Back Then, I Adored You

His kisses were domineering and fierce, and his hands began to feel about her soft body. The scene resembled the night after they had gotten their marriage certificate; that night, he also had pressed down on her fiercely like this and had maniacally slid along every inch of her body.

She knew that tonight was not the same as the other one, but the nightmare from that previous encounter filled up her entire mind in an instant; she had a sudden hallucination as if she were reliving that moment. Her body instantly froze even more. She wanted to struggle and push him away, but the shred of consciousness she held onto continuously reminded her against doing so to avoid angering him.

She was terrified by his touch, but she summoned all the strength she could to force herself to bear it, so that her body would not tremble and he would not discover her misery. She tightened her grip on the bedsheets as she bore through the pain, and then, by focusing on her fingers, she managed to divert her attention and feel a momentary calm; however, this diversion would not last long. Just when his hands parted her thighs, her mind crumbled once more.

She was clearly aware that her body would distinctly writhe and struggle at any moment, and she clutched at the bedsheets even more tightly than before. This time, however, her effort was completely useless. Under desperation, she could only bite hard onto her lip until she tasted a raw, sanguine taste in her mouth. Instead of decreasing, her sense of horror, helplessness, and resistance further intensified.

She could clearly feel that he was about to thrust himself straight into her body. This did eventually cause her to slightly tremble, but it was mild enough that the indulgent Lu Bancheng did not detect it. Tears uncontrollably flooded out from the corners of her eyes.

It’s alright. It’ll be over soon. It’s alright. Don’t be too afraid. This is not the first time. It is not…

Xu Wennuan began to talk to herself inside of her head. She could not find any other way to console herself and, so as to not break down, she began to recite the multiplication table. But even though it was her second time, she still felt a pain that disrupted her silent recitation, and this instantly reminded her of the pain she had experienced during her first time.

Lu Bancheng had finally worked himself up but then slowed down to continue pleasuring himself. Xu Wennuan tightly shut her eyes and forced herself to pretend that nothing was happening; however, tears streamed from her eyes more furiously than before.

He remained satisfied just feeling the warmth inside her, completely melting his heart. He felt that the unhappiness between them was instantly resolved, to the point he even forgot that this moment was a mere business transaction between them.

He could not help but become gentler and slower. A sense of love crept into his eyes. As he lifted his head, he shifted up to her lips gently as if he wanted to protect her and he reached out his arms to draw her into an embrace. Then he nibbled the corner of her lips with great care, and he murmured her name gently in a low, tender voice. “Nuannuan…”

His kisses deepened and, just when he was about to pry open her lips with his tongue, he tasted something salty. His entire body trembled, and he turned silent. After several moments, he opened his eyes and saw the tears streaming from her closed eyes.

Subconsciously, he swallowed hard, but he was slow to realize that his lips were still enveloped around hers. He hurriedly put some distance between them, at which point he noticed that her shoulders were shaking hard beyond words.