Back Then, I Adored You

“I… I… I…” Xu Wennuan was rendered speechless by Lu Bancheng, but she was afraid that she would not be able to convince him to save her father if she couldn’t answer his question. She stared at his cold eyes and racked her brains. The harder she thought, the slower her brain worked and the more she panicked.

Ultimately, the scene of the night he had raped her surfaced in her mind, followed by how he had told her that his actions were triggered by his love for her. While she did not believe that a person would treat his loved one like he had treated her, she did suspect that he was attracted to her. She had nothing, and he lacked nothing, so this seemed to be the only thing that she had to offer to him.

Xu Wennuan had never imagined that there would be a day when she would actually use herself to negotiate terms, but right now she could not bear to sit back and watch as her father suffer from the torment of his illness. There was no other route to take and certainly no turning back.

After a long silence, Xu Wennuan looked up. Her eyes met Lu Bancheng’s eyes, and she moved her lips slightly. “I could give myself to you.”

Lu Bancheng’s body froze in confusion.

“I could give myself to you”… What does she mean by that?

Xu Wennuan did not dare continue looking at Lu Bancheng, so she lowered her eyes to hide her gaze. In a calm, emotionless voice, she spoke as if she were talking about someone else.

“You used to yearn for me, didn’t you? It must have… It must have been dissatisfying for you to only have me once? If you promise to save my dad, I will give myself to you now…”

He had never thought to loot a burning house to force her to be with him, yet now she was initiating the proposal on her own. Of course, he’d had a desire for her all along and, even though he hated her for aborting their child, he could not resist his desire for her.

But now, she actually treats herself as a commodity to be used to negotiate a deal…

Anger suddenly spread its roots in his heart and filled up his entire body. “Xu Wennuan, should I praise you for being a filial daughter who would sell her body for her father? Or should I curse you for being such a shameless whore deep in your bones?”

Xu Wennuan’s body trembled slightly, but she did not make a single sound.

“Furthermore, what makes you think that I would be dissatisfied with doing it once? What makes you think that I would want to f*ck you again after the first time?

“Who do you think you are? Do you think I’m head over heels for you? Didn’t you see that girl I brought home with me? She was more beautiful and sensible than you are, and she knows her place! I was once foolish and yearned for you, but what makes you so sure that I would still desire you now?

“Oh, no. Desire is not something I feel for you. At most, I will f*ck and toy with you. You are no different from a bed fixture; however…” Lu Bancheng paused and his anger turned into amused arrogance. “Xu Wennuan, do you think I lack women? I thought I had made myself clear that night: Women like you are merely for me to play with, and when I see you I’m not even aroused by you as a toy. Do you understand?”

She appeared defeated by his words, and her eyes gradually lost their shine and darkened as her shoulders slowly became slack. She had only offered herself out of despair in a time of need, and he had humiliated her. She had genuinely come with the mindset to forget their past and to beg him pathetically.