My Alleged Husband

Chapter 990: Chapter 883 Understanding

Zhang Zhentian decided that he needed to step forward and say thank you to his son and genuinely thank his grandson.

Clearly, this family had already been turned upside down because of him, yet they were always willing to let him continue being part of it. He repeatedly persuaded himself, although he couldn’t understand why this was the case. But ultimately, this was the ending he desired the most; no one wishes to return home only to leave again.

Everyone in this family was his kin, and no matter when or where, he should stay close to his relatives, accompany his family properly, give them the warmest feelings and the truest care. Yet, what had he done over the years? Heartlessly abandoned his family and chose once more to leave them.

Now she finally understood how her father must have felt when she said those words, how hurt he must have been inside. Despite being hurt, he could only force himself to say he didn’t care. How truly sad she was. But now she hadn’t considered anything, all she wanted was her so-called freedom. She was willing to hurt her relatives to achieve her goals. Was this really the right decision? Was this the path she should take?

”Grandpa?”

Zhang Ni saw Zhang Zhentian walking towards him. He thought it might be time to finally clarify things today.

He didn’t understand what his grandfather was doing at the hospital—could it be to provoke his mother? He truly didn’t want his mom to suffer any more harm.

He had already made the family become as disharmonious as it was now due to his repeated appearances. He could only hold his ground to keep him in the family, but now he still wanted to say hurtful things to me, how should my mother handle the situation? My mom has always been strong-willed.

Now he was in complete turmoil, unsure if letting these things continue would prompt his mother to impulsively take actions he’d regret for a lifetime.

If his actions truly harmed his mom, how could he bear to continue living in society? Someone unable to protect his own mother has no qualification to protect his loved ones, nor any reason to promise them a life of happiness and stability. That’s impossible.

”Child, I overheard the conversation between you and your father. I’m sorry, this is my fault. I sincerely apologize to you. It is because of me that the family has become like this. Perhaps my appearance always brought trouble to the family. I don’t understand what I should do. Time and again, I only wanted to bring happiness to my family, yet the result was the opposite. I only brought harm to you.

Originally, I was determined to leave this family and not continue living here. But whenever you pleaded with me and tried to keep me, I realized how much I longed to stay here. Staying here is happiness; I abandoned my own happiness for so many years. I never lived in my own family, never even had a family reunion dinner. Every time abroad, I missed deeply the family moments during the holidays. I thought about you from afar; my heart was with you. But outside, I was sad; in front of everyone, I could only smile. I didn’t want your mom to feel pressured. I just wanted my wife to be happy. As long as I saw the smile on her face, no matter how hard my life, I felt it was worth it.

Perhaps, it was because my thoughts were too selfish that led to the current embarrassing situation. I turned it into the outcome I least wanted to see and turned myself repeatedly into the person I hated the most. But I had no solution. I couldn’t make it all seem like it never happened. I only want everyone in the family to live easily, not to feel any struggle for a moment. I only hoped my abilities would make me stand out in the family. But finally, I found I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t even match 1/10000 of my son, I am just the most failed father, revealing all my failures, yet I succeeded last year without a single bit of opportunity.”

It was the first time Zhang Yichen heard his father admit his failure. In his eyes, this was a rare progress. His father had always been so arrogant, never admitting his decisions might be wrong, never admitting his thoughts could be mistaken. But now, for the sake of surviving in the family, has he truly realized his mistakes? If only he realized earlier, how much better would it be? His grandfather wouldn’t have suffered so much. His grandfather could live happily.

”Although I don’t know whether what you’re saying is truly heartfelt or just said casually for us to hear, when we hear you say these words, we are truly happy inside. It brings us joy and happiness. At least you have reached this kind of awareness, at least you understand all you did might not have been correct. At least you consider everyone in this family as people who should continue living here. You treat us as family, and naturally, we cannot easily abandon you. We cannot be so heartless. All we want is for everyone to live happily and joyfully. Why must we change our ending again and again just because of past hurt?

If grandpa knew you had such realization, that you understood where you went wrong, he would be happy. All these years, he has been afraid you wouldn’t understand. Even if he wanted to tell you the whole truth, he couldn’t say it. Because without you understanding first, the more he says, the more counterproductive it would be, making you detest your family more and making you think your decisions were always correct. He can’t be selfish and let all the pain reflect on the whole family for a moment of quickness!

The family is always the priority. The entire family’s prosperity spanning a hundred years was established through centuries of effort. How could it be destroyed by such minor blows?”