My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1297: Chapter 1126: After That Time

Perhaps deep in your hearts, you will never understand how much one person cares about another, what that feeling is like. When you watch your most beloved person leave your side time and time again, when you see the person you care about most return to the country but refuse to stay by your side, repeatedly leaving to escape from you, in that instant, your inner world truly crumbles. You never thought that day would bring such despair, and you never imagined that the person you love most could be so cold and heartless.

Some time later, Xia Jing returned from abroad once more, not only wanting to continue living here but also to see his son and his family, to see how they were living. In the blink of an eye, five years had passed, during which he had disappeared completely. He had not fulfilled even the slightest responsibility as an elder, feeling immense guilt within, but there was nothing he could do. He always felt that someone had to bear the burden of his many mistakes. During these five years, he shouldered all the responsibilities he ought to have borne, repaying everything he owed in that time. Sometimes, he didn’t even know why he did all these things. But in the end, he realized that what he was doing truly had a reason, not just for the people he loved, but for his own lifetime of happiness and joy. He didn’t want to live with guilt anymore—it was truly exhausting. He wanted to live peacefully and consider his remaining years as enough. He had already endured far too much suffering in his lifetime. Sometimes, when he looked back, he thought of how much he sacrificed to be with his beloved husband, but it only resulted in heartbreaking pain. He never imagined his husband would heartlessly abandon him, leaving an indelible scar. Why didn’t his husband ever consider that he had never wronged him? He said he lied and deceived, allowing his husband to live carefree and happily, but it ended up this way. When I think back to those days, I still can’t be happy, but I always feel that I should move forward with happiness; people shouldn’t remain stuck in one place forever. Everyone must learn to grow so that they can live a joyful life.

After returning to the country this time, he was constantly torn about whether or not to find his son and daughter-in-law. He didn’t know how to face this young couple. He knew that heartlessly leaving them both was a source of pain for He Jie. Since he chose this path, he had no way back. What was done was done, and in this state, how could he face his son and ask for forgiveness? He had made so many mistakes, and the fact that heaven had not punished him was already a good result. Why should he be greedy and ask for more benefits?

”Yichen, did you know your mother has returned to the country once more? I know many things shouldn’t be interfered with, but Grandfather hopes you understand. I don’t know what motive your mother has for returning like this, but I hope you can understand what the difference is between things that should or shouldn’t be done. You shouldn’t struggle unnecessarily like you did before. You know that when your mother abandoned you, it showed that she didn’t care about you, so don’t feel guilty because of your mother’s abandonment!”

”Hasn’t she already left and never returned? Why is she choosing to come back now? Is it because she regrets it? She’s made choices over and over again, so why regret now? Is she truly such a capricious person? I really don’t understand what I mean to my mother, as her son. I don’t know what they expect from me to feel satisfied. I don’t know how much more I need to do to be a good son in her eyes. I hope my mother can be with me, but I always end up in pain. She’s never been there for me, always trying to abandon me time and again. She never thought of keeping me by her side, never considered that I am her son, that I can feel pain too, that I have feelings, that I do care, that I endure pain, Grandfather. Five whole years have passed, so why is she suddenly choosing to return again? What is she doing it for? Can she consider my feelings a bit when she makes her decisions? I hope my mother can think more of me and stop being so selfish; it makes me feel so exhausted. I never imagined my mother could be this selfish, but now that she’s back again, will she selfishly abandon me once more?”

Old Master Zhang had long known this matter wouldn’t end so easily. He knew the blow to his grandson this time was tremendous, but he never dared to say it, for he believed that if he spoke, his grandson would only suffer more. He didn’t want to see his grandson live in such pain; he only wished to see those he cared about living happily and safely, and that was enough.

”You don’t have to think about school issues, you shouldn’t complicate things. You should know when your mother abandoned you back then, it was out of necessity. She kept you as the most important person in her heart. Don’t talk about your mother like that. No matter what she did, remember that she gave you life, which is why you have today. Regardless of the role she played in your life, you should be grateful, and as long as you are grateful, the world will return your smile!”

”Alright, Grandfather, now that my mother has chosen to return to the country once again, I should still go see her. After all, she is my mother, regardless of what she has done. I can’t be like others who are without conscience. I must regard my mother as the most important person in my life, even if she has never accompanied me before. After all, she gave me life, allowing me to grow and achieve what I have today...”

”That’s my good grandson. Grandfather knew that as long as Grandfather talked to you, you would understand the reasoning. Grandfather didn’t misjudge you. Keep up the good work, child, Grandfather believes in you!”

I remember every single thing I’ve been through. It’s not that I don’t want to forget, but I can’t forget, and I cannot obliterate them from memory. If I forget everything, then all the pain I endured will only be buried deep within my heart forever, and no one can bear the sorrow and hurt I experienced.

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