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Lord of Perverted Ladies

Chapter 189: Reflection · Oct 26, 2026

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151 Chapter 151: The oceans choice 2026-10-26
152 Chapter 152: Choice of war 2026-10-26
153 Chapter 153: Brother in the door 2026-10-26
154 Chapter 154: Desires 2026-10-26
155 Chapter 155: Emotions 2026-10-26
156 Chapter 156: Freedom 2026-10-26
157 Chapter 157: The price 2026-10-26
158 Chapter 158: The childrens 2026-10-26
159 Chapter 159: Beyond the horizon 2026-10-26
160 Chapter 160: Possibilities 2026-10-26
161 Chapter 161: Empathy 2026-10-26
162 Chapter 162: Trust 2026-10-26
163 Chapter 163: The reasoning 2026-10-26
164 Chapter 164: Selfishness 2026-10-26
165 Chapter 165: Familiar voices 2026-10-26
166 Chapter 166: Weight of words 2026-10-26
167 Chapter 167: Conflict 2026-10-26
168 Chapter 168: Father 2026-10-26
169 Chapter 169: Uneven 2026-10-26
170 Chapter 170: Why did you choose me? 2026-10-26
171 Chapter 171: Reflections 2026-10-26
172 Chapter 172: Brother 2026-10-26
173 Chapter 173: Barefoot 2026-10-26
174 Chapter 174: Unknown 2026-10-26
175 Chapter 175: No voice 2026-10-26
176 Chapter 176: Contradiction 2026-10-26
177 Chapter 177: The rest 2026-10-26
178 Chapter 178: Cael 2026-10-26
179 Chapter 179: Cost of choice 2026-10-26
180 Chapter 180: cost of choosing 2026-10-26
181 Chapter 181: Chose to forget 2026-10-26
182 Chapter 182: What remained 2026-10-26
183 Chapter 183: Variable 2026-10-26
184 Chapter 184: Convergence 2026-10-26
185 Chapter 185: Divergence 2026-10-26
186 Chapter 186: Absence 2026-10-26
187 Chapter 187: Departure 2026-10-26
188 Chapter 188: Separation 2026-10-26
189 Chapter 189: Reflection 2026-10-26
190 Chapter 190: The teacher 2026-10-26
191 Chapter 191: Self 2026-10-26
192 Chapter 192: Origin 2026-10-26
193 Chapter 193: Observer 2026-10-26
194 Chapter 194: Observation 2026-10-26
195 Chapter 195: Exposure 2026-10-26
196 Chapter 196: Answer 2026-10-26
197 Chapter 197: The questioner 2026-10-26
198 Chapter 198: The first memory 2026-10-26
199 Chapter 199: The one within 2026-10-26
200 Chapter 200: Permission 2026-10-26

A door opened.

Adrian froze.

He could hear it.

Not somewhere outside.

Not in the hallway.

Inside his own mind.

A slow creak.

Then silence.

Adrian closed his eyes.

”Not again.”

He waited.

Nothing happened.

He opened his eyes.

The hallway was still empty.

The photograph remained on the wall.

His brother stood inside it.

Everyone else stood beside him.

But Adrian’s reflection was gone.

He stared at the empty space.

Then the glass cracked.

A thin line appeared across the photograph.

Adrian touched it.

The moment his finger touched the crack, the house disappeared.

He was standing somewhere else.

A room.

Small.

Dark.

There was a single chair in the middle.

Someone was sitting in it.

Adrian.

Not another version.

Not a possibility.

Not a reflection.

Him.

The other Adrian slowly raised his head.

”You came.”

Adrian stared.

”I thought you disappeared.”

”I did.”

”Then how are you here?”

The other Adrian smiled.

”I didn’t.”

Adrian frowned.

”What?”

”I wasn’t the one who disappeared.”

The room became colder.

Adrian stepped closer.

”Then who did?”

The other Adrian looked toward the empty space beside him.

”You did.”

Adrian’s expression hardened.

”I’m standing right here.”

”Yes.”

”Then don’t say stupid things.”

The other Adrian laughed.

”You still do that.”

”Do what?”

”Pretend you understand yourself.”

Adrian folded his arms.

”Explain.”

The other Adrian pointed at the chair beside him.

”Sit.”

”No.”

”Why?”

”Because every time I sit in a mysterious chair, something terrible happens.”

The other Adrian smiled.

”That is surprisingly reasonable.”

Adrian remained standing.

”Talk.”

The other Adrian sighed.

”Fine.”

He looked directly at him.

”You remember the first choice.”

”Yes.”

”You remember the first question.”

”Yes.”

