My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1125: Chapter 975: Admiration from the Depths of the Soul

Xia Jing can finally understand what the most hurtful words are like. When he hears his son repeatedly remind him of the mistakes he made in the past, it’s a torment deep in his heart. No matter where or when he is, no matter how many mistakes he has made, he still hopes his family can be happy and joyful. But when his child points out again and again that he, as a mother, made huge mistakes, how could he possibly be happy or joyful deep down as a mother?

Deep down, he never imagined for a moment that one day he would be interrogated by his own child the way he is today. All he wanted was a peaceful life. But when he faced Nanning, and when he encountered setbacks repeatedly, he realized that everything he had imagined was so distant. After longing time and again and being disappointed, what he gained was always the most profound pain. Those pains left him with indelible scars, making it impossible for him to forget for the rest of his life.

”Have you ever thought for a moment that mom and dad were not like this? We’ve never intended to hurt you in this way. Perhaps we did many things that let you down in the past, but those things are long gone. What each of us should do is forget the past and showcase the future, isn’t it?

In your eyes, as long as your parents make mistakes, no matter how big or small, they are never worth forgiving. But do you understand that after dad and mom made such mistakes, after suffering such setbacks again and again, deep down, we are still unhappy and not joyful? What we once wanted was simple and plain, but what did we gain in the end? Pain. We never considered what we once yearned for as happiness because we forgot what happiness looked like, forgot its taste. We are no longer young, casually experiencing happiness. We can no longer smile as we used to.

Perhaps, many times, we should understand each other better. We should think about what we once longed for in life, instead of constantly using the wrong perspective to judge the life we hate the most. We once didn’t hesitate to hurt others for our goals, using them as stepping stones, trampling them underfoot, making them bow down to us, forcing them to endure that piercing pain. We shouldn’t behave that way, should we?”

”Mom and Dad, I’ve told you a thousand times, ten thousand times, no matter what you did to me or how you hurt me, I’m indifferent to the past, and I won’t hold onto it. But I beg you, I implore you to give me the most basic approval, can you? Please let me have the life I truly want. I don’t want to live like this. You never considered how oppressive this life is. I once pursued my goals at any cost, turning myself into a devil step by step, not caring about my health. Now I’m scared. I want to live peacefully. I want to be with my grandpa at all times, to see him enjoy family happiness.

I can’t live like I used to. I lived so frighteningly, sacrificing everything for my goals. Do you know how crazy I was at that time? I never dared to believe that was truly me. I’ve come to this point today, and I can’t even believe how I turned into that. Now I just want to live steadily. Perhaps for you, it’s very ordinary, but for me, it feels distant.

You can’t understand what it’s like to drift alone in the vast ocean, with no direction in sight, unable to tell east from west. You feel like a small boat drifting aimlessly on the sea. You’re so scared, and who can reach out to help you at that moment? You long for someone to reach out, even if ultimately, they aren’t there to save you but have an ulterior motive. At least in your critical moment, they offered a hand. But I’m truly scared. I’ve come to this point step by step, living every day on the edge, as if drifting at sea. I’ve never thought about surviving.

Because I know that even if I give everything, and I can’t live as happily as before, just like when I reach all my goals, I’ll know the kind of person I truly want to be. But if I’m still not happy alive, that’s not my life.

I’ve imagined countless times that even if my life isn’t grand, it must be splendid. I can’t let my life stay stagnant because of my actions, a wrong choice. I want to make my life colorful, to astonish everyone with envy. I’ve worked so hard, but such efforts only brought me the most sorrowful ending. But I’ve never given up on my goals. I believe that as long as I persist, I will one day reach the goal, and miracles will happen. Even if hope is faint, I shouldn’t give up everything easily. Never giving up is the spirit of moving forward bravely as a person.”

Old Master Zhang was gratified to hear these words; he realized that the child he raised has finally grown up. Every word he said made sense. He is now the person that Old Master Zhang envies the most. It’s under his guidance, with his eyes watching closely, that he saw how he grew, how he overcame difficulties step by step, and how he became what he is today, proud and upright, so enviable that no one could surpass him. He was very proud and honored to have such a child. This is a praise from the depths of his soul...