My Alleged Husband

Chapter 853: Chapter 799: Passing by

In the following period, Zhang Zhentian spent every day cleaning the house with his wife. His father, having passed by him time and again without saying more than necessary, perhaps felt his son was never good enough for him. After all the mistakes he had made, what right did he have to expect his family to endlessly forgive all his transgressions?

Xia Jing could see the pain deep within her husband’s heart. Even though some matters were beyond her control, they became awkward because of her. If she had been a bit more understanding and willing to stay in this home, would things have turned out differently? She now realized that every mistake was born out of her stubbornness, out of her selfish desires.

Looking back, it seemed none of her actions were correct. Time after time, she hurt her family members, causing them sorrow and grief due to her own actions. Because of her, the family became estranged, unable to reunite even during festivals, each lost in their own longing.

Now she regrets losing so much, things she might never be able to recover in this lifetime. Due to her past mistakes, everyone suffered. If she could turn back time, would she make the same choices, allowing things to end up as they have?

Zhang Zhentian didn’t notice the changes in his wife’s expression. He just felt that his father couldn’t yet accept him because of the mistakes he’d made, and that his father still held onto them. If his father were willing to forgive him, then he would surely come talk to him sooner or later. Even though it was improper to wait for an elder to initiate conversation, he felt he had no other choice but to wait helplessly by their side.

”Husband, I’m sorry. If it weren’t for me, you wouldn’t have left this family; your dad wouldn’t be so disappointed in you; our son wouldn’t have chosen to treat us this way. I’m powerless to amend the wrongs I’ve committed. All I can do now is deeply apologize to you. If we could turn back time, if I were given another chance, I would never let it end like this, an ending that has caused us so much pain.

Even if the whole world fails to understand the turmoil in our hearts, remember that I understand you because we’ve suffered the same treatment, endured the same torment. Over the years, we know exactly how the other has struggled, with countless nights of uncountable tears shed. All I wanted was a stable life, yet my choices led to our ruin.”

Zhang Zhentian knew these were the true feelings hidden deep within his wife’s heart. Regardless of the many wrongs she did, and no matter who she really longed for deep down, since he chose to love her, he should forgive her and embrace every mistake she made. Because of his love for her, he would forgive every outcome he couldn’t accept. Having chosen this path, he was willing to crawl to the end of it in hopes of his family’s happiness by his side, without regret for the efforts he made.

It was better than not trying repeatedly and always hiding behind his family, waiting for them to protect him. What meaning would his life have if his family continued to shield him this way?

”I know you say these things for my sake, and I’m aware of how wronged you’ve felt this past year. Yet as a man unable to protect you from tears, I’ve felt like a failure. And yet here you are, sacrificing so much for me, how could I bear it? You’re my wife. I just want you to live peacefully in this world, to smile happily every day without a trace of sorrow, so that we no longer feel unhappy. But ultimately, my actions have led to both of us being burdened.”

”It’s true that our son’s way of treating us must hurt you most as a mother. After all, you carried him for ten months and gave birth to him. Yet he left without looking back, just because I once insisted that you take him and leave. Sometimes I think our son is heartless towards his own parents. I can’t imagine how he deals with strangers, and the very thought of him being decisive in the business world is terrifying. I’m afraid that one day he might treat us as he does his enemies. I wish he could stay by my side every day, happy and content. How wonderful that would be for us!

All the mistakes we made seem unforgivable in the eyes of our son. No matter what we do, he might forgive us one day, but our father will certainly not. In his eyes, we are just children who keep making mistakes without repentance. We longed to return home for the sake of our children, but my father chose to exclude us. To him, only his grandson matters because he raised him with great effort. How could he not deeply care about my son’s wellbeing?”

Xia Jing truly understood this feeling, because all of it was brought about by her own hands. Whom else could she blame? Seeing how much her father loved her son, she felt comforted deep down. At least her father didn’t vent anger for her past mistakes onto her son.