”You remember the first loss.”

”Yes.”

”You remember the worlds that could have been.”

”Yes.”

”But you don’t remember the separation.”

Adrian’s expression changed.

”The separation between the question and answer.”

”Yes.”

”What does that mean?”

The other Adrian stood.

”When you first existed, you weren’t one thing.”

Adrian frowned.

”You were a question.”

”Part of you wanted an answer.”

”Part of you wanted to exist.”

”Part of you wanted to create.”

”Part of you wanted someone to stay.”

”And part of you...”

He paused.

”...wanted to leave.”

Adrian stared.

”I wanted to leave?”

”Yes.”

”From what?”

”Everything.”

Adrian shook his head.

”No.”

”You did.”

”When?”

”Before your first identity.”

The room shifted.

A memory appeared.

Adrian saw himself.

Not as a child.

Not as Aeris.

Not as anything.

There was no body.

No name.

No face.

Only awareness.

He existed in darkness.

And around him were countless voices.

Create.

Stay.

Leave.

Become.

Forget.

Remember.

Choose.

The voices were overlapping.

Adrian felt something he had never felt before.

Pressure.

Not physical.

Existential.

Too many possibilities.

Too many expectations.

Too many directions.

And then one thought appeared.

I don’t want any of this.

Adrian watched himself turn away.

The memory continued.

The first question appeared.

Is anyone there?

A voice answered.

Yes.

And Adrian became Adrian.

He stared at the memory.

”That was my first choice.”

The other Adrian shook his head.

”No.”

Adrian looked at him.

”That was your first answer.”

”Then what was the choice?”

”You chose to separate the question from the answer.”

Adrian didn’t understand.

The other Adrian walked toward the memory.

”When you asked if anyone was there, you created a connection.”

”Your father answered.”

”That connection became identity.”

”You became Adrian.”

Adrian nodded slowly.

”But before that...”

The other Adrian pointed toward the darkness.

”You rejected every voice.”

Adrian looked at the countless voices.

”They were trying to become me.”

”Yes.”

”They were possibilities.”

”Yes.”

”I rejected them.”

”Yes.”

”And that’s why I became one person.”

The other Adrian smiled.

”Exactly.”

Adrian stared.

”So what is the problem?”

”You forgot the one voice you didn’t reject.”

Adrian’s body went still.

”What voice?”

The room became silent.

The other Adrian looked directly at him.

”Your own.”

Adrian couldn’t breathe.

The memory changed.

The darkness returned.

But this time Adrian saw something he hadn’t noticed before.

There were countless voices.

And beneath all of them—

A single silent thought.

I want to be alone.

Adrian stared.

”That was me.”

”Yes.”

”You’re saying I wanted to leave before I wanted anyone to answer?”

”Yes.”

Adrian stepped back.

”That doesn’t make sense.”

”It doesn’t have to.”

The other Adrian looked almost sad.

”You keep thinking your first desire was connection.”

Adrian looked at him.

”It wasn’t.”

”No.”

”You wanted solitude.”

”Yes.”

”Then why did I ask if anyone was there?”

”Because you changed your mind.”

Adrian’s expression softened.

The other Adrian continued.

”That was the first real choice you made.”

”Not choosing someone.”

”Choosing against yourself.”

Adrian stared.

”You wanted to disappear.”

”Yes.”

”But then I asked if anyone was there.”

”Yes.”

”And my father answered.”

”Yes.”

”And I chose to stay.”

”Yes.”

Adrian slowly sat down.

The truth was strangely simple.

He hadn’t begun with a desire to exist.

He had begun with a desire to stop existing.

The question had been the interruption.

His father’s answer had been the reason he stayed.

Adrian covered his face.

”That means...”

The other Adrian nodded.

”You were never forced into existence.”

”You chose it.”

Adrian looked up.

”Then why does it feel like something is missing?”

”Because the part of you that wanted to leave never disappeared.”

Adrian stared at him.

”Where is it?”

The other Adrian smiled.

”That’s what you’ve been searching for.”

The room trembled.

Adrian stood.

”Where?”

The other Adrian pointed behind him.

A second door appeared.

Adrian walked toward it.

”What happens if I open it?”

”You meet yourself.”

”I’ve done that.”

”No.”

The other Adrian shook his head.

”You met the version of yourself who chose control.”

”This is different.”

Adrian placed his hand on the door.

”How?”

”This one chose nothing.”

The door opened.

Adrian stepped inside.

There was a man sitting on the floor.

He looked exactly like Adrian.

Same face.

Same eyes.

Same hair.

But there was no emotion on his face.

No anger.

