My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1132: Chapter 992 Unchanged

Zhang Yichen could fully understand his mother’s current mood. When his wife said those words to him back then, wasn’t he just as heartless and indifferent in treating her? At that moment, his wife thought he was being overly sentimental and wanted to sever all ties with him. Who could understand the despair in his heart at that time? How scared he was; he feared losing her, but in the end, he could only stand there silently, watching her leave, watching her distant silhouette. How painful was it deep in his heart at that moment?

Ran Zhihan looked at Zhang Yichen’s stunned expression and found it amusing. So it turns out everything was just her being overly sentimental. She had always thought that as long as she said those words, she would get the answer she wanted. But she didn’t expect to end up disappointed. She didn’t know what to do, nor how to say the right thing to find a way that wouldn’t hurt either of them, but finding that way was really difficult. She used all her wits, but in the end, she had no solution. Is fate really unchangeable? Must one walk the predetermined path? No, she doesn’t want that kind of life. She wants to control her own life. Why should her destiny be arranged by heaven? Her road is paved by herself, not laid down by others for her to follow step by step. Such a road is not only short-lived but also mentally exhausting. So why not pick up her own weapon and strive for herself?

”Since you can’t give any answer to my question, let’s not contact each other from today onwards. Because if you can’t promise me anything, why are we together? It won’t end well for either of us. You should go home and be with your parents; maybe only then can you live happily, peacefully through this life. Additionally, my parents won’t suffer any harm from our relationship. Regardless of when, the harm your mom caused me, I won’t forget. I chose to forgive because of you; I didn’t want you to be caught between your mom and me, which wasn’t my intention. But what your mom did is really unforgivable—hurting me time and again, slandering time and again. What does she take me for? I’m a person, too; I have a soul. Why can she harm me repeatedly? Just because I’m not her biological child, can she disregard my life? My parents are civilians; does that mean their lives can be trampled upon? In her eyes, what are my parents? What am I? In her eyes, all she values is her son, knowing only how to make you happy. Her only concern is how to ensure your unhindered path, bringing you maximum benefit. This is her goal. I, a civilian’s daughter, can give you nothing, help you with nothing, so in her eyes, I hold no value. To her, someone without value might as well not exist, just occupying a space and becoming tiresome. This is your parents. In their eyes, they always place you, their son, above everything. Our lives are not lives; to them, only your life matters, your happiness matters, your interests are their primary goal...”

Zhang Yichen firmly grabbed Ran Zhihan’s hand, saying to her repeatedly, ”Zhihan, it’s not like what you think. Trust me, I can handle this situation. The whole world is mine; can’t I manage such a small emotional matter? Can you trust me a little more? You know how much I like you. Ten years, how can a decade-long love end just like that? If you can really abandon me, why don’t you dare to face my eyes while speaking? Because you’re unsure, right? In your heart, you still have me, right? If so, why should we give up our love because of my parents?”

”Our love? Such easy words. In all these years we’ve known each other, don’t you know who I am? From the day I found you, from the day your parents returned to recognize you because of our relationship, how much grievance have I borne for you? My bitterness untold, I kept it locked within. I didn’t want to trouble you, so I chose not to mention the pain I endured, even with abundant suffering. But have you ever stopped your parents from hurting me? This time it’s just a dagger; next time, will it be gunpowder and grenades against my parents? I can’t assure that being with you won’t bring disaster to my parents again. Watching my parents suffer repeatedly because of me fills me with guilt. Watching my parents almost risk their lives for me time and again weighs heavily on my conscience. But you’re different. You might feel it’s understandable, but thoughts differ between individuals, so we shouldn’t grapple with these matters anymore. If you feel happy, that’s enough!”

”You’re wrong. I’ve never thought it’s understandable. I know it’s all for us, but I’ve really come to realize now. During our time together, your aunt held a knife to my throat, forcing me to leave. But I didn’t; I chose to stay studying here. My academic performance is now excellent, and I don’t want anything to influence my studies. To me, nothing is more important than my studies. You should go home to avoid your mom finding out that you’re here with me, which would lead to her pressuring me again, hurting my parents again—a result neither of us wants to see!” Zhang Yichen wanted to explain, but are these matters resolved by simple explanations? Damage isn’t done in a day or two but occurs time and again. The harm Xia Jing caused Ran Zhihan: first sadness, then disappointment, finally despair. When it reaches despair, where can feelings be found? Now she doesn’t want to hear any explanations from the man before her; she feels all explanations are redundant. Can a few beautiful lies really cover up the truth of what’s happened? The pain remains in her heart; can it really disappear with mere sweet words?

”There’s nothing to talk about between us now. I’m really tired; I want to go home and rest. Please don’t follow me, okay? You should go back and think about how to spend the rest of your days with your parents. You’re indeed happy together. Why let an outsider like me cause your family to break apart? That would only deepen the sense of sin. You should go back and persuade your mom not to chase after me anymore. That would only end badly for her. I can forgive her repeatedly, but it doesn’t mean I can ignore her harm each time. I hope you understand that a human heart is made of flesh; it can hurt. Your mom’s repeated harm has already chilled me. No matter what you say this time, I won’t look back. You should go back; from today onwards, let’s not contact each other anymore!”

Ran Zhihan said this and broke free from Zhang Yichen’s hands, leaving without looking back!

”I don’t even know if loving someone means you can be together for sure. Even if you love that person, it doesn’t mean they love you back. That feeling is horrible because you’ve given everything for someone, only to find that they’re casually playing around, partying in clubs while you’re alone at home with an empty room!”