My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1162: Chapter 1021: Who Hasn’t Spoken Against Their Heart?

”Perhaps in your eyes, you think every word you’ve ever said was insincere.

You might feel that everything I’m saying now is insincere, but can you really be sure that you’ve never said anything insincere from childhood to adulthood? You always feel everything you do is right, so what about me? Is everything I’ve done really wrong?

Since you can’t remember whether you’ve ever said something insincere, I’ll use your past words, recreate the scenes as they were back then, and let you think about whether you spoke insincerely.”

Xia Jing would never believe that her husband considered marrying her as a blessing. Perhaps the words he’s saying now will slowly reveal themselves as lies meant to deceive him.

Now for Zhang Zhentian, the entire world has already collapsed. All she wants is to return to her father’s side, but she has destroyed everything herself. Now, what qualifications or reasons does she have to say this? Her family is now in pieces because of her. Sometimes, she regrets it herself – why did she put in so much effort, only to end up with such a result? What she wants is really not much, but it seems she can never get what she wants. Maybe she’ll never obtain what she hopes for most.

”I hope you won’t say such insincere lies anymore, do you know that? I don’t believe a word of what you said today, because it seems to me you’re just trying to deceive me. In the past, you lied too many times, causing me to lose faith in you. Since there is no trust between us anymore, do you think there’s any point to us being together? It would only cause greater harm to both of us!

In the past, I could abandon everything without hesitation for you, but now I can’t. The day you abandoned me proved that I need to change myself. I can no longer foolishly sacrifice everything for you, because in your eyes, I’m never rewarded. All you want is that inner feeling of happiness, but you don’t understand what happiness means in my inner world. Maybe that kind of happiness isn’t happiness to you?

Many times, if we think the other way around, the differences in our beliefs are simply too great. What I love, you don’t. What I want to protect, you don’t. What I respect, you always look down on. Because of these differences, do you think people with different beliefs can live together? Letting go is the best ending for you and me. As long as we let go, perhaps there will still be a chance for a happy life. If we cling onto these things forever, each other’s happiness will only be ruined...”

”Every word I’ve said to you today was true. I just want to be truly together with you. Being with you is the greatest luck of my life. This is the truth from the bottom of my heart, but you chose to doubt me. You don’t believe me, because you think every word I say is a lie. Did you ever think to trust me? Do you know how much it hurts me inside? What I want isn’t much; I just want to be by your side!

You always think that every word I say to you is an insincere lie to get you back to me. In your eyes, am I really that despicable? Am I really someone who will resort to any means to achieve my goals and lie endlessly? Ask yourself, in all these years with you, when have I ever wronged you? No matter how willful you are, I have always treated you as the one I love the most. But what about you? Did you ever genuinely treat me well? Did you truly want to be with me for the rest of your life?

I don’t know why you always feel the need to lie and deceive me, time and time again. To the point where in your eyes, is our relationship not even worth these lies? If you truly believed in me in your heart, you wouldn’t weave lies to deceive me, because your lies show a lack of trust. A marriage without trust is not something I cherish. Gradually, I realized that in any case, I just hope you can stay by my side. All I want is for you to be with me, never leaving, no matter life or death!”

Xia Jing sighed. She didn’t know how to say, she knew every action she’s taken would be hard for anyone to accept. Yet, this man in front of her sacrificed so much for her. What right does she have to demand more from him, yet she is always this greedy, trying again and again to demand from the one she loves. She counted on him loving her, thus she repeatedly committed unforgivable mistakes. But in the end, can he really continue to love her unconditionally and sacrifice for her?

In fact, in her heart, she knows her husband loves her deeply, even more than loving himself. But she can’t look back. Once she takes this path, she can only fail if she turns back. She doesn’t want others to laugh at her; she doesn’t want people to say she’s a woman who can’t do things. She wants everyone to see clearly that she’s not a woman who can’t live without her husband. She wants to prove to the world she’s the strongest woman. She wants all women to know that a woman doesn’t necessarily need to live with her husband, and as long as she is capable, she will always find a space under the sky that belongs to her.

”Please don’t lie to deceive me anymore. From today onwards, let’s sever all contact completely. I won’t contact you anymore because being in touch with you only reminds me of the pain in my heart again and again. That kind of pain can’t be forgotten with just a few words. The harm you’ve caused me cannot be forgotten so easily, nor can your warm words destroy the words you’ve said completely. You should first admit to yourself what you’ve done. You, more than anyone, know it a hundred times better; what’s done can’t be undone with mere words. Some things aren’t just erased like that!”

”I’ve made myself so clear today, yet you still choose to cut all ties with me? Don’t you really want to live with me in your eyes? Does living with me really make you feel worse than dying? Can’t you put away your dignity and set aside your so-called pride just once to live a good life with me, and give us another chance? Why do we have to walk an irrevocable path?”

”Do you still remember? I remember everything from that day vividly, even if everyone else forgets. That day was deeply engraved in my heart. I always thought that eventually, I would get what I want, but in the end, I got nothing...”