwards?

Everyone will only think it was me who harmed you, and then my name will live in infamy forever. Everyone will say I killed my own husband. Do you find it pleasing to have such words plastered to your ears? Do you realize how hard it is for me to let others criticise and insult me again and again, saying I caused your death, that it was my premeditated actions time and again, that I made this situation what it is now, that I made you immobile and suffer all the pain?

Was it I who caused this family’s ruin and death?

I beg you to stand up and consider for my sake, think more about what kind of life I myself want, consider what all my actions have truly been for. Don’t you realize that everything you do can really hurt someone else’s heart? What I do every day, isn’t it just to live a happy life? Why don’t you ever consider my feelings with the things you do? What do you really consider me as in your heart?

You profess your love for me loudly, but is this your so-called love? Your love is to escape from reality when I need you the most, leaving me alone to bear all the public condemnation, letting everyone point their fingers at me, accusing me of being a husband-killer. I’ve never thought you could be such a ruthless person. I always believed you would change for me, but now I’ve come to see that you are not like that at all. At the most difficult times, you choose to abandon me, and when I least need you, you choose to stand beside me. Don’t you know that I don’t need, I don’t want that kind of love—shallow and pretentious; I have no longing for it.

If deep down in your heart I still exist, then please wake up quickly and open your eyes to see me, to see what I have endured for you, to see how much pressure I have undergone because of your actions. If deep down you feel even the slightest bit of guilt, then please open your eyes to see me and how our home has become a mess, to see here all the people standing and waiting for you to wake up, looking at you with hopeful eyes, are you really willing to let them down?

As time passes day by day, they have waited here for who knows how long, but finally, the good news arrives that their loved one has finally awakened.

The next morning, Zhang Zhentian opened his bleary eyes, not knowing how long he has been asleep. He knows that the time spent in that nightmare was truly joyful.

”Xia Jing...”

Seeing Zhang Zhentian wake up, Xia Jing was truly elated. She had not thought her days of waiting would not be in vain, that her tireless efforts by his bedside could actually awaken him. At that moment, her heart was filled with ecstasy; she could barely contain her desire to embrace her husband tightly, to tell him how much she missed him, to tell him what consequence her actions have brought about, to tell him that she has now returned home, to accept everything that has happened. Most important of all, she wants to tell him the tremendous good news that she has chosen to stay by his side.