My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1275: Chapter 1104: Who Isn’t Tired?

I used to think that my actions were always right, and never considered why every step I took ended up like this. I believed as long as I was happy, that was enough. But who knew at the last moment of all this, I would end up in this state.

Though Zhang Zhentian felt that living like this was somewhat exhausting, sometimes I really have no choice. This was the path I chose resolutely back then, so now that I have chosen this path, what right or reason do I have to blame others for the harm they brought me?

”Dad, no matter how tired I am, this was my own decision back then. Since I chose this path, I will walk it step by step no matter how tough it is ahead. You shouldn’t think I can’t continue living; you should believe in me. I can do it. I will make it to the end; I won’t give up easily.”

Old Master Zhang always knew his son was stubborn, but he never imagined that his son would insist on his decision to this extent.

If it had been a few years ago, he might have been proud of the decisions his son made. But now times have changed; many outcomes are not as he once imagined, and there’s no way to make everything develop according to his wishes. Perhaps the only thing he can do now is ensure his child stays safe by his side. But as a father, how can he let his child only have this one family in his heart and no other aspirations?

He knows deep down that what he wishes for is not an easy thing. He must bear the consequences of mistakes he made in the past. No one can protect him indefinitely. He has made many mistakes that leave everyone unable to understand or forgive him.

He really doesn’t want much, just hopes his family can live peacefully and his life can be safe and secure.

In the end, he experienced too much pain and tears with his family. There’s no way to pretend the mistakes he made in the past never happened. He has been punished for them, but why does he still worry about his child facing such issues now? Is it true that parents will always worry about their children, sacrificing all their happiness for them?

”Child, I know the things you did may seem painful and ugly in your eyes, but as your father, no matter how many mistakes you’ve made, I will forgive you unconditionally because you are my son. I have told you this countless times, but you never took it seriously!

As a father, how bad must I be for you, my son, to take all matters upon yourself again and again?

Do you think deep down that I am an irresponsible father? I feel truly anguished and only wish for you to return to me. But over the years, you haven’t been there for me. As a father, I shouldn’t resent you, but I am really unwilling. Why should my child, whom I raised with difficulty, treat me this way? Was I not good to you, or did I fail to fulfill my responsibilities as a father?

Perhaps you feel you have obtained everything you wanted and can live contentedly and happily, but I cannot. I cannot forget the pain you once brought to everyone in this family.

Those pains are unforgettable. Only I know how much sorrow each person went through, how many tears were shed, how many times tears were cried in secret. You haven’t felt that, you can’t understand how piercingly painful it is.

I know you sincerely want to come back home now, hoping to let past mistakes dissolve into smoke. But I cannot do it.

Child, for you to return here is already a great joy for me. I am not that greedy. I know what thoughts are deep in your heart. No matter what you think, I hope you know that I am your father!”

Zhang Zhentian never imagined his father would think of him like this. How inadequate must he be as a son to make his own father think of him this way? All the mistakes he committed, paying the price repeatedly, he is now doing his utmost to make amends. But why does his father still refuse to face him properly, always believing he returned home with ulterior motives?

It wasn’t until this moment that he realized how terrible it feels to be doubted inexplicably. He once doubted someone else; how painful must they have felt then? When he doubted his own wife, how desperate must she have been? He gradually realized the harm he brought to others in the past. Can these wounds truly disappear with the compensations he offers now?

”Dad, even if you think I returned home with ulterior motives, I have no regrets. The mistakes I made I must bear. Maybe in your eyes, I seem exhausted from everything I do at home, but so what if I am tired? I must walk the path I chose to the end. If I give up halfway, how can I still be your son? You once did everything for your company, even at the cost of the family, to give me a way out. But I didn’t cherish it and cut off all ways back for myself with my own hands. I walked into a dead end, and only when there was no retreat I chose to return home.

I know I am not a good son, and I know I caused you pain and hurt, but I can assure you that this time I truly want to live in this home. I have no other purposes or ideas. Living in this home makes me happy, but unfortunately, I realized it too late. I regret it immensely!”

But what good is regret? Who can you blame for your mistakes? It was you who gave up everything yourself!

I used to fear a life of exhaustion, but a life without struggles is incomplete. Hasn’t everyone spent their life in hardships? Who can live smoothly all their life?