My Alleged Husband

Chapter 815: Chapter 770: Kneeling Down to Beg for Forgiveness (Long Chapter)

Zhang Zhentian, after being discharged from the hospital, immediately returned home. He knew that this time he had to face everything, no matter how harsh reality might be, and whether it brought satisfying answers or not, he had to choose to go back. Without knowing what continuous evasion would ultimately bring him, there was no way to tell whether the results of these years would be good or bad if he chose to flee. What then could he possibly gain from this world? If he were to lose his family members again, he would truly have nothing left.

Xia Jing knew that deep down her husband was dealing with complex feelings, yet she also didn’t know how to address such a matter.

After all, this issue was related to her as well. If her husband went back and chose to admit his faults, but she, as his wife, could only watch secretly on the side, what would that make her? If she didn’t even have the determination to face difficulties together with her husband, then what was her existence in this world worth? Wouldn’t she become the laughingstock of everyone?

”Zhentian, don’t worry. No matter what happens when we go back, I will do well. I will face the punishment from our families with you. After all, this issue started because of me, and I can’t possibly let you face the punishment from our families alone. It wouldn’t be fair to you. You’ve already sacrificed so much to protect me; how can I forever stand behind you and let you face all the storms alone?

If it were the past, I wouldn’t care about you at all, and how you were doing would not concern me. But now, I cannot do that anymore because I realize you truly are in my heart. I want you to stay by my side, to live a stable life together that we both desire. If it’s only because of me that everything turns out so embarrassing like it is now, then why bother coming back here just to allow you to be humiliated alone?

Since we are husband and wife, then whatever hardships and difficulties come our way, we should face them together. No one should think about taking on everything alone; everyone must ultimately tie up their own loose ends.

In anything we do, we must see it through from beginning to end. I will no longer run away like I did before, nor will I push you out alone to bear all the pain. Whatever decisions we make, we will bear them together, whatever pain we face, we will confront it together. Whatever reality may bring us, whatever we must face, as long as we hold on to each other’s hands and never let go, that’s enough. Even if one day we are forced to leave home, wouldn’t it be nice if we could still live happily together? Don’t repeatedly hope for luck because every time it may bring nothing but painful memories. Others won’t believe what you’ve done or how much you’ve done right or wrong in your life. In their eyes, they will always see your mistakes!

The moment I chose to stay by your side, I was ready for everything. I was prepared to face all hardships and difficulties with you. Every day I am with you, no matter what I face, whatever punishment I receive, no matter how far I can go or how long we can walk together, as long as we are together, holding on to the firm belief that we can live on, that is the happiest thing!

Now, don’t say anything more, as long as you let me accompany you to accept our families’ views of us, that is the greatest protection for me. I need to learn to grow up. You have protected me for decades; I cannot let you continue to sacrifice everything for me alone. That’s just not worth it!”

”You really are a fool. Do you realize that by doing this, everyone might form opinions about us, don’t you care at all? Do you understand that everything you do may not yield any results in the end? Although there’s a definite connection between us, and I want to hold on to your hand tightly, I really can’t bear to have you share such pain with me. I just want you to be safe and sound, standing behind me or ahead, facing all the storms, with me taking on the burdens for you!”