Reborn in the Eighties as a Housewife with a Space

Chapter 1121: Chapter 1115: Self-Blame and Guilt_1 Chapter 1121: Chapter 1115: Self-Blame and Guilt_1 An Ruge stared at the large plate of fried rice in front of him. It was far too early to eat, and he didn’t feel hungry, but he knew that with his daughter giving birth, and his pregnant wife at home, he needed his strength to support them. Therefore, whether he felt like it or not, he needed to eat a substantial meal.

“It doesn’t matter if I can’t finish it, you eat. Don’t worry about me.” An Ruge sat down and began to eat.

Seeing his actions, Xiao Xiang’er understood his concern and began to eat as well.

By the time the couple finished their meal and arrived at the Armed Forces General Hospital, the Lis and An Hao had still not arrived, so they couldn’t help feeling restless. They decided to wait at the main entrance of the hospital, wishing they had called the Lis before coming. If the Lis weren’t on their way, they could have gone to pick them up at their home.

“Why haven’t they come yet?” Xiao Xiang’er worriedly asked after a period of waiting with no sign of the Lis.

“Xiang’er, don’t worry, they’re probably still having their meal. It’s An’an’s first baby, and these things usually take time.” When he thought about how lengthy the birth process had been when his wife was giving birth to their daughter, An Ruge felt a bit more at ease. Despite his increasing anxiety, he appeared calm on the surface to avoid scaring his wife and exacerbating her nervousness.

“I know, but I can’t help but worry. An’an hasn’t spent much time with us over these years. Now she’s married and giving birth. I feel so guilty. If I couldn’t be there for her during childbirth, then I’d feel like I failed as a mother. Don’t you think?” Xiao Xiang’er had devoted much of her life to the country. Although she was faithful to her nation, she felt like she had failed her daughter.

“Xiang’er, don’t think like that. Without a country, we wouldn’t have a home, right? An’an will understand. She won’t blame you.” An Ruge knew their daughter was feeling resentful. However, as he put it, without a nation, there would be no home. Thus, for the sake of future generations’ happiness, he had chosen his country over his daughter.

“I hope so.” Xiao Xiang’er had never felt so guilty about neglecting her daughter until An’an had asked her to abort her unborn child. That’s when she realized how much resentment An’an harbored against her.

Especially when An’an said, “You gave birth to me, then abandoned me. Why are you bringing another child into the world to suffer like I did? Do you know what I’ve dreaded most in my life? Being your daughter. While other kids always have their parents around, I don’t see my parents from one year to the next. If you didn’t love me, why did you give birth to me?”

Xiao Xiang’er was shocked by her daughter’s words. She did love her child, she loved An’an. She and her fellow researchers had always prioritized their work over their family for the greater good of the country. But it was only after hearing An’an’s words that she realized the depth of her daughter’s misunderstanding.

When Xiao Xiang’er finally decided to make more time for her daughter, she found out that An’an was now a wife and soon-to-be mother. While she felt pain at this realization, she also found comfort in knowing the Lis loved her daughter. This left her with conflicting feelings.

However, as long as her daughter was happy, that was all that mattered. Her greatest desire was for An’an to be happy, so she decided not to dwell on guilt and regrets any longer.

“Definitely. An’an will surely understand. Just relax.” An Ruge stepped forward and held his anxious wife, looking at her sincerely. If anyone were to be blamed, it should be him, for he didn’t spend enough time with his wife and daughter.