My Alleged Husband

Chapter 817: Chapter 770: Kneeling for Forgiveness (Long Chapter)_3

All that we have done was just in the hope to say sorry to you because our wilfulness made you suffer so many years of loneliness alone. Although you have my son by your side, I also know what kind of pain my child has endured today. Over the years, you have been accused by others because you drove your son and daughter-in-law out of the house. But nobody knew that actually, all the mistakes were initially because I was tempted by the freedom outside, thinking the outside world must be beautiful, thus I chose to abandon my own child, abandon everyone in this family and abandon the centuries-old foundation you built.

Looking back now, I truly feel that I am not a person, I am not worthy to be your son, nor do I deserve to be a member of the Zhang Family. Everyone in the Zhang Family has the courage to face all difficulties, but I alone do not. I really don’t know why I turned out this way, nor do I understand why everything I do seems wrong in everyone else’s eyes. All I wanted was just a peaceful life.

Yet what anyone can easily achieve, I cannot. I keep asking myself over and over again what did I do wrong to deserve this way of treatment, and the answer I reached is that the biggest mistake I’ve made in the world was abandoning my own family, abandoning my own father. A person like me who could even abandon his own father, so even heaven cannot stand it and had to unleash all punishments upon me which I accept willingly!”

”Zhentian, don’t say these things. Since Dad has chosen to forgive you, it proves that deep down in his heart he has never blamed you. What Dad truly wishes is just for you all to come back, and now, seeing you return to this family openly, do you know how thrilled I was at that moment? I was almost moved to tears, longing countless times hoping you would walk through this door to see me, but time and again all I got was the most disappointing answers because I never saw your figure at this door, it’s like you were cut off from the world, never willing to show up in my life again. Do you know how tough those years have been for your father?

Look at your son, he has achieved so much now because he has chosen to come back. But back when he was struggling alone outside, where were you as fathers? When he was ridiculed and threatened by everyone, where were you as parents when he was tormented over and over again? When he could no longer stand or walk because of training, where were you then? The person you owe the most is not me, but your son. The person you should apologize to is not me but your child!

You can be so ruthless towards your own child, he as a junior can forgive you, so why can’t I forgive you? I can’t let others see whether you left on your own accord or I drove you out of the house, for me now it’s no longer important. As for the century-old foundation of my family that you chose to ignore before, now you don’t need to care about it either; having your son, I already feel contented because he has managed every affair of this family competently. That child is truly the bloodline of the Zhang Family.

Zhentian, you are my son, no matter what you say or do, as a father, I will not blame you, even if one day you take a knife and kill me, I will not hate you, but you know what? The person you hurt is not me—it’s your son. He was only a month old when you chose to abandon him. Have you ever considered what kind of psychological impact this would have on a child growing up?

Don’t always be so selfish in your actions. Now that you are able to stand here alive, the person you should thank the most is not me but your son. Those days just after the incident, he stayed outside the hospital day and night, just for his family, even though he was unwilling and unhappy at that time. But you are his parents, he couldn’t just ignore you. Why can’t you try to see things from his perspective for once? He needs to save face too; he is a person. Now he is a big boss, seen as an unapproachable figure by everyone else, but for you, he gave up his so-called principles, gave up his dignity, all he wanted was for his parents to stay by his side. Why can’t you even meet this basic expectation?