No sadness.

No curiosity.

Nothing.

Adrian stared.

The man looked up.

”Hello.”

Adrian swallowed.

”Who are you?”

The man shrugged.

”You.”

”That isn’t helpful.”

”I don’t need to be helpful.”

Adrian stepped closer.

”Why don’t you feel anything?”

”I chose not to.”

”When?”

”Before you.”

Adrian froze.

The man continued.

”You chose to stay.”

”I chose to leave.”

”You chose to connect.”

”I chose to separate.”

Adrian looked at him.

”And you?”

The man smiled faintly.

”I chose neither.”

Adrian understood.

The third possibility.

Echo.

But this wasn’t Echo.

Echo had eventually chosen connection.

This was the part of Adrian that had remained behind.

The one that had refused every direction.

The one that wanted nothing.

Adrian’s voice became quiet.

”You’re the part of me that wanted to disappear.”

”Yes.”

”Why didn’t I remember you?”

”Because you couldn’t.”

”Why?”

”Because if you remembered me, you would always wonder if you made the wrong choice.”

Adrian stared.

The man stood.

”You would look at your family and wonder whether staying was worth it.”

”You would look at every loss and wonder whether leaving would have been easier.”

”You would question every relationship.”

”Every decision.”

”Every identity.”

Adrian looked down.

”And you wanted to protect me from that?”

”No.”

The man smiled.

”I wanted to protect myself.”

Adrian looked at him.

”You’re selfish.”

”Yes.”

”That’s the most human thing you’ve said.”

The man laughed.

For the first time, emotion appeared on his face.

Adrian smiled.

Then the man stepped closer.

”You need to understand something.”

”What?”

”I don’t want to become you.”

Adrian nodded.

”You don’t have to.”

”I don’t want to disappear either.”

”You don’t have to.”

”I don’t want to be forgotten.”

Adrian extended his hand.

”You won’t be.”

The man looked at it.

”You said that before.”

”I know.”

”You forgot.”

”I know.”

The man hesitated.

Then he took Adrian’s hand.

The moment they touched, the room shattered.

Memories flooded Adrian.

Every time he had felt lonely.

Every time he wanted to leave.

Every time he had been surrounded by people but still felt alone.

Every time he had wondered whether being human was worth the pain.

Every time he had wanted everything to stop.

Adrian fell to his knees.

The memories weren’t dark.

They were his.

That was what made them hurt.

The man knelt beside him.

”You don’t have to hate me.”

Adrian looked at him.

”I don’t.”

”You don’t have to become me.”

”I won’t.”

”You don’t have to destroy me.”

”I won’t.”

The man smiled.

”Then what will you do?”

Adrian thought.

”I’ll remember you.”

The man closed his eyes.

”That is enough.”

The room began disappearing.

Adrian grabbed his hand.

”Wait.”

The man looked at him.

”What’s your name?”

The man thought for a moment.

”I never had one.”

Adrian smiled.

”Then choose.”

The man stared.

After a long silence, he answered:

”Sol.”

Adrian nodded.

”Sol.”

The name settled into the room.

For the first time, the man looked complete.

Not Adrian.

Not a forgotten possibility.

Not a rejected choice.

Sol.

His own person.

The room disappeared.

Adrian opened his eyes.

He was standing in the hallway again.

His mother was there.

His father.

Cael.

Echo.

The Null.

Noah.

And the boy who had never been chosen.

Everyone was awake.

His mother looked at him.

”Where were you?”

Adrian looked around.

”Inside myself.”

Cael sighed.

”That sounds exhausting.”

”It was.”

Echo looked at him.

”Did you find something?”

Adrian nodded.

”Someone.”

A new person stepped out from behind him.

Everyone turned.

Sol looked around the house.

He seemed confused.

Overwhelmed.

Alive.

The boy who had never been chosen smiled.

”Another one?”

Adrian shrugged.

”Apparently.”

Noah laughed.

”This house is getting crowded.”

His father looked at Adrian.

”You’re collecting people.”

Adrian sighed.

”I know.”

His mother smiled.

”That’s what family does.”

Adrian looked around.

For the first time, he didn’t feel like anything was missing.

Then Sol suddenly looked toward the window.

His expression changed.

”Someone is coming.”

Adrian turned.

”What?”

Sol pointed outside.

A figure stood across the street.

A woman.

She was watching the house.

Adrian couldn’t see her face.

But Sol could.

He whispered:

”I know her.”

Adrian looked at him.

”Who is she?”

Sol’s expression became pale.

”The one who taught me how to leave.”

The woman slowly raised her hand.

And waved.

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