My Alleged Husband

Chapter 866: Chapter 812 Conscience

Zhang Zhentian never expected that this time he wouldn’t need to say anything at all. His father saw everything so clearly as if he could see right through his heart. It was simply terrifying. Didn’t he even dare to have a single crooked thought? But he must think this through. If he really gave up his entire family because of a misstep, as his father said, then he would truly never have the chance to return to this home in his lifetime.

But if he really did something wrong this time, made a decision giving up his wife for his family, then his wife would leave him and never forgive him. Why does he have to face such a difficult choice, caught between a rock and a hard place? All he wanted was a perfect solution, one that would make everyone willing to accept and treat him as a family member.

Why is such an act so difficult to perform? Why can’t he achieve what he yearns for, is it really that tough? If it were someone else, how would they choose between a woman they deeply love and family members they have owed for years?

”Dad, I have to admit I’ve had such thoughts. But now, hearing you say this, I’m truly torn inside. I’m afraid you and my wife won’t get along, I fear the challenges you may repeatedly pose to her. I don’t want to see her aggrieved; I want to see her happy and radiant smile. She has also wanted to return to this home over the years, to be back at your side.

She misses everyone in this home just as much as I do, if not more. On the contrary, I have done so many things that have saddened and made you cry, but she is innocent, regardless of how stubborn she was or how extreme her actions were. She is, after all, my wife, a member of this family. Shouldn’t we choose to be inclusive, to forgive her, to understand her, no matter what?

I knew from the start that keeping the family harmony might hurt you again and again, making you hold grievances against us that persist to this day, unresolved. We understand that all of this is self-inflicted; we have no one to blame but ourselves. Yet we too want to return to this home and live peacefully. No one wishes to keep wandering outside when returning home; it’s not the ending anyone wants!”

”We didn’t intend to pose difficult questions to her; we just wanted to know whether you truly meant to return to this home. Is it that impossible for her? If you come back with insincerity and hurt us again, then what should we do? Do we deserve to be hurt by you repeatedly without even protecting ourselves?”

”You are my son. Can’t you think more carefully when you speak and act? How did I end up with such a thoughtless son? How am I supposed to respond to what you just said? She is my daughter-in-law, and I will always prioritize her interests. I will take her into consideration. But you, by saying these things today, have not regarded me as your father. If she finds out, what do you think she would feel inside?”

”If these were your own words to me, then I can understand. But if she told you to relay this to me, then I will do everything in my power to drive you out of the house again. I am not a philanthropist; I can’t be compliant with everything you do. You must bear the consequences of your actions. Even if you’ve had a tough time these years, how does that matter? It’s all your own doing. Is it that I forced these hardships on you, making you live in such agony?”

”One should not blame others for their own mistakes. Look within yourself to find the reason. If it truly is not your fault, then maybe the problem lies with someone else. For any issue, one should first look for faults within themselves before blaming others. That is what a real man does.”

”Dad, I’m sorry, the fault lies with me today. I was too anxious. I don’t want to be thrown out of the house by you again, and I don’t want my wife to leave me. That’s why I said all these things. In fact, these words are all from me, and have nothing to do with my wife; she doesn’t know about them, nor did she ask me to speak with you.

I’ve seen too much separation and reunion, and I just wish we could all live together happily. Over the years, we’ve all pursued the same kind of life. We just hope that our family can be by our side, that we can reunite and sit down together for the family reunion dinner during every festive season, rather than being scattered in different places.”

”I’m not a heartless person in my actions, I have emotions, and I am a living being. I understand desires and how crucial my feelings are. I just don’t want my family to repeatedly put me in a difficult position. I really have no way to choose between my wife and my family.

You are the family I have owed for years, but she is the wife who has accompanied me for many years. How could I abandon my wife, whom I’ve relied on for so many years, just to make it up to you? But how can I cold-heartedly abandon you for the wife I’ve relied upon for so many years? That would leave me caught in the middle, making me feel miserable inside and out. No matter what I do, it’s wrong because whichever side I choose, I hurt the other. The only perfect solution I can think of is if you could get along happily without putting me in the middle. I just want us to live together in harmony without making futile sacrifices, time and again. An endless cycle of sacrifices to please the other isn’t the answer. Can such a thing really bring lasting happiness to a family? It never will!”