My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1121: Chapter 971: Forget the Hurt

Everyone has different thoughts in their hearts, and the decisions they make are also different. One should know what they truly want.

I will never forget everything that happened once.

”Don’t worry, I understand that your concerns about my finances are entirely because of everything I did with your grandfather. You can rest assured, I will sincerely apologize to him. I will make him forgive me, make him dissolve all his dissatisfaction and hatred towards me. Until that moment, I hope you can also achieve it, not to hate me as a father anymore. I haven’t done anything wrong in my life. I don’t want my life to become so complicated and painful. You can stand in my shoes and think about it, can’t you?”

I know, actually, you won’t believe a word I say because the harm I caused you is indeed too enormous. But have you considered, why did I do all this? Why did I turn into what I am today? I never thought all my actions would lead to such an outcome. I strategized step by step, only wanting my family to be happy. Everyone’s original intention is the same, but I eventually turned my original intention into something I despised the most.

Step by step, I kept thinking I could live the life I admired the most, yet in the end, I realized this wasn’t what I wanted at all. No matter what I do or think, I will never get everything I desire.

Actually, my life hasn’t been the happiest. I never thought about what I would become with every decision I made.

Perhaps you think I’m not worthy to be your father at all, and I understand. The harm I caused you is indelible pain, you know? As a father, I always hope my children can live happily and joyfully. Even if I betrayed everything in the end, I never intended to betray you, have you thought about that? No matter what, I never thought we’d reach that step. We ended up like that, only able to endure all the pain time and again.

Child, I truly beg you to see things from my perspective as a father. Consider our difficulties and whether we were forced by circumstances, whether we had no other choice. Don’t judge everything with your resolute ideas time and again. I don’t want this to be our final outcome, do you understand? When I was hurt over and over again, during my most painful times, I only had your mother by my side. Yet at the moment I hoped my family could be there with me, you weren’t there. You should try to see things from my perspective; at that moment, my inner heart was also filled with despair. Without my family’s company, would my heart not feel lonely, worried, or sad?”

Zhang Yichen heard her father’s words and cried while laughing, finding everything her father did today truly ironic, especially when those words entered her ears. She just wanted to plug her ears with cotton, preventing such sounds from entering her mind. She didn’t understand why hearing her father’s words caused such disgust. Could he be lying once again? Haven’t there been enough lies spoken before?

”Don’t you think saying this to me now is truly pointless? When you repeatedly did everything, at the end, did you think about the despair and sadness in my heart at that moment? I never thought about how I should live my life; I only know the ones I love the most are my family.”

”Perhaps, in your heart, as a father, I don’t love you as a son. But do you understand that no matter when or where, you have always been our deepest concern? We don’t abandon you for no reason; you are the child we worked so hard to bring into this world. How could we really not love you? Even when we chose to leave initially, it was truly due to unavoidable reasons. Some things are really hard, and I can’t say them clearly to you, but I hope you can try to compromise and understand how we feel, that we have suffered in silence. Can you?”

”Now, you say to me that you have suffered in silence, yet do you not remember every mistake you made in the past? Do you really need me to heartlessly uncover all the scars time and again and let everyone taste the pain caused by those wounds? How can you be so heartless? I don’t want this now; I just want us to be happy and for you to admit your mistakes if possible. If you really don’t want to admit your mistakes, I have no choice. Your mouth is on your body, and I can’t force you to do things you don’t want to do. I can’t use a knife to force you to do things against your conscience.”

”Dad, Grandpa, you two are old enough. Is it appropriate to argue like this in a public hospital setting? I don’t want you to argue here. If you really need to argue, please find a quiet place to do so. You two can go and have a good talk about what kind of life you truly want. Now that my mother is hospitalized, I have no mind to handle matters between you two. Please consider how I feel as a younger generation, how difficult and painful it is for me right now, can you? People should understand and respect each other, put themselves in the shoes of others, and only then can each get the outcome they most desire. If you repeatedly try to force others to make choices your way and walk the same path as you, do you think it’s possible?

No one is infallible. I learned this phrase a long time ago, but I never thought that you would still argue over these things today. I’m really tired of it. When I suffered through pain and torment again and again, you were never by my side. Yet now you argue like this, using such topics as reasons to fight. Do you think that’s right? Have I received others’ companionship or my parents’ care throughout my life? I was alone, undergoing all the training, becoming the strongest person I could be. I never regretted it, and I hope you won’t use these matters to speak!”

”Mom and Dad, I won’t remember the hurts I suffered before because I’m a forgetful person.”