My Alleged Husband

Chapter 999: Chapter 890 Lies (4)_2

Is my happiness and joy in this life all built on the suffering of others? If it’s such happiness and joy, then what does it mean to me if others aren’t happy, and I’m foolishly laughing alone, only causing everyone around me to be hurt?

Reflecting on everything I’ve done with my wife, there’s always been an unresolvable disquiet in my heart. Did I truly experience the consequences for all the harm and choices once made? Have I really paid the price required by those events?

In truth, I’m utterly useless. Since the day I hid my wife, only I know how many mistakes I’ve truly made. Yet, in others’ eyes, it’s always been seen as my reckless willfulness. I believed it was all correct, repeatedly imposing what I thought was right on others. But how could it really be correct in their eyes? My father chose to stay silent. Do they truly know nothing about these matters?

Everyone in the family gave me plenty of face, ample space, allowing me to contemplate on how to proceed, on what kind of ending there should be. Everything I’ve done has repeatedly hurt my family, turning them, time and again, into targets of my harm. I can’t figure out what I should do to restore everything to how it once was, how all that I’ve done has led to this uncontrollable outcome.

”Nai’er, shut up. This is between your grandfather and me. I don’t want you to interfere. You have your own matters to attend to. How can a child like you understand the grievances between adults, so why speak so carelessly here?

The most important thing for you now is to take good care of your mom, to help her recover as soon as possible. You know what your mother is like now. If she were clear-headed, she would be in deep pain and torment inside. If you truly want what’s best for your mom, don’t do anything else right now. Put down everything you consider important and accompany your mom so that she can truly get better one day. When she comes to her senses, we’ll take her away from all this trouble to explore the world, to live the life we desire, free and unrestrained. Staying here serves no purpose for us.

But between your grandfather and me, I hope you won’t interfere. There are things you don’t understand, feelings you can’t comprehend. The most you can do now is what I just told you. Do you remember?”

”Dad, whether I understand or not, everything I’m saying today is true. Can you claim you genuinely hate grandpa and grandma? Despite all they’ve done to hurt you, you’ve never truly hated them inside because they’re your parents. You can’t hate them. The moment they returned, no one was happier inside than you because, at least, they were willing to finally come back to this home to care for you, to stay by your side. I’ve seen it all. Do you really think I’m that foolish, that ignorant? I’m just like you all. When faced with things, I choose not to speak because saying it doesn’t benefit anyone or change anything. My words might fracture our family’s peace. I don’t want such things to happen in our home. I know better than anyone how hard-won the peace of this family is!

I don’t understand why you won’t let me speak about these family matters. Do you see everything I do as wrong? Am I so unforgivable to you? I only want my relatives to be happy, just as you wish for your parents to stay by your side and for this family to remain peaceful. Would great-grandpa not say these words deep down? If he were here now, he too would say them.