My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1157: Chapter 1017: No News

Zhang Yichen waits at home every day for good news about his wife, but no matter how long he waits, he never gets the result he most desires. His mentality has slowly crumbled; what he once wanted was so simple, but now why has it become so difficult? Why did he never cherish what he once had? Do people really only realize what they most desired after it’s lost and regret it? Now, seeing every member of his family suffer such harm and pain, how can he calm the turbulent waves inside his heart?

Perhaps from the start, he should have chosen to be open and straightforward, avoiding today’s path. Why must everyone be saddened by his affairs? How difficult it has been for him to reach this point, never having considered what kind of path he truly wanted. What he wanted was ordinary, but now everything is so hard to achieve. Everything is due to his actions, leading to a life so different from what he imagined. Is this really the life he wanted? Deep down, only he knows how his past life has changed and understands the pain he has endured; no one can experience it for him.

His wife is now nowhere to be found. He doesn’t know where she is. He only hopes she would appear, even if just once, even if that moment is as fleeting as fireworks. He truly wishes his wife would appear, even if just for an instant like the bloom of a flower, he’d feel so happy. Ultimately, everything is the road he chose, but he never thought he would walk so far that there would be no turning back. Thinking about every word he once said to her brings chills. He can hardly believe those were words of cold heartedness and indifference he could once say. Every step he took made everyone hate him. He never thought about what path he should take, nor how to be accepted by others, nor realizing he truly did wrong and sincerely desires to change everything.

”Mom and Dad, many things have already deviated from what I imagined. Nothing is as simple as before. What I wanted, I can never achieve. Watching people around leave one by one, do you really think I am living happily? What I wanted is gone, the woman I hoped to protect with the rest of my life has left me. I don’t know why she chose this path, how she could be so cruel when I offered her my heart, ignoring me, choosing to disappear. How should I find her trace?

I never imagined I would fear her leaving. Her leaving might mean nothing to you, but it’s torture for me. I just realized how deeply I love her, but she left, right here right now. How should I face my inner thoughts? How do I confront all your joys and pains with everything from deep within myself? How much I yearn for happiness, even if it’s simple. But I never thought I’d end up like this. If she could return to me, I am willing to smile just once, like in a conversation for eternity.”

”Son, never did Grandpa say, knowing what you do now, why act the way you did before? When others devoted everything to you with all their love, you treated it lightly and took it for granted. Now that she’s gone, you think of living with her together. You’re punishing yourself. If you’re willing to think from her perspective, you wouldn’t treat her like this. Have you thought about how difficult her life is, how hard every step has been for her? She’s supported you for so long, having never thought of leaving, how much hardship reveals true feelings?

In this world, to gain others’ hearts with sincerity is truly difficult. Yet others are willing to give you their hearts without hesitation, and you keep breaking them time and again. Why then should anyone stay and let you hurt them repeatedly? Do they owe you something or deserve it?

Now your wife has left you, and you should understand her inner thoughts. You should know what you must do to turn reality into a dreamlike scenario and not let it stay forever like this, or else your life may be filled with regret.”

Zhang Yichen now can only be silent; he doesn’t know what words to use to communicate with his grandfather. This was already reminded by himself, yet he never considered anything from her perspective, leading to this outcome. If he could have empathized before, none of these would have happened. Now it’s too late to say anything; maybe only by sincerely changing everything about his current situation can she see his true intention, his willingness to give his heart to her, she might return just to look at him from afar, can’t let her live like this forever, it’s too cruel for him, and it’s not the ending he desires. His ending can only be decided by himself. His destiny needs to be firmly grasped in his own hands, never letting anyone control his life.

”Rest assured, no matter what, I will make sure they find her. I also believe my son will find her. Since he could heartlessly reject my parents, he can certainly bring her back to this home. I trust my son; I remember all you ever said to him, especially when you were lonely and wanted my son to keep you company...”