My Alleged Husband

Chapter 998: Chapter 890: Lies (4)

”Child, I know you said this for my own good, but do you understand? Your father has already told so many lies, and there’s no turning back now. If I turn back now, then every word I’ve said before will all be recognized as the truest lies. There will be no way to recover from that, do you understand this principle?”

Zhang Zhentian himself is also unwilling to tell lies. How exhausting it is to lie; it’s obviously a small matter, but he has to tell so many lies to cover it up. He doesn’t even know what the meaning of lies is, hurting himself but causing his family to suffer the most unbearable harm again and again.

Zhang Yichen knows exactly what his father is worried about, but there are some things he still can’t say to his father. Some things he can only silently admire deep within himself. He keeps persuading his father to make the most correct decision, yet he has no way to help his father.

He is 100% unwilling in his heart to see his father continue lying, knowing how tiring it is and how big the mistakes are. He is clearer than anyone that when a person kills a small lie for one thing, he must use ten, a hundred lies to make up for that little lie later, eventually turning it into a gigantic falsehood. At that time, there’s no way to cover up the lies. He doesn’t want his father to end up like that. He just wants his dad to live healthily. If his father becomes like before, he feels he has no reason, and nothing will become that happy.

”Grandpa, sometimes lies being exposed aren’t necessarily a bad thing. Lies being exposed means there’s no turning back, which proves that you’ll only be an honest person in the future. If you’re worried now that your lies will be exposed and you’ll have no way out, it just proves you’re still planning to lie. I don’t understand why you’re willing to quarrel over these matters, but now my mother is lying here. I have no way to see my mother getting hurt and feel indifferent.

Grandpa, every day you see my father being so strict and humorous with you, does that mean he feels no pain or no sense at all? Saying he will wait is just because he wants his family to be harmonious and safe, what is everything you gave him after all? Over and over again, he buries his deepest wounds. Doesn’t he feel anything? He’s not foolish. This is not naivety, nor stupidity; it’s because all of this is due to his parents’ actions, yet he has no reason to blame you, and no right to resent you.

But when you do these things, you never consider how hard his life is. He gives all his hope to you because he knows you’re his parents. No matter what, he can’t hate you. He says he hates you, but deep inside he loves you. You never know his most genuine inner thoughts. You think every word he says is true, but you forget, he’s also a person, he also needs family companionship, and more importantly, the care and love from his parents. When you do these things, you never consider how difficult his life is. He gives everything to you, hoping you could come back. Do you really think he would want you to return to this home if he hated you?

Since he pleaded with his grandpa on your behalf, choosing to let you come back, it proves that deep inside he doesn’t actually hate you. But what are these actions of yours called? What do you consider him as, a tool to be used casually? What you did today leaves me entirely unable to accept and gives me no reason to believe this would be something you’d do. Why do you treat him so heartlessly? What did he do wrong?”

Zhang Zhentian feels more and more painful the deeper he thinks. What have you done? He wondered if his son ever truly hated him. If that’s the case, wouldn’t the things he did before have hurt his son, damaged his son’s true feelings? Everything he did was a mistake, never considering his son’s most genuine inner thoughts. Step by step, to this point, what was it all for? For what reason did he become so numb, hurting his own relatives for a small matter, pushing them to the brink time and time again, while he enjoyed the pleasure of hurting others.