My Alleged Husband

Chapter 835: Chapter 781: Harmonious Family? (Part 1)

Zhang Zhentian knew exactly what his father meant by saying those words. He was all too aware of the prejudices and preconceptions his father harbored deep inside. All of this was his own fault; whom else could he blame? Even if his father said something unpleasant to him, he had to endure it, because only through enduring could the path he walked be less arduous. Since he chose this step at the beginning, and chose to become who he is now, what right did he have to expect others to change repeatedly for his sake?

”Dad, I know, I know that deep inside you still have biases against me. I also know that the things we did in the past are not so easily forgiven. I don’t blame anyone, but I want you to know that I never anticipated the consequences of my actions, nor did I imagine that I would suffer so much over these years. All I’ve ever wanted was for you to let me return, what I desired was for you to speak up, but you never did, nor could I set aside my pride and face to beg for your shelter. I could only depend on what little pitiful self-respect I had to get to where I am today!

Perhaps you don’t know how difficult this journey has been for me, but do you know? Every time I came here, each and every time I approached our house, how much I wanted to return, to see how you were living, even if it meant just sitting down for a cup of tea and then immediately leaving, I would have been willing. But I didn’t even have the courage to come back. When I finally mustered the courage to return to this house, you chose to shut me out. That moment felt incredibly heartbreaking. I hadn’t expected that the courage I summoned would end up in vain because in your eyes, no matter how brave I was to come back, you would never forgive me, because what I did was truly unforgivable!

But today, the moment you allowed me back into this home, do you know how grateful I am? I am grateful to heaven for giving me another chance to return to this house, and I am thankful to you for willingly letting me come back, although you step by step couldn’t set aside your so-called dignity; actually, you are just like me.

Dad, actually, every one of us is exhausted by life. We have all sacrificed everything for what we desired, as long as our loved ones could stay by our sides, even if it cost us a little. Each of us has gone through life this way. I don’t know what words to use to tell you, but you also know that every person in the Zhang Family is truly passionate. Once we decide to wholeheartedly love someone, once we decide to live with a woman, we will never let go of her hand no matter what—you should understand this feeling!

I know you’ve thought over the years that my departure was because of my wife, but you don’t know why I did what I did. No one has ever understood why. My desires are simple and few; I just want my wife to stay by my side, to live happily with her, and as long as she harbors me in the depths of her heart, I could care less about anything else.”

When Old Master Zhang heard his son speaking of this matter, he felt upset. He had waited so many years hoping his son and daughter-in-law could live a happy life, but who knew that in the depths of his daughter-in-law’s heart, it wasn’t his son she cherished, which to a father, felt like a disgrace.

”Don’t you understand even now? The woman before you does not hold you in her heart at all. If it weren’t for the argument you had, if it weren’t for the fierce dispute between you, how could you have become what you are now? All you care about is her—have you really abandoned even your father?”

Some things you should understand clearly - making a mistake means in the end, all you receive is hurt, no matter how much you do for this woman. If she doesn’t cherish you in her heart, no matter what you do for her, no matter whether you give your all, she will never grant you any place in her heart. Why can’t you still understand this fact?”

I had thought you had come to terms with this. In my thoughts, as long as you could understand, if you could just go on living, forgetting past grievances, I, as a father, would not say a word. But to my surprise, you are still speaking in her favor. What use are your good words for her? Look at her, does she show any sign of regret at all? She doesn’t care about these matters at all, so why bother so much for her?”

Son, I know, we in the Zhang Family are all passionate. Each of us has determined who our wife is, and for a lifetime we will follow her, loyal to the death, never letting go of her hand. But what you have is not love, she is just using you. Can’t you see what she really thinks of you in her heart?”

”Dad, I don’t care what those people think of me. In my inner world, as long as she is willing to stay by my side, even if she thinks of someone else, seeing her constantly is happiness for me. Do you understand, having a woman by your side, who would dare death for you, who shares joys and sorrows with you for so many years? You really don’t understand what I feel being with her. Despite the hardships, while living each day in difficulty, having her by my side, I continuously feel an overwhelming happiness— a kind of happiness that others cannot give!”

The happiness given by family is different from that given by a lover!

Everyone chooses different paths, resulting in different outcomes. I’ve heard this so many times, and I really don’t want to hear these words anymore. These words mean nothing to me now, and have no impact. I have gotten used to doing my own things, and I will not change my beliefs because of anyone!”