My Alleged Husband

Chapter 851: Chapter 797: Can You Be Quieter?

”Dad, I’ve never thought about these issues, and I hope you don’t misunderstand our intention for coming back this time. Deep down, you must understand that we harbor no ill will in doing so. What we desire is simply a stable life, and there isn’t much that we want from each other. After all the things we’ve done and the mistakes we’ve made, being able to return is already a great joy, a great happiness for us. How could we possibly harbor any ill intentions like before?

I don’t understand why you choose not to trust me now, nor do I understand what made you change into the person you are today. But you’re my father, and I am your son - that’s an undeniable fact!

As you have said yourself, familial ties cannot be severed, blood relations will always exist. Since I carry your blood, there’s no escaping the fact that I am your son. Perhaps this fact is unbearably painful for you, but for me, it’s the happiest thing because without you, I wouldn’t be who I am today. Do you understand how happy that makes me?

Maybe you can’t grasp this happiness right now, but to me, it’s the greatest joy. You have never considered how much a child longs to return to the embrace of their family. Perhaps such matters seem trivial to you, but for me, they are the most difficult and painful.

Often when outside during holidays, seeing every family gathering together while we had no home to return to, we could only silently choose a modest shop to have our meal, hurried along by others eager for us to leave so they could celebrate their reunion.

At that moment, how bitter my heart felt, who could understand my feelings then? What kind of decision led me to become so wretched that day, that I laughed at myself? I don’t know if I was mocking my own stupidity or the so-called right choices I had made in the past?

I don’t even know why I laughed. Gradually, I lost myself, I lost all direction in my life. I no longer understand what kind of life I’m seeking here and have forgotten what I should gain or lose. I no longer care about what the end will bring. But being able to return to this home is a stroke of incredible fortune!

I’m not that greedy; I won’t ask for too much. What I want is just a peaceful life. I just want to stay here and take good care of my parents, to make up for all the affection I owe you over the years with my son, even if it costs my life, I am willing. Yet why, Father, did you choose to be suspicious of your son today? I don’t understand why you can’t even give me the most basic trust?

Dad, you have said that no matter what wrongs your child has done, no matter how big the mistakes your child has made, as a parent, you must endlessly forgive your child and always be very concerned about them. You said this yourself, have you forgotten it? I am your son. I know these years you have focused all your love on my child, your grandson, and I understand your actions. When we abandoned everyone, abandoned everything here and left for overseas, I’ve learned where I went wrong over these years. Aren’t all my years of regret worth something in your eyes?

You also know that I’m someone who would never easily admit faults or apologize to anyone. You know the kind of person I am, how proud and unyielding I can be, but do you understand that you are my father, so I can come to you without end, apologizing, simply because you are my family. I am willing to set aside all my dignity to admit my wrongs, just to return to this home and be by your side!

Since you’ve already chosen to allow me to return, please don’t use any more hurtful words to force me to leave. What would you gain from that? In the end, wouldn’t you just be left watching a loved one leave the house while suffering in pain?

Zhang Yichen felt that his father’s words made a lot of sense. If the family continued to dwell on these issues, what kind of outcome would he face later on? If bringing his parents back would only distress his grandfather, then what was the point of having his parents return? His grandfather was more important than his own parents, for his grandfather had provided everything he wanted, allowing him to grow up happily and carefree. He could not permit his grandfather to be hurt so much while his parents sat by, laughing contentedly. This was absolutely unacceptable.

”Can’t you all quiet down? What’s the point of arguing over these trivial things? Family shouldn’t be so divided. By arguing incessantly, you’ve put me in a difficult position. Don’t you know how torn this makes me feel?

When you argue, could you not consider those of us stuck in the middle, left and right, and the pain it causes us? Why do you only think about your so-called interests? Are those interests truly more important than our family’s happiness and joy?

I really don’t understand what your adult worldview has turned our family into. The happy life I want, you have never provided. And now, I’m here again, arguing over these issues time after time. Can’t you just live the happy life you desire quietly? Must it always be spent in arguments? What’s the point of arguing? Can you tell me what the meaning of these arguments is?

”Yichen, you know Grandfather doesn’t want these things to happen in the family, and that you want a quiet life. But some matters really can’t be explained in just a few words. There are things that can be ignored as if they never happened. But once you think about them, everything changes!”