Please Stop Spreading Rumors About Me — They Keep Coming True

I have, by now, watched a lot of impossible things. I’ve seen a sneeze fell a demon and a confession shatter records and a Storm-Marshal lose his trousers to the sky.

But the most impossible thing I ever saw — the thing that genuinely moved me to tears — was a bubbly junior cultivator with a notebook turn ten million strangers into a family in three days.

I don’t fully know how she did it. Tao Tao had always had two gifts I’d underestimated, mostly because they came wrapped in so much cheerful noise: she believed with a purity I’d never seen in anyone, and she could not meet a stranger without befriending them. On the road to the capital she’d recruited travelers one at a time, and I’d thought it was a charming habit. It wasn’t a habit. It was training. She’d been practicing this her whole life without knowing what it was for.

Now she knew.

She started with the noodle-sellers, because she’s Tao Tao and she always knows where the food is. She gathered them, and she told them — not a manufactured legend, not a paid story, just the plain true thing — that the Empire was trying to make people doubt the demon-slayer, the people’s demon-slayer, their demon-slayer, and that the only thing that could stop it was for the people who really believed to believe louder.

And the noodle-sellers told the street-sweepers. The street-sweepers told the dock-workers. The dock-workers told their children, and the children — the children in the paper sneeze-hats, who loved me with the ferocious uncomplicated loyalty that children give to the things that are theirs — the children went absolutely feral about it.

By the second day there were chants. Real ones, starting in the cheap tiers and rolling down toward the rich ones like weather. By the second evening there were banners — handmade, crooked, glorious, painted on old sailcloth and bedsheets: THE PEOPLE’S DEMON-SLAYER. WE BELIEVE. And one, my favorite, held up by a tiny child on her father’s shoulders, that just said, in wobbling letters: HE IS OURS.

Tao Tao organized it all from a noodle stall she’d commandeered as headquarters, her notebook open, dispatching believers like a general moving armies. She’d founded a thing — she called it the Order of the Modest Demon-Slayer, which is the single most Tao Tao name in existence — with a chant, and a hand-sign (a little bow, of course), and a daily recitation of the Deeds, read aloud from her notebook to growing crowds who wept and cheered at the part about the candle. It was ridiculous. A fan club with the earnestness of a religion. The most absurd thing I had ever been at the center of.

It was also, I realized slowly, watching it grow, the most powerful.

Because here is the thing the Empire of a Thousand Verses, for all its ten thousand bards and all its cold genius, had never understood. The thing Xue Ningzhi, who accounted for everything, had not accounted for.

You can manufacture belief. You can buy it, build it, broadcast it. The Empire did it better than anyone alive.

But you cannot manufacture love.

The Empire’s belief was a wall built by paid hands — strong, tall, and only as loyal as the next payment. Tao Tao’s belief was a thing freely given by millions of people who had decided, on their own, with no one paying them, that this tired humble nobody was theirs and they would not let him be taken. And love freely given, it turns out, is the most stubborn force in all the world. You can seed a thousand grains of doubt into belief that was bought. Doubt slides right off belief that was chosen, though, because the people who chose it aren’t holding it for money — they’re holding it because letting go would mean letting go of the part of themselves that finally got to matter.

My armor came back. More than came back. As Tao Tao’s grassroots faith swelled up from the bottom of the Arena, I felt the belief in my chest go from a flickering, Empire-thinned thing to something deeper and warmer and immovable, rooted in ten million hearts that no whisper could reach, because you cannot whisper away a thing a child painted on a bedsheet.

On the third evening I went to find Tao Tao at her noodle-stall headquarters, and I found her exhausted, ink-stained, hoarse from three days of organizing, asleep sitting up against a stack of her own banners, the notebook still open in her lap.

I sat down next to her quietly. I didn’t want to wake her.

I’ll tell you the truth of what I felt, because it’s the truest thing in this whole account.

I felt like a fraud. Because all of this — the banners, the chants, the children, the love freely given by millions — it was for a man who couldn’t fight, who’d done nothing, who was held up entirely by belief. They loved a hero who wasn’t real. The guilt of it sat on me like a stone.

But underneath the guilt was something else. Something I hadn’t felt in twenty-six years of being a nobody, and it took me a while to even recognize it.

I felt loved. Not the legend. Me. Because Tao Tao — Tao Tao knew. She’d been there since the beginning. She knew I couldn’t fight, knew the deeds were accidents, knew there was no master under the legend. She knew exactly what I was — a tired clerk things kept happening to — and she had given three sleepless days and her whole fierce heart to defend me anyway. Not the demon-slayer. Me. The fraud. The nobody. She’d built an army for the man she actually knew, not the one the world believed in.

Maybe, I thought, looking at her asleep against the banners, that’s what love actually is. Not believing someone’s better than they are. Knowing exactly what they are, all the small tired truth of it, and deciding they’re worth an army anyway.

Tao Tao stirred, half-woke, blinked at me blearily.

”Master,” she mumbled. ”Did it work? Is the belief—”

”It worked,” I said, and my voice wasn’t quite steady. ”Tao Tao. It worked better than anything. You did something the Empire with all its thousands couldn’t do. You built something real.” I had to stop for a second. ”Thank you. For believing in me. The actual me. Even though you know.”

She smiled, sleepy and certain, already drifting again.

”’Course I know,” she murmured, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. ”That’s why, Master. Anybody can believe in a hero.” Her eyes closed. ”I like you.”

And she was asleep again. I sat there in the lamplight of a commandeered noodle stall, surrounded by an army of crooked bedsheet banners, being loved by people who’d chosen it freely, and I cried a little, quietly, where no one could see.

Across the Arena, I have no doubt, in some cold elegant room, Xue Ningzhi was looking at the grassroots faith swelling up against her perfect manufactured doubt, and recalculating. She’d planned for belief. She hadn’t planned for love. It was, I think, the first variable that had ever truly surprised her.

She’d find an answer to it. Her kind always does.

But for one warm evening, in the middle of the most dangerous place in the world, the people had built a wall around me that no empire could whisper down — and I finally understood that my real strength had never been the Scroll, or the sneeze, or the stolen pants.

It was them.

It was always going to come down to them.

I just didn’t yet know what they’d be asked to pay for it.