My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1151: Chapter 1011: Any News?

Zhang Yichen now has no intention of discussing anything with his family at home. In his eyes, the most important and pressing issue is how to find his wife. Perhaps he really had gone too far in the past!

If he could have considered her feelings a bit more back then, if he cared a little more, maybe things wouldn’t be like this now. Why was everything he did so excessive? Why did he never consider her feelings from her perspective?

The more he thinks about it now, the more he regrets. Perhaps the person he truly desires in the depths of his heart isn’t just someone to comfort him, but the feeling of family staying by his side forever, never leaving. Only when seeing his loved ones leave his sight did he realize the suffering of loss and gain. Why did he never understand this kind of reasoning before? If he had figured it all out earlier, how could it have come to this?

”Grandpa, do you know how scared I am? Afraid that she may never come back to me. I once ignored her feelings for family matters, thinking that having mom and dad back in our home was the start of happiness for us!

But when all facts later proved everything was not what I wanted, though my parents did return home, what did I lose? I lost my bedfellow, lost my wife.

The one who will accompany me for a lifetime isn’t my parents, but my wife. But losing her means losing everything. When did I ever consider things from her perspective, during times when she was breaking down inside? I never cared about her every move, but everything I did was so hurtful, so excessive, so resolute.

Truthfully, I have no idea why when facing everything, I always chose to understand only after losing. I never assessed everything from the angle of what I once had. Everything step by step turned into what I detest the most, yet I am still naively waiting for everything.

If only I saw through all of these much earlier, none of this would have ended up like the present state. Maybe I was too lost and unaware, too ignorant of how to cherish my bedfellow, watching helplessly as she drifted further away until she completely vanished from my life, only then realizing her importance. Now, looking at this empty home, seeing one less person by my side, it’s a feeling that’s truly indescribable, a very subtle feeling at the core of my being!

Grandpa, do you know what I fear the most is that my wife can never return. I can’t bear such pain. She once truly contributed a lot to this family, but I have no way. Everyone knows that there’s no way to forgive every mistake I made in the past.

Perhaps from the start, I should have made the right decision. Why expect so much in the beginning for things one shouldn’t expect at all? If I looked past things earlier, I wouldn’t be facing all these difficult choices now. As I walk step by step to the present, I finally realize that none of this is what I once most wanted. What I wanted the most has long departed from my original intentions.

Once I thought it was my passion that betrayed my love. But did you know? Every decision I made was so foolish. Until I saw them in their world, I realized I had traded it for a cruel ending. At that moment, her entire world was just ashes. My ruthless behavior towards my wife exceeded everything else. I never cared about her feelings. Being numbed for the sake of my parents because that was the love from them I desired but never received for years. But that love no longer belonged to me. After so many years, why should I hold on stubbornly to the past, causing my family to become this broken now?”

”Child, you now realize that you’ve truly grown up. You have your own opinions and thoughts. You understand the meaning behind every word you say. You also know how your life slowly shapes up. Do you know?

Seeing the look in your eyes now makes me really happy. The inner stirrings, these twenty-four characters deep within me, will never change regardless of any external factors. But you know, every time I changed myself entirely.

I never expected that one day you’d mature so quickly. I originally thought you’d develop such insights after many years, but now I find you’ve gained them in an instant. Maybe the impact of this event on you was just too big. You’ve probably never imagined you’d reach this point, nor did you expect you’d turn into who you are over time. But when you have such insight, I’ve found peace. I now know you’ve grown, capable of standing on your own without needing anyone beside you to shield you like before. You’ll learn from everything you do now and take on the responsibilities meant for you. I know you have become reliable, but you know, I hope you can find your wife. If there’s any news, remember to tell us immediately, we are truly worried. We’re equally concerned as you are. We’re eagerly waiting for good news about her.

No matter when or where, she is always part of our family, and I hope she can live happily. There’s no need to give up the happiness and joy she originally deserves due to unnecessary matters. That would be too unworthy.”

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Old Master Zhang was talking to Zhang Yichen when a call came from the police station.

Seeing it was a call from the police, Zhang Yichen immediately answered, desperately hoping for a piece of good news waiting for him.

”Officer, have you found my wife’s location? Where is she now? How is she? Is she safe? May I see her immediately?”

One question after another came out, yet the answers were always negative. They hadn’t found out his wife’s whereabouts. They still had not a single bit of information. What they could confirm was that she was presently safe.